acemi is abroad

... am I? My answer to the question "Are you home sick?" is an absolute No! It's been 5 months since I'm in Bonn and today I'm in doubt about this answer. It's already the longest period I'm spending out of Turkey and I have 5 more months here before I turn back home.

I don't know what I might be missing,

Istanbul?
to be able to express myself in my mother tongue?
friends?
all?
none?

All these questions and doubts accrue when I think about my reasons to be abroad.

to see another part of the world?
to grow up?
to escape?
to heal?

I don't know the answer(s).