The life of a Federal Felon

In another lifetime I had a woman in my life that I called my fiancee. Long before I suffered the rath of the Federal Government. I was a happy camper with all that I had. Then the worse happened. After that another bad thing happened, I lost the love that I thought I had. Now I'm living in the aftermath of all that I once knew with the one that I use to love on the other side as the mother of my youngest daughter acting a fool because I refuse to have her do to me what she done before. This is trouble for me. For the time being. Or so she thinks!
This whole thing is about her not getting what she wants most, Me! And this will never happen. I am not the same guy that she once new and I cannot be that idiot that I ONCE WAS FOR HER. I am married now to someone that loves me more than anyone that I've ever known and will know. I will not give that up for someone that left me for dead and is just pissed that I didn't die like she thought I would. I refuse to die then and I refuse to let anyone take me out. I'm back better than ever and she can't stand it that I still look good and everone who's seen me says so.
I'm the target now of her rath because she scewed up with me by abandening me like she did and I didn't die. I can expect her to do things like keep my daughter away from me and hold her hostege for my effections with she will not get. I won't let her hold my daughter over my head. I can't! If I did I'll never be free of her games and I do not want to play these games with her. I have to play this as if "what ever" and hope that I'm right because I love my little girl. I'll suffer for a little bit but the. Message will be sent that she can't hold anything over my head. It won't work!
I know also that now she may come at me with child support for my daughter. If she does that may backfire right in her face. I am my daughters father and I have the paperwork to prove it. Court works two ways in this country and for someone like me that's had my share of trials and two years of law studies, she's in for a time that she won't like. As I said, I may suffer a little in the beginning, only because I just got out, but things will pan out for me in the l ong run. My wife and kids love me, thay's a great start.

There's something about rainy days that I just love. I don't know what it is about them that has me like them so much but I do. They put me in a calm and cool mood.
I really don't have a lot to say about it.

The next day I'm thinking about the events that transpired the day before. Now I don't like myself. I've fallen into the same trap that many other guys have fallen into. This is not me. I'm not an abuser! I love my wife. I may not show this all of the time but I really do love her.
Though the reason that I put my hands on her wasn't a good reason to do this my rage was caused by her and her constant insecurities towards me it seems. I don't know what it is that I can do or say to make her not be so insecure.
I don't think that I ever given her any reason to act like that with me. I do know that she has had some not so good guys in her life before that didn't act right.
Now I have to be the one to change things between us because I really don't want to go any where. I have a good home with her and my kids and this is where I want to be so this is where I'm going to stay.
Sometimes things just get so complicated that you can't see any other way out accept to just leave. This isn't a solution to the problem. It's only a quick fix. What happens after the high wears off?

I am getting so screwed on this whole Financial Aide thing.This is my delimma in a nut shell. I wrote this letter and sent it to everyone that I could think of, from the Mayors office to the President of the United States for for help. 10/15/2008






Dear Mayor Nutter,


I'm writing this to you today seeking help in this matter of importance.
On March 14th of this year I was released from prison after a nine year stay. Not long after I applied to Strayer University and was accepted. Or should I say, "I was pushed through to attend". I began the summer semester "before" my financial aide was ever approved. This is where my problem lies.
When I questioned beginning classes before my financial aide was accepted, Strayer told me "not to worry about it". They assured me that their students rarely get denied.
Two weeks later my package was "denied" because I didn't register for Selective Service! Strayer told me that I had to contact Selective Service and have them send me an exemption number. Once Strayer received the exemption number they told me that I could finish the process and I did.
Not long after words Strayer informed me that my package had been denied “again” for the same reason.
At this time I told them that I wanted to stop going to class because I could not afford to pay for classes out of pocket. They firmly told me that if I dropped the classes that I would be liable for more than the amount that I owed and that it would be better for me if I stayed in class.
They also assured me that this would be no problem and that they would be working on my case, but for me to continue going to class.
Month after month my wife and I kept in close contact with Strayer to resolve this issue. Finally I received a letter from Selective Service stating, with a case log number, that no one was to be exempt from any State or Federal benefits because they did not register. The letter also states that they (Selective Service) "was Not responsible for informing individuals of there obligation to register" and that no one can register for Selective Service after the age of 25.
Question 1: If no one is responsible for informing the public at large that they are suppose to register, how will anyone know that they must?
Question 2: If no one is suppose to be exempt from any State or Federal benefits why am I being denied a higher education because I did not register?
The people from FAFSA called me themselves and told me that it was not them that was holding me back, that it was the school that's denying me. FAFSA said that they were only waiting on Strayer to approve my package and they would release the funds.
Selective Service said, in the letter that they sent me, that I should use the letter as a reference for who ever I'm seeking consideration from. I did this! I gave a copy of letter to Strayer to give to their corporate officer to justify approving my package. Strayer corporate denied me. Their reason, I didn’t register for Selective Service!
Now I am forced to pay the more than 3,000 that they charged me for the two classes that I took for the one semester that I was there.
The help that I'm seeking is three fold:
1. Help paying the 3,000 that Strayer says that I owe them.
2. Help with my Selective Service registration exemption letter.
3. Help paying for my college education as I don't make enough to pay for it myself.
Anything that you could do to help me in this situation would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for your help,


Now what do I do?

It's a hurtful thing to feel like you've been distroyed. I was once this really nice and opptomistic guy about love and life and now I sometimes just want to cry my eyes out because of the way I've been treated.
I once had a love in my life that could not be taken away from me. So I thought! I found out the hard way that my love was only my love because I was there. Once I went away ,and even before, she had other plans for her life without me.
This is the thing that distroyed me so bad. I was only gone for a very short time and she was. Already with someone else. How could this be the one that professed her love to me and vowed to marry me? If it's this easy to forget about me and move on then she wasn't really mine in the first place. I know this is the truth. But that only accounts for how she must have felt but what about how I feel about the whole situation? I didn't feel the same way that she felt and I was more than willing to continue with it all at first. Until I realized that she would never really love me or really want to be with me. As soon as something comes along she's out of the door. I know this is true but it still hurts.
Now I have a wife that loves me to death and would do anything for me that I ask. The problem? I'm scared! How do I get over the pain that has been with me for so long in order to give myself to the one who really loves me? And how do I bring myself to love he back the way that she loves me when she knows that I'm not in-love with her?