My Opera
YOUR AMUL
Tuesday, May 8, 2012 6:00:12 PM
Can i keep you and never let you go? Can i hold your hand and hug you tight? Can i tell the world how lucky i am eo have you in my life? or simply, can you be mine for the rest of my life?..
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what is life?
Sunday, May 26, 2013 8:27:58 AM
“People come, people go – they’ll driftin and out of your life, almost like characters in a favorite book. When you finally close the cover, the characters have told their story and you start up again with another book, complete with new characters and adventures. Then you find yourself focusing on the new ones, not the ones from the past.”
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drama in love
Friday, May 24, 2013 9:40:12 AM
“It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for what you arenot. <3<3
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IS MONEY MORE IMPORTANT THAN LIFE?
Saturday, December 31, 2011 5:19:04 PM
Please Read..., Dont ignore...., its a heart breaking real story collected by me......, in the above image..., a women went to collect pension money.., but the govenment ignored to give pension to her.., she begged and cryied out.., but they thrown her out side on the road.., she directly falls on big stone and died..., but the two childrens they dont know that, her mother died.., they crying for her mother..., but you know that.., her pension is 200 rs per month...., her life cost is 200 rs..., so is the life is cheaper than money..., so friends..., i am begging & requesting you all.., dont waste ur money .., by unwanted partys.., start your new year with helping others.., please share sum pocket money what you have in the new year...., party may give happy for sum time..., but helping poor people in the new year gives year time happy.., but sad to say that...,friends do u know that..., no media and no political leader came to them..., so plz ley ur hand and say that poor people.., we are with you..., so i am ready to help with my full pocket money what i had now..., can you also help my friend....????????
Monday, July 30, 2012 4:14:08 AM
When i look at you, i cannot deny there is God, cause only God could have created some one as wonderful n beautiful as you 
Tuesday, February 28, 2012 5:08:06 PM
5 Love Facts 1-If it's because of her eyes or her lips or her great body. -It's not love, it's a LUST 2-If it's because of her intelligence or insight about life. -it's not love, it's and admiration 3-If it's because she cries everytime u try to leave. -it's not love, it's PITY. 4-If it's because she makes u forget 2 study and sleep. -it's not love, it's infatuation. 5-Love - is when you don't know why you seem to be attracted to dat person.. (Love has its reason, and that reason is unknown!)
WHAT IS MY FAULT??????????????????
Monday, February 20, 2012 9:56:20 PM
What troubles you my love..
That tear rolling down, betrays your smile
Don't torment me with silence
Where did things go wrong..
What troubles you my love..
Why do I see a stranger
Where is the friend I confided in..
Hurt me, hate me, but talk to me..
What troubles you, my love..
When did you stop believing
In the dream we saw together
Don't give up on me so soon..
What troubles you my love..
Those tears are silent torment
Make me powerless, helpless..
Say it, I can take it..
What troubles you my love..
Let's begin again, I can change
Forgive me, punish me
But come back to me again..
That tear rolling down, betrays your smile
Don't torment me with silence
Where did things go wrong..
What troubles you my love..
Why do I see a stranger
Where is the friend I confided in..
Hurt me, hate me, but talk to me..
What troubles you, my love..
When did you stop believing
In the dream we saw together
Don't give up on me so soon..
What troubles you my love..
Those tears are silent torment
Make me powerless, helpless..
Say it, I can take it..
What troubles you my love..
Let's begin again, I can change
Forgive me, punish me
But come back to me again..
A STRANGE LOVE
Monday, February 20, 2012 9:46:12 PM
Love is strange
Measured in different range.
If the frequencies don't match
You are bound to miss the catch.
This strange thing, guess happened to me
Where I thought she was the one, meant to be.
But got a glimpse of the fake in her
I really thank my stars, didn't get into her.
Everything seemed magical
Strange things took place and became tragical.
Love was not even at my par
Cause her lies covered it far.
Girls say, they need love and care
As they feel that its rare.
But when they get the rare
They forget it comes with a cost to spare.
Things change drastically and so did with me
Cause love was not her cup of tea.
All she wanted, was to kill time with me
Not live with or be there for me.
This leaves me speechless
Making my life meaningless.
Thinking if, I was true to my heart
Then why had her to call it apart.
Thinking for days long
Where do I actually belong.
Sinking in the storm
Today revealing the norms.
Better be careful all my friends
As love is strange, and do have sad ends.
Cause love does have two sides
One is our, and the other may be blind!!!
Measured in different range.
If the frequencies don't match
You are bound to miss the catch.
This strange thing, guess happened to me
Where I thought she was the one, meant to be.
But got a glimpse of the fake in her
I really thank my stars, didn't get into her.
Everything seemed magical
Strange things took place and became tragical.
Love was not even at my par
Cause her lies covered it far.
Girls say, they need love and care
As they feel that its rare.
But when they get the rare
They forget it comes with a cost to spare.
Things change drastically and so did with me
Cause love was not her cup of tea.
All she wanted, was to kill time with me
Not live with or be there for me.
This leaves me speechless
Making my life meaningless.
Thinking if, I was true to my heart
Then why had her to call it apart.
Thinking for days long
Where do I actually belong.
Sinking in the storm
Today revealing the norms.
Better be careful all my friends
As love is strange, and do have sad ends.
Cause love does have two sides
One is our, and the other may be blind!!!
Monday, February 20, 2012 7:44:49 PM
1 Green leaves,
2 Yellow leaves,
3 Red leaves, and brown,
ALL Falling,
ALL Falling,
ALL Blanketing the town.
4 Oak leaves,
5 Maple leaves,
6 Apple leaves, and pear,
ALL Falling,
ALL Whispering,
ALL “Autumn’s in the air!”
