Monday, November 3, 2008 1:17:12 PM
In another lifetime I had a woman in my life that I called my fiancee. Long before I suffered the rath of the Federal Government. I was a happy camper with all that I had. Then the worse happened. After that another bad thing happened, I lost the love that I thought I had. Now I'm living in the aftermath of all that I once knew with the one that I use to love on the other side as the mother of my youngest daughter acting a fool because I refuse to have her do to me what she done before. This is trouble for me. For the time being. Or so she thinks!
This whole thing is about her not getting what she wants most, Me! And this will never happen. I am not the same guy that she once new and I cannot be that idiot that I ONCE WAS FOR HER. I am married now to someone that loves me more than anyone that I've ever known and will know. I will not give that up for someone that left me for dead and is just pissed that I didn't die like she thought I would. I refuse to die then and I refuse to let anyone take me out. I'm back better than ever and she can't stand it that I still look good and everone who's seen me says so.
I'm the target now of her rath because she scewed up with me by abandening me like she did and I didn't die. I can expect her to do things like keep my daughter away from me and hold her hostege for my effections with she will not get. I won't let her hold my daughter over my head. I can't! If I did I'll never be free of her games and I do not want to play these games with her. I have to play this as if "what ever" and hope that I'm right because I love my little girl. I'll suffer for a little bit but the. Message will be sent that she can't hold anything over my head. It won't work!
I know also that now she may come at me with child support for my daughter. If she does that may backfire right in her face. I am my daughters father and I have the paperwork to prove it. Court works two ways in this country and for someone like me that's had my share of trials and two years of law studies, she's in for a time that she won't like. As I said, I may suffer a little in the beginning, only because I just got out, but things will pan out for me in the l ong run. My wife and kids love me, thay's a great start.
Saturday, November 1, 2008 11:59:59 AM
I've been a way for a few days because I have a new phone and I'm trying to get Opera Mini on it. It seems that my phone is too new for opera to be downloaded to it. Now I have to try another way. I have the new Tmobile G1. It's great so far I just have to get use to it. If anyone has any ideas about how to download opera I'm all ears..
Tuesday, October 28, 2008 11:51:47 AM
There's something about rainy days that I just love. I don't know what it is about them that has me like them so much but I do. They put me in a calm and cool mood.
I really don't have a lot to say about it.
Friday, October 24, 2008 12:14:04 PM
Yes my people, I've got a Dell with Vista! My brother tells me that he heard some bad things about vista. Well I haven't had it that long for any bad things to come about. One good OS is as good as the other I say. As long as it does what I want it to do that's all I care about. I'm not a computer geek or neer it so the basic oohs and ahhs are good enough for me for right now. I'm still learning everything all over again so it all looks good to me now.
I'll tell you though I do like all of these new kind of phones that we have now a days. I have a Blackberry now but I have the T-moble G1 on order. They say that it may be better than the IPhone! I'll let you know Nov. 10th. That's when I receive it. But I tell you something, that Blackberry "Storm" is going to give all of them a run for their money. I would get that but I already ordered the G1. My wife is the one that's going to get the Storm as soon as it's released here in the U.S.
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 11:52:41 AM
The next day I'm thinking about the events that transpired the day before. Now I don't like myself. I've fallen into the same trap that many other guys have fallen into. This is not me. I'm not an abuser! I love my wife. I may not show this all of the time but I really do love her.
Though the reason that I put my hands on her wasn't a good reason to do this my rage was caused by her and her constant insecurities towards me it seems. I don't know what it is that I can do or say to make her not be so insecure.
I don't think that I ever given her any reason to act like that with me. I do know that she has had some not so good guys in her life before that didn't act right.
Now I have to be the one to change things between us because I really don't want to go any where. I have a good home with her and my kids and this is where I want to be so this is where I'm going to stay.
Sometimes things just get so complicated that you can't see any other way out accept to just leave. This isn't a solution to the problem. It's only a quick fix. What happens after the high wears off?
Monday, October 20, 2008 12:31:56 PM
I try and try and try to be and do everything that a man is suppose to do and it's still not good enough for my wife. She wants more and more and more! I don't go anywhere, I don't have any friends, I don't hang with family and I'm not cheating. What more can you possibly want from me? I don't do anything and she still bitches about every little thing that I do!
She has security issues that I don't have and she is just driving me crazy! I can not take this sh*# anymore! I need to leave but I have nowhere to go. I have nothing! I just got out of federal prison after nine years inside. This can not continue. I didn't do all of that time just to have her take me through this sh*# now. I've come too far and been through too much to have her bring me down this way.
As soon as I can I'm gone! This will not be the end of me and it will not be how I live my life. I put my hands around her neck last night cause I could not take her bitching anymore! And for what? Because I have A picture of my daughters mother on my page! That's it! She doesn't want me to have or to know anyone from my past cause she has issues. It isn't good enough that I dedicated my life to her, she has to want more!
How can you tell someone to destroy all remnents of their past for you? That's not right! My past is my past and no one should be made to erase it.
