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everyday life of a stay at home mom/artist

Joy...

Thursday, November 5, 2009 4:30:24 PM

Was just thinking about how exciting my life is, organizing bills, shopping for healthy meals that fill them up, crocheting random things, finding the best deals when buying things for the home, cooking, tending to the cats, playing Sorority Life and now Mafia on Facebook. Golly gee, things are so fun. I don't smoke, drink, party...and my skin thanks me for it. But what about my social life? My social life consist of friends online..and I am happy with that for the most part...except I miss one thing. My real life friends. Meh. Sometimes I long for the days that I was young and single and going out at least 3 and 4 nights a week, going to work half awake and half drunk. Mmm I miss those days.

Now...I am drowning in dept and kids and family life, trying to figure out what to do next and honestly I can't be anyone but myself to others now...I can't hide what I truly am and what I do. Walking out in pajama bottoms and T-Shirt to take kids to school is who I am. I don't dress up everyday, I don't fix my hair everyday or wear make up. I just go. Just go like a normal person, duah. No longer do I feel pressured to look a certain way. There was a time in my life where I had a ton of anxieties about my appearance, but now I am comfortable and not afraid of what others think. I sing my music loud in the mini van and if the weather is nice we will let the windows down and share the joy of the Lord with whoever is unlucky enough to pass us by in a car.

Yesterday was a wonderful ride, I took the twins to pick up my oldest daughter...KLove was on the radio and we would clap and hoot and holler saying "It's a beautiful day! Be happy!" To other cars. We sure did get some weird looks...Just not sure why. rolleyes Ahh I say too bad for you if you can't have joy in your heart. Feel sorry for you. Life is too short not to have joy. Shout and smile and be heard if you want to. And you know what? I am sorry....I don't care what you think of me.

love
Sarah

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Comments

Sansanshan Thursday, November 5, 2009 5:12:10 PM

bigsmile up

KarenNerak Thursday, November 5, 2009 6:36:24 PM

I'm so happy that you wrote this, Cupcake! bigsmile

I know how you feel when it comes to missing having friends who live close by. I see it on movies & TV shows - girls hanging out with their friends...and it reminds me that my best friend lives sooo far from me. sad

It's okay, though. The thing is that I'd much rather have you in my life and have the distance between us than not have you in my life at all! heart Besides, the distance is something that can be fixed...eventually. smile

Anyone who is lucky enough to hear you singing should feel blessed! Your voice is so awesome...definitely something you should be proud of!

I'm SO happy that you're finally at peace with who you are. After all, who you are is a pretty outstanding person! I love you! love

TabTabmartel Thursday, November 5, 2009 8:39:07 PM

GOSH!

Sara..I could have sworn you just wrote that post about my life!

If you and Karen lived closer we could do ladies night...that would be fun!

Cleanclean Thursday, November 5, 2009 9:28:30 PM

happy

Mrs. HermitessHermitess Thursday, November 5, 2009 10:46:25 PM

LOL I was going to say the same thing Tab. bigeyes Well, minus the kids and minivan. p

I so miss hanging out with friends as well. I have a friend I meet about twice a month for lunch and that's it. doh She has kids and can't do much more, but I love the time we do get. Hermit is my bestest girl friend now. lol Well, maybe Bella. wink No actually T would be my bestest girl friend. *sigh* I wish it were like star trek and we could beam to each other for visits. yes spock

I pretty much have finally accepted myself and stopped being self conscious about my looks (gawd, I'm either too skinny or too fat. ugh, tired of trying to make others happy. Let's all worry about our own skinny or fat asses mmm-kay?!). I'm just who God made me and I can't do better than that now can I bigsmile

(Hugs) to you Sarah! I think you rock, even if you have the death breath, gum in your hair and are wearing cupcake pjs while singing to the heavens in your minivan. The coolest people always start new trends. cheers

TabTabmartel Friday, November 6, 2009 1:52:10 PM

I agree..sometimes it's hard to take time for yourself... I did my groceries in my pj's at ten pm last week.. lol.. It's a mom thing.