7 Big leaves,
8 Little leaves,
9 Pointed leaves, and round,
ALL Falling,
ALL Nestling,
ALL Carpeting the ground.
2 Yellow leaves,
3 Red leaves, and brown,
ALL Falling,
ALL Falling,
ALL Blanketing the town.
4 Oak leaves,
5 Maple leaves,
6 Apple leaves, and pear,
ALL Falling,
ALL Whispering,
ALL “Autumn’s in the air!”
7 Big leaves,
8 Little leaves,
9 Pointed leaves, and round,
ALL Falling,
ALL Nestling,
ALL Carpeting the ground.
truth about lonliness and single. ....... its my opinion and yours?
Thursday, February 16, 2012 6:31:54 PM
Have you ever thought about the reasons why some people stay single and some people jump from relationship to relationship? It's no secret that many people who are in relationships oftentimes find it confusing as to why some of their single friends choose to stay single because they think that it most be awfully lonely to be by yourself. Isn't it time you learned the truth about being single and loneliness? If so, you will be glad to know that in this article you will discover the truth about being single and loneliness. Truth About Being Single and Loneliness! You cannot be lonely if you like the person you're alone with. Wayne Dyer This quote by Wayne Dyer pretty much says it all in regards to being single and lonely. What's more being in relationship doesn't make that loneliness you feel go away. All it does is at best is cover up and make you more vulnerable to living a less than extraordinary life. When you like the person you are alone with you have the inner strength and resolve to say "No" to people who aren't right or healthy for your life. When you are uncomfortable with the person that you are alone with you are always seeking someone outside of you to make you happy. In the short-term it can be rather easy to find someone or something outside of you to make you happy. Yet, as soon as things begin to become comfortable and you find yourself reflecting on the other person in the relationship. All of those things that bring discomfort when you are alone with yourself begin to be projected even more so on them. What's worse, is that oftentimes you aren't even consciously aware of any of this happening all you know is that you are in and out of relationships or the relationship that you are in has so many challenges and difficulties yet you don't know why or how to handle them. That's why if you are single or find yourself alone with your self you should take that time to get to know your self and like your self that way you can be at one, happy and content with life as it is the way it is. Of course, your friends and family might not understand how you can be so happy, content, and at peace while being single. Thankfully, since you are content with your own life you realize that it isn't your job to make them content and at peace with their own lives, instead it is simply to give them an example of what it could be like. Amul a cool guy who has written a special report on the DateLess Method which will help you attract women in a very natural and powerful way.
what is soulmate? how can u find it?
Tuesday, February 14, 2012 6:17:26 PM
When you meet your soul mate, you don't recognize the face. You don't walk up to that person and know by looking at that person he or she is your soul mate. Many times you are brought together by circumstances that seem like coincidence. It's about a feeling of being awakened. For me, I was totally taken off guard and, at first, was totally thrown off balance...like the rug had been pulled from under my feet. It is like you were asleep until you were touched by that kindred soul and then you are awakened and nothing is ever the same again. You now know that life before was not life but a dim existence and that up until that touch life was OK. If your feelings are so intense that it scares you and you run away, it won't last. I tried it. It felt great but it was also scary. I had never felt like that before with anyone...ever. There will be no denying it; you won't be able to get this person out of your mind and your heart. He or she is part of you now and nothing will change it. The thought of them will send chills down your spine. You'll know that even if you are apart trying to deny the feeling NOTHING that happens will change the way you feel. Just the touch of their hand on yours gives you a feeling that cannot be described. Being in their presence will give you a feeling that is unparalled. This person never leaves your thoughts or your heart. It will feel like that person is somehow imprinted into you now. A part of you that will remain no matter what. I believe that soul mates exist on a higher level of love. There is a strong connection that is present that is simply just there. You can almost communicate with that person without even speaking. You cannot always be with your soul mate either which can seem like a really cruel joke or something. Your soul mate may be married or there may be other circumstances where you cannot be together. In this situation, life can be quite miserable but you can learn to live with it. I am trying to do that now. However, it is not easy at all. There is a strong sadness and feeling of emptiness if you cannot be with your soul mate. There have been many times that I wished I never met my soul mate but it was never up to me. It just happened like it was something that was supposed to happen even though we cannot be together. It is very difficult for me to understand that and I question why I had to meet this person that I cannot be with. Fortunately, for me, I am very busy and that helps some but sometimes I get this sinking feeling and almost physically sick at the thought of never seeing this person again. Even though I cannot be with my soul mate as a partner, I was able to be around him on a regular basis for a while. Just being around him was better than not seeing him at all. It's been over a year now since I last saw him. It is very difficult and there are days that I feel like a part of me has died. The lights have been dimmed. I've always been an upbeat person in general but there is a sadness that seems to hang over me many days even though most people don't know it. I've gotten pretty good at hiding it from strangers and co-workers but my friends and family see it. You will absolutely know without a doubt when you meet your soul mate. You may not know immediately what is happening but trust me, it won't take long and you will know. For me, I was not even looking or thinking along the lines of meeting someone, especially in the situation that I was in when I met mine. I felt kind of emotionally ambushed but it felt really good. I will never be the same as I was before. I am happy that I met him and I am sad that I don't get to spend time with him at all. I miss him terribly and would do just about anything to see his face again, and just have a conversation of any kind at all! Maybe someday it'll happen. I've accepted that it may not.
INVISIBLE LOVE THAT U CANT C
Sunday, February 12, 2012 4:34:52 AM
In your eyes I am invisible
Although I know you see me clear
What I mean is how I feel,
You not knowing my feelings there.
