sarah's Arty Dreams

Following suite of Musings of a Housewife.

I learned a very hard lesson this week. One that I talked about many times with friends and my husband. A lesson that is not learned easily or even by conscious choice in some cases. I am truly baffled by my experience that I have had this week. Sadden, shocked, and angry a little as well!

This is starting on a dark note, I understand. But I must get this off my chest.

I have a friend online who I called a best friend. She named me as her best friend as well. Constantly she was pouring, “I love you, your the best friend a girl could have, BFF love, etc.” Her and I would also exchange gifts by mail and handwritten letters and cards. We have NEVER met in person, though. ONLINE friends only, mind you.

Recently, my best friend wrote me and told me that it is ok to have other friends, but she didn't want to see me calling anyone else BFF but her!

What does that say to you? That we are exclusive Best Friends, right?

Well...you would think. But I noticed her calling another girl best friend online. She announced it in Twitter and on her blog. Ok......

Can anyone say 'double standard'?

I wrote her a note saying how much I disapproved of her calling the other girl best friend, but I do want her to be happy and to please forgive me if I sound upset, but it hurt. I have restrained from getting close to anyone else, to make her happy and then she repays me with that. It really hurt, hey I am a softy girl after all.

Anyhoo...she proceeded to remove me from all applications. First I noticed she wasn't on my MYSPACE page...then Twitter....MSN...and I am sure a slew of other places!

Why would she go so ballistic when I confronted her about the whole BFF thing? COMPLETELY retarded ballistic!! I was just hurt when I saw her going goo goo for someone else....I tell her how I feel to be completely shunned? SHAME ON YOU, SARAH, FOR ASKING YOUR BFF A QUESTION! Really! Am I just supposed to keep my mouth shut about everything? Be a timid best friend? I think not.

So...the lesson I have learned this week....is that you really and truly don't know someone, ever. Even after you are married for many years...bestfriends forever.... people can take you off guard in any situation! Be careful whom you become close too, trust almost no one in most situations and keep your guard up.

To be honost...I was keeping my guard up in this situation because I could see previous erratic behavior from this individual. I didn't become as close as I could have because of the past that she was so open and honest about. yey! I am hurt...but not devastated! Be careful from big personalities, y'all.

Love always,
Sarah