Mrs. HermitessHermitess Friday, November 6, 2009 7:45:49 PM

Sarah I was only joking there about the death breath and all! wink you probably knew that but for some reason I felt the need to clarify. love

Cleanclean Friday, November 6, 2009 8:10:46 PM

It's no joke! I can smell it from here! faint wink

KarenNerak Saturday, November 7, 2009 9:15:17 AM

lol

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Sunday, November 8, 2009 9:40:00 PM

Awww Lindsay, you don't know me...I am proud of my death breath. happy

KarenNerak Tuesday, November 10, 2009 12:18:29 AM

I'm lovin' your new avatar, Sarah! bigsmile Suits you well! o

starree Tuesday, November 10, 2009 1:31:35 AM

I love your post! I can definitely relate. It does seem to make others uncomfortable at times if you are happy but who cares. They are just jealous deep down. My friend always said I was silly but then later said she envied it and wished she could let go more. I never would have thought that either! smile

Cleanclean Wednesday, November 11, 2009 9:33:30 AM

I have a saying: "It's funny to me". It's worked so far ... wink

Jessica jessheartsben Thursday, November 12, 2009 9:43:11 AM

Well said! You reminded me of yesterday when you were talking about your younger days... and the way you describe your life now is how I envision myself in the future.

Tamil Saturday, November 14, 2009 10:26:25 AM

up

H82typ Saturday, November 14, 2009 9:38:16 PM

*hug*

OlgaOlgita Friday, November 27, 2009 2:16:36 PM

Originally posted by Tabmartel:

If you and Karen lived closer we could do ladies night...that would be fun!


and I would join you! wink

H82typ Monday, November 30, 2009 3:28:55 AM

I'm still trying to come to terms that you typed "golly gee" in your post, Sarah. lol

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Monday, November 30, 2009 1:32:09 PM

Originally posted by H82typ:

I'm still trying to come to terms that you typed "golly gee" in your post, Sarah. :lol:



p heart

KarenNerak Monday, November 30, 2009 6:03:37 PM

Originally posted by Olgita:

and I would join you! wink



Yay! We would love that, Olga! happy


H82typ Monday, November 30, 2009 7:26:32 PM

Golly, gee, girls! That'd be swell, I just know it! lol

KarenNerak Monday, November 30, 2009 8:18:07 PM

lol Smarty McSmartass!

Cleanclean Monday, November 30, 2009 9:11:16 PM

Well gosh all fishhooks, Ms Karen, there ain't no need for that sort of colourful language in front of the ladies. Y'all'd never catch me flinging around that sort of crud. Lawsy! That sort of motherlovin' talk makes my blood boil. Son of a gun! What a pain in the keister!

p wink

KarenNerak Monday, November 30, 2009 9:19:24 PM

lol I dun learnt my lesson real good! p

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Tuesday, December 1, 2009 1:24:29 AM

LOL

and yeah right with Olgita. Us hot mammas need a night away for sure...awww

KarenNerak Tuesday, December 1, 2009 3:45:39 AM

Calgon needs to take us away...together! bigsmile

H82typ Tuesday, December 1, 2009 7:14:18 AM

yikes Gosh! Whatever have I started!

KarenNerak Tuesday, December 1, 2009 4:16:38 PM


You are the debil! p

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Wednesday, December 2, 2009 2:48:11 PM

heart coffee

KarenNerak Wednesday, December 2, 2009 9:39:45 PM

How are you doing today, Cupcake?! Happy? I hope so! love

coffee

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Thursday, December 3, 2009 11:46:52 AM

Mmm hmm smile love

I have seen you on FB enough to know you are doing good as well. heart

KarenNerak Thursday, December 3, 2009 11:06:31 PM

happy coffee heart

Sarah Dreamsangel292005 Saturday, December 5, 2009 12:39:48 PM

love

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