But now I feel you slipping
Into someone else dream cloud
How could I've been so stupid
Should've spoken when you smiled
Now I can only hope for a chance
Because to me, you're irrisitable
Please smile at me again
So I'll know I'm not invisible.
Although I know you see me clear
What I mean is how I feel,
You not knowing my feelings there.
But now I feel you slipping
Into someone else dream cloud
How could I've been so stupid
Should've spoken when you smiled
Now I can only hope for a chance
Because to me, you're irrisitable
Please smile at me again
So I'll know I'm not invisible.
Sunday, February 12, 2012 4:30:10 AM
You can feel the whole world and still feel lost in it. So many people are in pain — no matter how smart or accomplished — they cry, they yearn, they hurt. But instead of looking down on things, they look up, which is where I should have been looking, too. Because when the world quiets to the sound of your own breathing, we all want the same things: comfort, love and a peaceful heart.
you and me
Monday, January 30, 2012 7:23:24 PM
You and me
we’ve been through everything
We’ve stood the test of time
We’ve weathered every storm
and still, here we are
You and me
we’ve had our ups and downs
We’ve gone around and around
We’ve seen it all
and we’re still here
You and me
we’ve been good together
and we’ve been on our own
but we are at our best
when we are where we belong
It’s you and me
We are meant to be
No matter what may come our way
We’ll be together always
we’ve been through everything
We’ve stood the test of time
We’ve weathered every storm
and still, here we are
You and me
we’ve had our ups and downs
We’ve gone around and around
We’ve seen it all
and we’re still here
You and me
we’ve been good together
and we’ve been on our own
but we are at our best
when we are where we belong
It’s you and me
We are meant to be
No matter what may come our way
We’ll be together always
FILL MY HEART
Monday, January 30, 2012 7:07:38 PM
You can make my heartbeat
in a thousand different ways
And I swear sometimes I can’t breathe
when you look my way
I don’t know what it is about you
But there’s something to you
that I need, so deeply
and I always want you with me
You can make my heart smile
through any kind of day
And I swear I never feel an ounce of sadness
you just wash it all way
I don’t know what is that you’ve got
but you’re holding it over me
and I’ve never felt this free
I’ve never felt so alive or happy
You fill my heart with love
and I’ve got so much love
to give to only you
our whole lives through
in a thousand different ways
And I swear sometimes I can’t breathe
when you look my way
I don’t know what it is about you
But there’s something to you
that I need, so deeply
and I always want you with me
You can make my heart smile
through any kind of day
And I swear I never feel an ounce of sadness
you just wash it all way
I don’t know what is that you’ve got
but you’re holding it over me
and I’ve never felt this free
I’ve never felt so alive or happy
You fill my heart with love
and I’ve got so much love
to give to only you
our whole lives through
I LOVE YOU
Monday, January 30, 2012 6:29:34 PM
I love you
more than love
I love you
deeper than the sea
I love you
bigger than the sun
I love you
higher than the trees
I love you to the moon
Well, I just really love you!
more than love
I love you
deeper than the sea
I love you
bigger than the sun
I love you
higher than the trees
I love you to the moon
Well, I just really love you!
Gemini Characteristics
Sunday, January 29, 2012 2:50:58 PM
Gemini go everywhere together, hand-in-hand, symbolizing your dual nature. Our world comes in pairs: good and evil, male and female, in and out, yin and yang -- and you Geminis are living proof. Some might say Gemini are an entanglement of paradoxes, but the truth is that Gemini have an easy acceptance of opposites. Gemini world is one of duality. Gemini can like this and that, one thing and its opposite. It's like you see your world through a radio and Gemini can tune experiences and points of view in and out as your interests change. You Geminis are curious, talkative, versatile and mentally active. Your mind can bounce around from one topic to another with great ease, making Gemini the champion of cocktail party chatter and lighthearted social encounters. Others will think that Gemini are fun to be with, but your ability to change with the changing winds can also lead others to see Gemini as shallow. Gemini motto might be "A rolling stone gathers no moss." You are the eternally youthful child, no matter your chronological age. A razor-sharp wit can have you verbally dueling with the very best of opponents, who moments later are your best of friends. As you fly through life, don't forget to take time to smell the flowers.
Friday, January 27, 2012 7:35:10 PM
Bade ajeeb hain ye zindagi ke raaste,
Anjane mod par kuch log dost ban jate hain,
Milne ki khushi de ya na de,
Bichadne ka gum zaroor de jate hain.
Anjane mod par kuch log dost ban jate hain,
Milne ki khushi de ya na de,
Bichadne ka gum zaroor de jate hain.
Friday, January 27, 2012 6:53:06 PM
Ab aansuon ko aankhon mein sajana hoga,
Chiragh bhuj gaye, khud ko hi jalaana hoga,
Na samjhna ke tumse door rehkar khush hoon,
Lekin humein logon ki khaatir muskuraana hoga,
Phir shaam dhal gayee, tum ayye na aaj bhi,
Dil ko aaj phir umeedoon se behlaana hoga,
Yeh bhee maloom hai mujhe issi umeedo,
Pe kat jayagi yeh uddas jindagi meri,
Aur aakhir mein mujhe khali haath hi,
Tere bina, teri yaadon ke saath jaana hoga!!!
Chiragh bhuj gaye, khud ko hi jalaana hoga,
Na samjhna ke tumse door rehkar khush hoon,
Lekin humein logon ki khaatir muskuraana hoga,
Phir shaam dhal gayee, tum ayye na aaj bhi,
Dil ko aaj phir umeedoon se behlaana hoga,
Yeh bhee maloom hai mujhe issi umeedo,
Pe kat jayagi yeh uddas jindagi meri,
Aur aakhir mein mujhe khali haath hi,
Tere bina, teri yaadon ke saath jaana hoga!!!
