acemi is abroad

10 months ago I started my abroad experience in Bonn, Germany and now I'm back to my city, Istanbul. I was supposed to finish my internship end of September but with a short notice decision we extended it 2 more months for the last time. I bought my return ticket months ago and because I missed home very much I've decided to come to Istanbul.

To be at home is a strange feeling, realise that it doesn't make me happy. Feeling not belonging anywhere I've been but knowing still it's my city, my country, my language I'm speaking... I'm even more afraid of not finding a home which gives me peace and happiness or forcing myself to accept circumstances. It'a shame not to cheer up in such a beautiful city and not even want to walk around.

My stay in Istanbul isn't a relaxing holiday as I expected and now I just hope my unpeaceful soul finds a place which it feels at ease with.