Someone commented on this old post of mine, and it fit my mood so perfectly that I wanted to repost it!
[Chorus - 2X]
I know it's strange
But my brain's gone really insane
And I'm off the chain
Sipping on a fifth of the Golden Grain
I feel like slappin somebody today (slap slap)
Slappin somebody today
I feel like slappin somebody today (slap slap)
Slappin somebody today
Slappin somebody today
Usually we buy a tree or use the 8 ft fake green one in the garage that I didn't feel like getting out this year. It was dusty and had not been taken out for 2 years so we decided to get a white tree this year! It was pre-lit...sooo no stringing of lights! YEY! Anyway, it is only 6ft and cheap but I think it looks great. Something different, ya know?
I received a post card with my 3 half brother's picture on it today. Thanks Paige! Mmm tonight we have 2 extra kids with us...2 of Angel's friends. They are adorable and have been nice for the most part. We made pallets in the girl's room for them to slumber party on.
There are so many beautiful Christmas lights in the city, so soon I will take the girls and video the most spectacular homes to share on YouTube or Vimeo..or both. My husband just informed me that his friend is coming over and they are going to do a new pod cast in the living room.... About football!
I am giggling at the comments you guys left me in the previous post. Don't worry, it is just something I had to get off my chest. I am learning to let things go! I have to, in order to be happy and mentally healthy.
Yesterday I spent the day with my mother. I joined her at her home around 10 am so that we could pick up her husband's car from his work and take it to have the windows tinted with "the darkest legal tint available" She said she doesn't want to give the police a reason to pull them over! (inside joke)
My mother is sooo positive and full of happiness that I just want to soak in every minute that we are together. It is almost impossible to explain the feeling of having a mother like mine....she is about 5'8' and I am only 5'5" so I am always looking up to her and still feeling as if she is really 'mommy'. She is so strong and assertive with many underlying emotional issues, as most people that I know. Nothing new there! I just can't say enough about my mother.
Anyway..I was feeling down for whatever reason and she encouraged me to start more positive 'self speak'. Telling yourself positive things and what you want to be, what you know you can be!
"I am strong." "I am smart." "I am beautiful" "I am healthy" "I can live the right way"
Basically I did it and I was actually a little bit surprised to wake up this morning feeling about 95% better. I guess I am not ready to confess to the world my every health issue, and I shouldn't have to. But I DO have a couple that I have discussed with close friends. I will continue this positive self speak and see how things go!
To you #1. I love you...I have loved you since I met you. It is sad that you don't feel the same love for me that I do for you. It is sad that your eyes and mind are not open to trust...and love...and accept.
To you #2. I miss you now that you are gone. I wish that you could have received the 'goodbye' letter that I wrote you and had every intention of giving you. I regret procrastinating that one.
To you #3. Your anger over the years is still with me even though I smile when we are together. I love you from the core of my being but only God can take away the feelings of hate that I have when you married him.
To you #4. All the times that you accused me of being bad...I was being bad. And I am sorry. I am only human and nothing more. I feel as if I have made it right, though. Have I?
To you #5. Please forgive me for not being in your life. But I felt you took him away. I may be wrong...
To you #6. Every instinctive feeling you have had has been right....but I won't admit it.
About football! 
WIDGETIZE