Friday, January 27, 2012 6:37:30 PM
Khamosh thay hum to magroor samaj liya,
Chup hai hum to majboor samaj liya,
Yehi aap ki khusnasibhi hai ke hum itne karib hai,
Phir bhi apne dur samaj liya hai.
Chup hai hum to majboor samaj liya,
Yehi aap ki khusnasibhi hai ke hum itne karib hai,
Phir bhi apne dur samaj liya hai.
Sunday, January 22, 2012 6:42:16 AM
Salut! bois couronnés d'un reste de verdure!
Feuillages jaunissants sur les gazons épars!
Salut, dernier beaux jours! le deuil de la nature
Convient à la douleur et plaît à mes regards!
Je suis d'un pas rêveur le sentier solitaire,
J'aime à revoir encor, pour la dernière fois,
Ce soleil pâlissant, dont la faible lumière
Perce à peine à mes pieds l'obscurité des bois!
Oui, dans ces jours d'automne où la nature expire,
A ses regards voilés je trouve plus d'attraits,
C'est l'adieu d'un ami, c'est le dernier sourire
Des lèvres que la mort va fermer pour jamais!
Ainsi prêt à quitter l'horizon de la vie,
Pleurant de mes longs jours l'espoir évanoui,
Je me retourne encore, et d'un regard d'envi
Je contemple ses biens dont je n'ai pas joui!
Terre, soleil, vallons, belle et douce nature,
Je vous dois une larme, aux bords de mon tombeau;
L'air est si parfumé! La lumière est si pure!
Aux regards d'un mourant le soleil est si beau!
Je voudrais maintenant vider jusqu'à la lie
Ce calice mêlé de nectar et de fiel!
Au fond de cette coupe où je buvais la vie,
Peut-être restait-il une goutte de miel?
Peut-être l'avenir me gardait-il encore
Un retour de bonheur dont l'espoir est perdu?
Peut-être dans la foule, une âme que j'ignore
Aurait compris mon âme et m'aurait répondu?
La fleur tombe en livrant ses parfums au zéphyr,
A la vie, au soleil, ce sont là ses adieux;
Moi, je meurs; et mon âme, au moment qu'elle expire,
S'exhale comme un son triste et mélodieux.
Feuillages jaunissants sur les gazons épars!
Salut, dernier beaux jours! le deuil de la nature
Convient à la douleur et plaît à mes regards!
Je suis d'un pas rêveur le sentier solitaire,
J'aime à revoir encor, pour la dernière fois,
Ce soleil pâlissant, dont la faible lumière
Perce à peine à mes pieds l'obscurité des bois!
Oui, dans ces jours d'automne où la nature expire,
A ses regards voilés je trouve plus d'attraits,
C'est l'adieu d'un ami, c'est le dernier sourire
Des lèvres que la mort va fermer pour jamais!
Ainsi prêt à quitter l'horizon de la vie,
Pleurant de mes longs jours l'espoir évanoui,
Je me retourne encore, et d'un regard d'envi
Je contemple ses biens dont je n'ai pas joui!
Terre, soleil, vallons, belle et douce nature,
Je vous dois une larme, aux bords de mon tombeau;
L'air est si parfumé! La lumière est si pure!
Aux regards d'un mourant le soleil est si beau!
Je voudrais maintenant vider jusqu'à la lie
Ce calice mêlé de nectar et de fiel!
Au fond de cette coupe où je buvais la vie,
Peut-être restait-il une goutte de miel?
Peut-être l'avenir me gardait-il encore
Un retour de bonheur dont l'espoir est perdu?
Peut-être dans la foule, une âme que j'ignore
Aurait compris mon âme et m'aurait répondu?
La fleur tombe en livrant ses parfums au zéphyr,
A la vie, au soleil, ce sont là ses adieux;
Moi, je meurs; et mon âme, au moment qu'elle expire,
S'exhale comme un son triste et mélodieux.
A POEM ON A B'FUL GIRL
Sunday, January 22, 2012 5:56:33 AM
A wild flower, rare, beautiful, and surprising.
She stands strong and distinguished amongst the rest.
Her natural yet subtle beauty entrancing,
The clarity of Nature once again is manifest.
The analogy yields to the beauty within,
Visions of an infinitely complex fractal recursion fall short.
All attempts to describe implode before they begin,
Analytically intractable, impenetrable by thought.
Her honest curiosity humbles me.
Through layers of warmth, I see beyond her smile.
Volition and intellectual acuity; a reminder,
She kowtows to no-one, yes I like this girls style.
From the moment I heard the first word from her lips,
I wondered whether I was seeing a mirage,
Upon getting closer my expectations were eclipsed,
A prison break, release, my feelings were at large.
What to do I asked myself, if only she would reciprocate my affection,
With ruffled complexion, I'm tortured by my minds misdirection,
Neuronal circuits put it to the vote but there is no election.
To divide and to section, to solve with mechanical perfection,
that's what my mind strives for, its built to relentlessly question
The mystery prevails, can she and will she cure this infection?
She stands strong and distinguished amongst the rest.
Her natural yet subtle beauty entrancing,
The clarity of Nature once again is manifest.
The analogy yields to the beauty within,
Visions of an infinitely complex fractal recursion fall short.
All attempts to describe implode before they begin,
Analytically intractable, impenetrable by thought.
Her honest curiosity humbles me.
Through layers of warmth, I see beyond her smile.
Volition and intellectual acuity; a reminder,
She kowtows to no-one, yes I like this girls style.