Monday, October 20, 2008 1:13:32 AM
I am getting so screwed on this whole Financial Aide thing.This is my delimma in a nut shell. I wrote this letter and sent it to everyone that I could think of, from the Mayors office to the President of the United States for for help. 10/15/2008
Dear Mayor Nutter,
I'm writing this to you today seeking help in this matter of importance.
On March 14th of this year I was released from prison after a nine year stay. Not long after I applied to Strayer University and was accepted. Or should I say, "I was pushed through to attend". I began the summer semester "before" my financial aide was ever approved. This is where my problem lies.
When I questioned beginning classes before my financial aide was accepted, Strayer told me "not to worry about it". They assured me that their students rarely get denied.
Two weeks later my package was "denied" because I didn't register for Selective Service! Strayer told me that I had to contact Selective Service and have them send me an exemption number. Once Strayer received the exemption number they told me that I could finish the process and I did.
Not long after words Strayer informed me that my package had been denied “again” for the same reason.
At this time I told them that I wanted to stop going to class because I could not afford to pay for classes out of pocket. They firmly told me that if I dropped the classes that I would be liable for more than the amount that I owed and that it would be better for me if I stayed in class.
They also assured me that this would be no problem and that they would be working on my case, but for me to continue going to class.
Month after month my wife and I kept in close contact with Strayer to resolve this issue. Finally I received a letter from Selective Service stating, with a case log number, that no one was to be exempt from any State or Federal benefits because they did not register. The letter also states that they (Selective Service) "was Not responsible for informing individuals of there obligation to register" and that no one can register for Selective Service after the age of 25.
Question 1: If no one is responsible for informing the public at large that they are suppose to register, how will anyone know that they must?
Question 2: If no one is suppose to be exempt from any State or Federal benefits why am I being denied a higher education because I did not register?
The people from FAFSA called me themselves and told me that it was not them that was holding me back, that it was the school that's denying me. FAFSA said that they were only waiting on Strayer to approve my package and they would release the funds.
Selective Service said, in the letter that they sent me, that I should use the letter as a reference for who ever I'm seeking consideration from. I did this! I gave a copy of letter to Strayer to give to their corporate officer to justify approving my package. Strayer corporate denied me. Their reason, I didn’t register for Selective Service!
Now I am forced to pay the more than 3,000 that they charged me for the two classes that I took for the one semester that I was there.
The help that I'm seeking is three fold:
1. Help paying the 3,000 that Strayer says that I owe them.
2. Help with my Selective Service registration exemption letter.
3. Help paying for my college education as I don't make enough to pay for it myself.
Anything that you could do to help me in this situation would be greatly appreciated.
Thank you for your help,
Now what do I do?
Saturday, October 18, 2008 11:59:03 AM
My life is full of unexpected things. Every day that I'm poor and my wife dose things that makes things worse and gets an attitude because I say something about it, I'm pissed! We already have no money and she waist all that we do have so that we have to buy more of these things more often. Am I wrong for being pissed?
We sould be tring to conserve what we have not waist it! Before long we won't have anything, then what? I'm trying not to let that happen and she has an attitude. What the fu@$ is that? She won't be happy untill we have nothing living on the streets.
Something has to happen before long. If she gets pissed because I'm trying to help us how can we ever get anywhere?
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 12:01:54 PM
It's a hurtful thing to feel like you've been distroyed. I was once this really nice and opptomistic guy about love and life and now I sometimes just want to cry my eyes out because of the way I've been treated.
I once had a love in my life that could not be taken away from me. So I thought! I found out the hard way that my love was only my love because I was there. Once I went away ,and even before, she had other plans for her life without me.
This is the thing that distroyed me so bad. I was only gone for a very short time and she was. Already with someone else. How could this be the one that professed her love to me and vowed to marry me? If it's this easy to forget about me and move on then she wasn't really mine in the first place. I know this is the truth. But that only accounts for how she must have felt but what about how I feel about the whole situation? I didn't feel the same way that she felt and I was more than willing to continue with it all at first. Until I realized that she would never really love me or really want to be with me. As soon as something comes along she's out of the door. I know this is true but it still hurts.
Now I have a wife that loves me to death and would do anything for me that I ask. The problem? I'm scared! How do I get over the pain that has been with me for so long in order to give myself to the one who really loves me? And how do I bring myself to love he back the way that she loves me when she knows that I'm not in-love with her?
Monday, October 13, 2008 11:41:54 AM
I have a thing about being clean that just is not funny. When I go over someones house I have to see how clean it is. I don't have much of a choice in the matter you know?
I've seen that many people that I know don't like keeping there house clean at all. This is something that I could never do. If my house isn't clean I'm bitching about it. My wife and daughter both know that I am that way. But it isn't a superiority thing it's just a me thing. My own brother doesn't care to make sure that his house is cleaned at all. This will never happen with me.
People need to act more like adults and put their kids to work and give them chores to do. Even if that means giving them an allowence that helps push them to do the jobs. As long as the house stays clean.
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