sarah's Arty Dreams

It's 7 in the morning, everyone is asleep and I am curled up on the couch with the laptop on the right side of me on the arm of the furniture. I am sort of curled here because it is so cool in the house, not freezing exactly..but cool. We are trying to keep the price of our heating down so that has meant more layers....layers of clothes, socks and blankets. *sigh OH WELL! I don't mind so much except it is getting to the point that sometimes my feet will get cold and feel like they will NEVER warm back up. But I can't complain, because I feel that at this point in my life, it has never been so good in my 32 years. I hope that I am not on some sort of peak...it is an inner calmness that I feel in my life. Not what I have surrounding me...but an inner calmness. I don't know any other way to put it.

You know what's funny? My hands rarely get cold...unless I am dealing with something cold, like last night making the hamburger patties. OMG I thought my hands would never warm up. Yesterday the girls were pretty wild, running around the house, screaming and fighting and acting a fool. I almost give up inside, I don't feel like CONSTANTLY yelling at them to quit. I am starting to think, "Well they will kill each other or stop fighting." I mean...what do they want me to do? I can't even get THROUGH to them, much less make them love each other. Talking calmly DOESN'T work with my girls, you have to threaten to spank their butts or just DO IT. (I am not venting, I am seriously in a good mood, but had say that and get it out.) They are at the age where they should know better, anyway!!!

The other day, I was brave and busted out my diaries from years past. Wow, I have come along way since my husband and I were first married. I used to feel so house bond...now I don't want to leave the house. I think I am scared to go out into the real world..I don't want to think about working a 'real' job outside the home. All I can think about is how much more work I would have to do, not only working, but then coming home to cook and clean. I mean..hubby helps a bit...but we all know who bares the real home work load. Some day I think I will clean up, take pictures...and then take pictures again 5 minutes later so that we all can really grasp the true meaning of 'going in circles' with house work. I am not kidding...the girls can leave a mess in places that you have never seen before...spots of the house that I DIDN'T know existed! Ok, I could go on and on...
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Today I am going again to visit Kristy out of town. Her and I have been friends since we were about 13, we think that we are sisters and even talk alike. It's funny because I think that my husband has a secret crush on her..and hers a crush on me. But her husband will openly admit it, and even calls me 'his girlfriend' but I HATE it when he does that. Kristy is pregnant and I know that pregnant women are usually jealous to begin with...but to have him say things like that makes it even worse for her, she even mentioned that he wants me there more than she does. Now, see that's just NOT RIGHT. He is being insensitive and I WILL tell him that when I get there.

Well anyway, we are going to do Holiday baking...cookies,candies and all that jazz. So I am going to take my camera and see what turns out. I can't WAIT to go, I know that we will have fun as long as she is calm and happy...which is usually always. *if Ray can keep his mouth shut.

Well, I have to go rotate and flip the laundry now, I heard the dryer stop....Oh no, I just heard a kid cough...I hope and pray no sickness enters this house! Curse you sick bugs!!!


Sarah

PS...I visited a blog today of someone that I KNOW comes to my blog...well I noticed that her style was VERY much like of my own blog (and even exactly if I do say so myself) and I DON'T appreciate copy cat bloggers. I mean...really...get your own style...open your mind to creativity and let it flow...don't copycat others. UGH it just makes me sick.