From the moment I heard the first word from her lips,
I wondered whether I was seeing a mirage,
Upon getting closer my expectations were eclipsed,
A prison break, release, my feelings were at large.
What to do I asked myself, if only she would reciprocate my affection,
With ruffled complexion, I'm tortured by my minds misdirection,
Neuronal circuits put it to the vote but there is no election.
To divide and to section, to solve with mechanical perfection,
that's what my mind strives for, its built to relentlessly question
The mystery prevails, can she and will she cure this infection?
BEAUTIFUL
Sunday, January 22, 2012 5:43:23 AM
My thoughts of you are like raindrops on flowers...
Beautiful.
My thoughts of you are like a rainbow at a splashing waterfall...
Beautiful.
My thoughts of you are like a full moon
shining through a cloudy night sky...
Beautiful.
No matter what wonders my eyes have seen,
Nothing compares to the beauty I see
when I look at you.
My love for you is beautiful.
Beautiful.
My thoughts of you are like a rainbow at a splashing waterfall...
Beautiful.
My thoughts of you are like a full moon
shining through a cloudy night sky...
Beautiful.
No matter what wonders my eyes have seen,
Nothing compares to the beauty I see
when I look at you.
My love for you is beautiful.
Saturday, January 21, 2012 4:17:50 AM
Comfort on difficult days, Smiles when sadness intrudes, Rainbows to follow the clouds, Laughter to kiss your lips, Sunsets to warm your heart, Gentle hugs when spirits sag, Friendships to brighten your being, Beauty for your eyes to see, Confidence for when you doubt, Faith so that you can believe, Courage to know yourself, Patience to accept the truth, And love to complete your life.
one last drem of..................
Thursday, January 12, 2012 4:46:47 AM
one last dream of being on this universe,
one last dream of being under this horrible curse,
one last dream of loosing hope,
one last dream of being under the scope,
one last dream of self harm,
one last dream of hurting her arm,
one last dream of dying inside,
one last dream of wanting to hide,
one last dream of a hospital,
one last dream of a lost soul,
one last dream of thinking knowbody is there,
one last dream of living in fear,
one last dream of wanting to be dead,
one last dream of harmful thoughts in my head,
one last dream of giving up on myself,
one last dream of not wanting help..
one last dream of being under this horrible curse,
one last dream of loosing hope,
one last dream of being under the scope,
one last dream of self harm,
one last dream of hurting her arm,
one last dream of dying inside,
one last dream of wanting to hide,
one last dream of a hospital,
one last dream of a lost soul,
one last dream of thinking knowbody is there,
one last dream of living in fear,
one last dream of wanting to be dead,
one last dream of harmful thoughts in my head,
one last dream of giving up on myself,
one last dream of not wanting help..
im sick
Thursday, January 12, 2012 4:39:37 AM
Into darkness i'm bound
I let the blood and tears run down i'm sick
So many memories of you
I sit here in my silence i'm sick
I feel empty inside
Now that you're no longer mine i'm sick
Sometimes i sit on the rocks
And shiver the whole night through i'm sick
I'm goin crazy inside
Thinkin of you with other guys i'm sick
I feel i'm loosin my focus
This ice is gettin to me i'm sick
I talk to myself in my room
But even i don't know what i'm sayin i'm sick
I walk around in a dream
The closest thing to a fiend i'm sick
So if you're lonely like me
Come along let's touch eachother i'm sick
And if you're hurtin like me
Let's do it to one another i'm sick
I should cut myself
And do it over again i'm sick
We can hurt eachother
And tell the world we're in love i'm sick
We could get wasted
And take advantage on drugs i'm sick
Tell me you hate me
Then put your tongue in my mouth i'm sick
And i feel far away from clever
With every dream i severe i'm sick
My love is deep but you don't see
All i have is the pipe and it's apart of me i'm sick
Sometimes i think about us
But then i think about dyin i'm sick
Surrounded i hear demons within
I heard it's all in my head i'm sick
She's delusional i'm told
But even my friends know i'm sick
I put the knife to my chest
My rituals embrace death i'm sick
I wanna love you again
But feel it's not worth the pain i'm sick
Let's live for the moment
And we can die a little tonight i'm sick
You should cut yourself
And let me kiss it better i'm sick
See how romantic i am..?
Kiss me with blood in my mouth i'm sick
This love has hurt me so far
And i don't know who you are i'm sick
I don't trust you anymore
So you need to go away i'm sick
You were nothin like i thought
It hurts to know i'm not what you want i'm sick
Your words cut me like this
And yet you wonder why i'm sick
I'm no longer yours
And you don't love me anymore i'm sick
I'm havin visions at night
I'm seeing red over white i'm sick
You want to fade out soon
And give away the heart that i found you bitch
I want a candle lit room
And watch my blood drip on the ground i'm sic
I let the blood and tears run down i'm sick
So many memories of you
I sit here in my silence i'm sick
I feel empty inside
Now that you're no longer mine i'm sick
Sometimes i sit on the rocks
And shiver the whole night through i'm sick
I'm goin crazy inside
Thinkin of you with other guys i'm sick
I feel i'm loosin my focus
This ice is gettin to me i'm sick
I talk to myself in my room
But even i don't know what i'm sayin i'm sick
I walk around in a dream
The closest thing to a fiend i'm sick
So if you're lonely like me
Come along let's touch eachother i'm sick
And if you're hurtin like me
Let's do it to one another i'm sick
I should cut myself
And do it over again i'm sick
We can hurt eachother
And tell the world we're in love i'm sick
We could get wasted
And take advantage on drugs i'm sick
Tell me you hate me
Then put your tongue in my mouth i'm sick
And i feel far away from clever
With every dream i severe i'm sick
My love is deep but you don't see
All i have is the pipe and it's apart of me i'm sick
Sometimes i think about us
But then i think about dyin i'm sick
Surrounded i hear demons within
I heard it's all in my head i'm sick
She's delusional i'm told
But even my friends know i'm sick
I put the knife to my chest
My rituals embrace death i'm sick
I wanna love you again
But feel it's not worth the pain i'm sick
Let's live for the moment
And we can die a little tonight i'm sick
You should cut yourself
And let me kiss it better i'm sick
See how romantic i am..?
