simple Things

Today I saw what life after divorce is for some persons, especially if they have commenced another relationship: a common place. Wanna see why? Just a few steps: 1- first the wife falls in love with the husband's best friend. The friend, seeing there a better "piece of meat" that the one he has secretly encourages that passion non regarding anything else. 2- the wife (or husband) gains courage and leaves the family house with the kid to the friends house. He had promised her that on matter what he would take care of them, her and the kid. 3- few months lather, generally two or tree she gets pregnant, what a better way to seal this yet young relation than to have a child? meaning a bond for life (just in case, wouldn't she or he wanted to return to some past). During this state of grace the child from her previous marriage was never in stake, everything was fine and her companion was even well payed. A happy new family. 4 - the new child is born, oh joy! Then, gradually, her older kid from the other relation starts to misbehave, she starts to demand even more and more to the ex even her share of the expenses because the kid's father in law refuses to pay what ever it is for the child. And the mother agrees. Then, both, say ; If you dont pay more we'll put the kid at your door.... It happened to me. Themselves, until three months ago had an opposite position. Is shelfishness surpassing the other feelings such as the mother's love?? :S

Today completes one year after our separation.
On the five of April we´ve putted an end to a 7 year relationship, leaving me for my best friend.so common place.
The first week after and then the first month seemed to never end, but then, I started to rise again, one day after the other, sometimes feeling marvilous, others hurting like hell.
Jealousy, a bit of frustration and some sadness were part of me in those days but, thru the months my life and myself,we've changed.very.
Almost four years in one.Yet,worthwhile. We're so different and I think that we would alway´s be colliding.

She's pregnant now, 8 months or so from her companion.I´m on a relationship with another person.Almost the opposite of my ex,and it has made me rediscover love when I didn´t found it was possible.
Now, one year later, I´m older, going bold, and wating to be transfered to another city and...

That´s the way life is. made of changes. and there´s only um one to go: FORWARD

Currently listening to... Kanie West "I wonder". This song is somehow like a crossroad,optimistic, yet melancholic,divided between yesterday's sorrow and the hope on the tomorrow. Now... Matisyahu with "Jerusalem", a hymn to you as a being, and how the society, the system, tries to corrupt you destroying your values, taking you down.Also a great chill out song.

This post was ment to be posted at 11:00am...but a bug in the opera mini beta 4, stopped me from posting..

Beyond, this, I just wanted to do a flashback, and close a cicle;

When I created this blog it was ment so serve to share my passion for the small things in life that many times we dont give importance but there are somtimes the most important, but so frequent that oftenly we dont givethen the importance they deserve;

But, in later 2006 , and 2007, It was used to speak about mySelf, of how my life has been and how I´ve survived to the end of my marriage, how I´ve been feeling , day after day,and my hopes in the future;
Perhaps sometimes I´ve said too mutch but that´s just me, I can´t keep it to myself; Its a therapy speaking with someone, calming me down, and renewing my hope on tomorrow.

that has been vital to me, and has made me face life after marriage, with a smile even if yellow; Never skipped worked "just because", cried a lot but, now´s the time to go straight;
Still alone, but also, seeing life and everybody around me from a different angle;

If I looked at myself 2 years ago, i would not recognize me...I´m aware that I could have done some things differently, but some attitudes taken by her made act that way...Everything seemed to be related, like if it had to be.

Today is one of our national holiday´s marking the end of the monarchy, replaced on the 05 of october 1910, by a republican government.

Also, a week as passed since we got legally divorced.

Tomorrow, six of october will have passed six months since we got separated.

I´m still here, seeing her every week, because of our older kid, now in school.
...And shes proudly pregnant.again.from the other guy.and unemployed.

that's her problem now. She´s old enough to know what she wants to do with her life.


About me, I´m thinking about changes; of Life, City, Job....Starting Over.

I was reading the blog of a BIG friend of mine, that I found in Opera blogs. And reaching a million may not be such a big thing if we're talking about Blogger, or Wordpress, those known almost by everybody. Opera "its a kind of magic"! Very little promotion, but with so mutch so give. Its personal and, has become a part of me, like the browser itself, with me since 2001,when it was "Opera 5". Later on an "abandonware" I even found Opera 1,from 98 I think. All this to say that so many times we dont really try to see the important in life.only the obvious, and the obvious oftenly isnt the best choice.