My Unpredictable Mind

There are millions upon millions of movies, stories, poems, etc. about love. This emotion seems to be the basis of the media; Who loves whom in celebrity gossip, who cheated on whom, what soap opera star confessed love to another soap opera star. The list goes on and on. So many people strive for just that one thing, to be loved and love, that it almost seems like the most complex and rare emotion. However, How about pain? Must you know pain very well to know what love is? So many people know pain so well than you would think there would be more love in real life instead of those silly romance novels and movies.

I did not come from the best of backgrounds but I did not come from the worst. I always knew both emotions, pain and love, very well. It seemed to create a balance in my life, even though one sometimes felt stronger than the other. Im not sure if I would have ever been able to feel real love without feeling real pain first. The pain that makes you wish you could just die or that you were never born so that nobody would feel pain because of you dying.

This may seem morbid, but really, its not. It is the basic form of sense. People always see pain as a bad thing, however, pain sets off the same endorphins that pleasure does. If this is so, how do we really know the difference between a good feeling and a bad feeling? How do we really know one without the other? I believe pain and love will find a balance in everybody's lives. Yes, I have love, but only because I have had pain, and will continue on in the future, its inevitable. However, its how you deal with the pain and love, that makes you who you are. Will you run from the love because the pain has worn you down or will you rise up and be strong so that love can find you?

Pain is the truest feeling a person can have. Love is the truest feeling two people can have towards each other. How will you decide? Rise? or Fall? Your decision. Your feelings. Your life.