Kiss me with blood in my mouth i'm sick
This love has hurt me so far
And i don't know who you are i'm sick
I don't trust you anymore
So you need to go away i'm sick
You were nothin like i thought
It hurts to know i'm not what you want i'm sick
Your words cut me like this
And yet you wonder why i'm sick
I'm no longer yours
And you don't love me anymore i'm sick
I'm havin visions at night
I'm seeing red over white i'm sick
You want to fade out soon
And give away the heart that i found you bitch
I want a candle lit room
And watch my blood drip on the ground i'm sic
Wednesday, January 11, 2012 6:29:31 AM
To trust someone means you trust them with your life To trust someone is based on your clarity of judgement To trust is to believe that the person has you 100% To trust To trust Who could you trust in your greatest moment in need? Who will be worthy of having your trust? Will you be able to confide your trust among certain people? *Advice - Put your trust in a person who isn't a backstaber, liar, thief, gossiper, negative influence, pressured person. Think before you act
The Waiting Room
Sunday, January 8, 2012 10:33:23 AM
Sitting alone in the waiting room, she had a look at her watch. "Maybe he fall asleep." She said to herself. At this time, she heard hurried footsteps . " It's he." She raised her head to look up his smile. She didn't know when to know him. The same place, the same time. She always see his face and figure. Maybe it's very natural. They didn't know name each other, but they seems to know each other very well . Finally, She plucked up her courage to prepare for asking his name. Suddenly, her subway arrived at the station. "It's too late. Maybe tomorrow." She had a look at her watch and got into the subway. The next morning, she came to the waiting room early. After a while, she saw him. She just wanted to say hello to him. Suddenly, she saw he was holding a girl's hand. At that time, her subway came again. As a result, she entered the subway fast. After a week, a young man accompanied her in the waiting room. Maybe it's natural. Maybe it's not natural. However, she and he both are accompanied by others. At this time, the subway came. What a coincidence! They entered the same subway. After a while, the subway left. And the waiting room was very quiet.
The Monsoon Night
Sunday, January 8, 2012 10:28:54 AM
My heart bit goes up beyond the threshold level, as I am present here alone tonight. No one else is here to listen my voice to reduce the calmness. Bus is also playing with me. The last bus at 10 pm is cancelled due to this bad weather. Next bus to Bhubaneswar is arriving on morning 6 am. Where do I stay? When trouble comes, it comes up with its friends; I remembered this line from the spiritual book that I last read. My sense comes to its original state as rain fall starts. Monsoon is just arrived this place a little earlier. I ran into the bus stop shelter. It is better to stay here rather to drain the nose by standing in the rain. I immediately take the chair to slow down my bit rate. Who says government is not doing anything for the people. See this shelter; a horrible place, but for me it becomes a gift from god to stay here for the whole night. Rourkela is a place where you can find anything other than a house & a job, as population is growing rapidly. But I am not responsible for this yet, because I am unmarried. Who the hell give you a girl to marry unless you don’t have a good job? It is better to stay like animals rather than as human, no need of jobs, no wet clothes to wear in these rainy days... Unintended thoughts are coming in to my mind. I usually sleep in the night at this time, but today I have no intention to sleep in this place. May theory of relativity is implemented here to increase the time of occurrence of this night. Night becomes lengthier this time. I decided to talk with the broken chairs around me, than to seal the mouth for a whole night. It’s a crazy thing but more effective. Time passed on... I am looking at the watch, its 11pm only. 7 hours more. Mind calculates each second to find the remaining time. Suddenly a strange thing happens. A girl may be of 22 or 23 ages comes towards the bus stop and asking me,” when will the bus arrives”. I told 6 am. Oh no!!! Why these things happen to me? She told with a louder voice & sits on the chair. It is really a bad thing that every odd will happen to these beautiful girls. God’s judgement may be very cruel this time to you, I told with a very soft voice. She looked at me with her strange eyes. I put my eyes down as I am little shy about the girls. After some time I raised my head and saw she is sitting 3 to 4 hands away from me. Totally front to front, just like north & south poles of the magnet. Most often our eyes were meet each others... I looked at the girl; I noticed, she is wearing blue salwar, kamiz and put her dopatta on her head like to prevent rain. Due to rain most of her body parts & clothes are wet. Her dark eyes were half closed and some rain drops falling from it. Due to the street light it reflects various lights just like the rainbow. Her dense black hair forms a wavy structure such as the waves of sea. Really she is looking so beautiful that my eyes disobey my order. I noticed that she is little bit worried. I want to ask her that, “what will happen to you”. But my conscience stops me. After a while again her eyes meet with mine as she raised her head. Do you have any dry cloth? She asked me. Yes I have, I told that & gave my handkerchief to her. She cleans her face with it & returns with a word of thanks. I want to start the conversation with her. Who the hell will stop the mouth when a beautiful lady sits nearer? I asked her, “Where do you want to go”, as I don’t know that bus will go to Bhubaneswar. She told that she had to go there to her home and stops her mouth. How the conversation takes place when there is only question & answer round??? Time is near about at midnight. Night is at its extreme. No other sound is heard other than the rain & lightning. The density of rain is increasing time to time & cold air is started flowing around. I marks she is shivering due to cold air. I asked are you feeling cold. She just put her head down. I remember those movies where hero open his shirt & give it to the heroine. But I