Old Notebooks
Tuesday, 13. September 2005, 20:05:37
One is from when she was helping me schedule. In the margin, with the pink pen she was using is her signature, well, her first name with my last name, the whole back of the piece of paper is covered with variations on that theme. Her first name with my last.
Surprisingly, I'm just smiling... The other piece of paper I found is a note. At the top is a heart with my name in it, it goes...
William,
Here is everything - I hope it doesn't take you too long to write your paper. I hope that your brother is ok. I know that it's hard for both of you right now. I really admire the way that you look out for him - even if I don't seem to. Remember that I am extremely selfish, and would keep you all to myself all the time if I could! I know that it's going to be a late night for you, but I also know that it will be worth it in the long run. Will, I believe in you so deeply - I have so much hope for you and I know that you will find whatever you are looking for in this crazy life. You have given me much more than you know, and I only hope that I can repay you in happiness. I love you with all my heart -
And and small signature, she ran out of space. Based on the papers around it was written around Fall 2003 or 2004. Somewhere in there (probably closer to 2003).
I miss her.
It's not like I'm not trying. I made out with another girl this past weekend... she was fun but I could only think about Lauren, I tried not to, but...
WIDGETIZE