My OperaDistruction
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 12:01:54 PM
It's a hurtful thing to feel like you've been distroyed. I was once this really nice and opptomistic guy about love and life and now I sometimes just want to cry my eyes out because of the way I've been treated.
I once had a love in my life that could not be taken away from me. So I thought! I found out the hard way that my love was only my love because I was there. Once I went away ,and even before, she had other plans for her life without me.
This is the thing that distroyed me so bad. I was only gone for a very short time and she was. Already with someone else. How could this be the one that professed her love to me and vowed to marry me? If it's this easy to forget about me and move on then she wasn't really mine in the first place. I know this is the truth. But that only accounts for how she must have felt but what about how I feel about the whole situation? I didn't feel the same way that she felt and I was more than willing to continue with it all at first. Until I realized that she would never really love me or really want to be with me. As soon as something comes along she's out of the door. I know this is true but it still hurts.
Now I have a wife that loves me to death and would do anything for me that I ask. The problem? I'm scared! How do I get over the pain that has been with me for so long in order to give myself to the one who really loves me? And how do I bring myself to love he back the way that she loves me when she knows that I'm not in-love with her?
I once had a love in my life that could not be taken away from me. So I thought! I found out the hard way that my love was only my love because I was there. Once I went away ,and even before, she had other plans for her life without me.
This is the thing that distroyed me so bad. I was only gone for a very short time and she was. Already with someone else. How could this be the one that professed her love to me and vowed to marry me? If it's this easy to forget about me and move on then she wasn't really mine in the first place. I know this is the truth. But that only accounts for how she must have felt but what about how I feel about the whole situation? I didn't feel the same way that she felt and I was more than willing to continue with it all at first. Until I realized that she would never really love me or really want to be with me. As soon as something comes along she's out of the door. I know this is true but it still hurts.
Now I have a wife that loves me to death and would do anything for me that I ask. The problem? I'm scared! How do I get over the pain that has been with me for so long in order to give myself to the one who really loves me? And how do I bring myself to love he back the way that she loves me when she knows that I'm not in-love with her?