don’t have that intention to show my body to her. I think something must be carried out to prevent this cold. When trouble comes, mind is always trying its best to find out the solution. My thought works. I found an idea. I told her to gather the woods from the broken chair. She collected the woods & put them in the middle of us. Then I took the match box from my pocket & trying to burn them. Luckily it works. Due to this fire a dramatic situation occurs. By seeing the match box she then asked me, “do you smoke”. I told yes & add the word occasionally to it although I am a regular smoker. Why men always tell lie to women, I don’t know the answer. May be it is biological. Now the fire burns perfectly & spreads warmness around it. The burning fire creates an illusion as it is in the middle of the shelter. She feels much better than previous. I am also quite relaxed to see this... After a long time she asked me the time. I told 12:30pm. Again that sad face comes. I hate that as I like smiling faces. Now I said, “Are you worried”. She replied yes. I want to know the reason, but that time I couldn’t ask that. She then broke the silence & says it’s due to Rita. Who’s Rita? I astonished a bit. She told that it’s her friend whom she was staying with. We have a fight this night & that’s why I angrily came out of the hostel. She told that& looked at me. Why girls are eating too much red chillies? I told & laugh. Now a surprising thing happens that she broke the barrier of sadness & laughs loudly & I also joined with it as I solved the most mysterious problem in this world. This sound overcomes the noise produced by the rain... Time to time our frequencies & impedances match each other & decreases the distance between us and we are deeper in to the conversation. She stood up & sits near me, so that effective communication takes place. She then asked, “Why do I go to Bhubaneswar”. I said tomorrow is the joining day of my first job. She congrats me. Then I asked the same to her. She told that she is going to complete her graduation in the next month & her parent’s wants that she should marry. Parents don’t have any idea that what type of mistakes they are doing. As every girl have the rights to fulfil her dreams & then marry. What to tell about this bullshit tradition like to go to husbands home & cooked well& take care of his parents & also the future children’s. Women must fight against these traditions. She then laughs more & more as I give the most influence able speech. She said,” you are going to change the society”. I said yes & I will start from you. That’s better she replied. Suddenly she discovers that we both don’t know each other’s names. She told her name is Sina. What a name? I must remember it as “sin a”, as I’m more comfortable with trigonometry & my name is Daya... Time is above 2 pm. She is now too closed to me in just some hours. Weather is comes to its extremity & wind flows more than before & woods are near about to burn completely. Street light was already off due to the power cut. More & more rain falls from every side. We are totally unable to see anything outside. Lightning is also becomes whiter & comes up with more amplified noise. Now rain creates a mischief & started to fall towards her side, as the shelter has only pillars & no walls. This brings her more closely to me. I feel a little bit of warmth around me as I was never so close to girls before. What a terrible situation? If you want to avoid then your mind resists it. So much of controversies created inside my mind. The rain water falls on the fire & stops burning of the woods. Everywhere is dark & noisy. It creates a situation like that we see in the horror movies. Now nature starts its own game & unknowingly we are its players. Strange things are happening between us. She hugs me due to the sudden attack of light of the lightning. Her two hands create a nest, where you never want to escape. I also couldn’t resist myself to hug her. My entire body is trembling in fear & an unknown sensation. I am only able to see her face due to the lightning. She looks more beautiful and her dark eyes are just like the deep black ocean, where you always want to swim. Our lips are closer than ever. The pink shivering lip touched to mine with in just a moment, before I think anything. Nature own & we both defeated & leave us to the hand of nature... Rain stops and sun rises. Morning comes up with its own decoration. Trees becoming more greenish & birds sing songs. My eyes opened due to the sunlight & I woke up. To my surprise no one is there. Is it a dream? I questioned myself. Believe me I never seen a dream like this before. May be due to that dark violent night. I looked around morning looks so beautiful and different. I washed my face with water and feeling different refreshment. Then I wait for the bus... I astonished as I heard some sound. Someone is calling my name. I rubbed my eyes and see a girl comes towards me with a cup of coffee. She came near to me & says good morning & then handed over the coffee to me. I looked at her; surprisingly she was just like that girl in my dream. I don’t know what actually happens that night is dream or real, but I know one thing that “Nature had already played its game”....
The Power Of Love
Sunday, January 8, 2012 10:24:52 AM
From the very Beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him. Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?" As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence. After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?" The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged. The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up. One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realized that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice...... The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down. During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart every time it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer. With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phone calls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy. With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him. A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead. When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
Where Is The Love?
Sunday, January 8, 2012 10:13:22 AM
Imagine for a second that a young couple so deep in love that they can't see beyond each other's eyes, plan out not only a pending wedding but as well what will be a blueprint for the rest of their lives together. Next imagine that for one night all is forgotten. It's funny how your world can turn upside down in an instant either for good or the bad. The ironic thing is that she wound up doing both to me. Now I have some simple philosophies about relationships and one of them just seems to be about trust. "I will always trust you until you give me a reason not to." She said that there was going to be a girl's nite out at a local club and I told her I was fine with it because she needed it (We were both going through some stress at the time). After finding out that she had already decided not to come back till around 3 in the morning, I decided to make plans for myself so as I wouldn't be left alone all night. I went to the other side of town to hang out with my best friend whom I haven't seen for a long while. I planned everything out perfectly so that I would be at home right around 3 about the same time as her. Well as the night progressed I was starting to get a little dependant on her call. I was waiting to hear how here night was going or for her to as how my night was going...... no call at all. Right around 2 I decided to call her it was no surprise that she was totally wasted but thanks to her friend from work she was able to get home safely. I rushed to get back home but was only able to make it by 3 like I had intended. As I entered our apartment I found her boots lying in the living room and also found her sound asleep in the room. Now here is the part where I do admit that I could be wrong. As I was setting up to go to sleep as well, I checked her phone and her text messages only to find that she had sent various messages to someone named Anna. By my own knowledge Anna is a female name but these messages weren't made out on that fact. It seemed that she was sending messages to someone named Ricky which I can only think was her ex-boyfriend before I came along a year ago. You also have to keep in mind, that was the last piece of the puzzle that confirmed my suspicions. On earlier occasions she would step out of a room to make a call, became very private about the things she did when I wasn't around, and to top it all off was acting very separated towards me. I think that if it looks like shit, smells like shit, then 10 times out of 10 it is shit. My only assumption was that she is cheating on me. Now here I am, the following day pouring my heart out to anyone that will listen. Everything I have in life is in her. My family is in another state, we've invested so much into each other, and basically outside of this I have nothing. Just in case your wondering if i'm making myself look like a saint, i'm gonna give you some quick details about myself. I'm not a drinker, or a smoker. I'm from what people tell me funny, caring, and at sometimes out going. I have never done anything to harm her and have treated her like a queen. I guess I am a saint after all. any advice? I guess with everything in life we are just going to wait and see the outcome. I really appreciate you taking the time to read my story.
Real Life Love Stories Crushed
Sunday, January 8, 2012 10:10:08 AM
It was last year when I met him during a school carnival. I was walking with my friend into the school of business when she bumped into her classmates. I didn't know what actually happened but I remembered I was staring at this particular guy in the group. From that day onwards, he never left my mind. After months of consideration, I finally took the first step. I wrote a letter to him confessing I actually was attracted by him and if we could be friends. I got my friend to pass him the letter and we started being friends. At first, he didn't know what I looked like as he didn't remember seeing me. One day, my friend tricked me into going to her computer lab. He was there. It was then we first met and spoke. He shook my hand and introduced himself. Ever since then, I started seeing more of him. I started sending him messages to his cell phone daily. It could be a daily good-night message or just to tell him to take care. He would usually reply to my messages. One day, after the exams, I finally asked him out. We went to eat dinner and after that, we went back to school at night and sat at the exit staircase staring at the stars, drinking and chatting. It was then I felt that I was really in love with this guy. He sent me home later. From that day on, I could not get him out of my mind. Somehow, I started seeing him quite often. He works at Starbucks so I would go there to study and hang out. Hanging out was just an excuse for me to see him. We would bump into each other in school daily and smile and say Hi. Sometimes, we would joke around and just chat. During Christmas, I bought a gift for him. It took me some time to actually pass it to him. He was appreciative. In return, he gave me a wallet. At first, I was joyful. Then, I found out he gave my friend a Christmas present too when she hadn't bought him anything. But that didn't mean anything to me. Receiving a gift from him was all I could think of. Months later, after our second trip to the movies we started seeing each other less and the messages became less. After 4 months, I finally got my friend to ask whether he liked me or he knew my feelings for him. All the while, she wanted to ask him that but I wasn't ready to face the truth. Deep down in my heart, I actually knew the answer but I couldn't face up to reality. After 4 months, I felt I was ready. I got my answer. He rejected me. He didn't like me. However, my friend didn't tell me that. Instead, she got another friend to tell me the answer over the phone. I kept silent and tears started falling from my eyes. The tears just kept falling. It didn't stop. My heart was shattered. It left a scar behind. I no longer can love. I no longer can face him. To me, love was a mistake. But I would never regret ever loving him.
Saturday, January 7, 2012 6:25:14 AM
Reality:
When u give importance to people, they think that u r always Free.
But
They dont understand that u make urself available for them Every time.
When u give importance to people, they think that u r always Free.
But
They dont understand that u make urself available for them Every time.
Never Ask for More... Because I have you!
Friday, January 6, 2012 1:10:21 PM
I wrote your name in my heart, and forever it will stay. You're always there when I close my eyes. Touch my mind and I will think of you... Touch my heart and I will never forget you. You break me in pieces when you hurt my heart You hide something and killing me badly, I tried not to cry but you giving me a reason to cry I trust your love and honesty but you put that away from me. I gave all the love, I could give you but what I got is Heartache from you, I felt down and I dont want to try anymore! I felt helpless when it comes to love, I asked myself should I give up of what I have? Even though you know how much I love you! Or should I give another chance to live with you? I love you when my heart smiles, but the best of all, it smiles because of you. When I finally found you I want to spend the rest of my life with you, and I want the rest of my life to start right away. The distance between us is not easy to handle but we did, our arms cannot reach but our heart will always do whatever way we can, but because our love together just as great, as our heart does. What more could I ask for... to be conceived in your heart, born in youreyes, live on your cheeks, and die on your lips. Love does not consist of gazing at each other, but in looking together inthe same direction. Soon will be forever!!! The most beautiful thing that will happen is sharing our love in each others arms is like never ending moments that I/We dont want to stop and in God's Will... Our relationship will last forever like a fairytale that never ends LOVE and HAPPILY ever after!
LOVE ME
Friday, January 6, 2012 11:33:35 AM
Love me with the passion~ of silk gliding upon lace as you taste of me in sips with an iced cherry longing. Delve into my soul~ with the seduction of ardor as you ravage my senses with pearls of the exquisite. Kiss me with the desire~ of a cascade overflowing with crushed diamonds and sequins studding my Cabernet lips. Love me with the pressed urgency~ of a rose between pages instilling moments that last an eternity in the breathless.
kunal ranjan
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