Ok, I have NEVER had problems with Asian ladies until last night.....
I had the worse nightmare that a person could have. I mean, this was Freddy Krueger shit! Ok, so I was walking down a long hallway in what seemed to be a hotel or maybe a multilevel apartment or flat. I heard screaming and commotion in a room with the door flung wide open. When I ran into the room I saw blood everywhere and an old Asian lady wielding a butcher knife. On the bed was a young Asian girl who was slashed open from her sternum to her navel.
There was so much commotion but I could only think of helping the poor girl on the bed. I went to her side to protect her and screamed to the others around me "What is going on?" Someone answered that the girl on the bed was the old lady's daughter and was pregnant. The old lady became so furious that she cut the baby out of the girl. A man was holding the baby with the umbilical cord still attached. Everything was so bloody and catastrophic. I then called 911 and turned my attention to the old woman out of control. Why was no one stopping her rage?! I yelled at her to put the knife down and she looked directly at me with burning eyes and threatened to cut me. Swinging and screaming and staring at me. I wanted to kick her ass and be done with it...thinking I could take this woman. I touched the girl on the bed and she stared back at me with her big brown eyes so full of fear. Her blood got on my hand and I could feel the stickiness and warmth which made me even angrier. Looking back at the old woman and ready to attack her I woke up!! Darn it. I really wanted to take that lady down.
So why the heck did I have such a psychotic dream?
Hope it amused you and I take it ONLY as a dream and nothing more but a translation would be nice. Have a great day! -Sarah
I can't express the sheer amount of work that the instructors have given us this week. Let's just say, I am doing about 10 hours of studying (in school and at home) total. The teachers don't MAKE you do homework, they expect it. This week I have 6 chapters in Anatomy and Physiology that are really working my brain. It's great! I feed off of this challenge. Spelling is going to be my weak point, I'm afraid. but it will all work out!!
Ok, enough of the boring stuff....let's talk about style....
We have none.
On to other things! Mmmm, I was 'interviewed'. When asked "What is unique about you?" I confess of how much I love my blog on My.Opera. Really!!
(now I secretly hope they don't find it.) More friend's only post in the future? I think so.
Love you friends, off to get dressed for another fun filled day. Enough of this coffee talk!
Today I went to orientation for school that I start on Monday. And I can say is...........AWESOME! I can't wait to start and get back into the real world and out of my little safe haven and home. Woo hooo! Sarah on the loose! Ok, so I was feeling sort of blah and then 2 days ago I got a ton of my 'umphness' back!! I have been busy as a bee and I am so freakin' excited to become an 'adult'. I real adult with real things to do. Awwww, I feel so grown up!! (not that 4 kids and a husband didn't do it, but this is different..ok?!)
I had an interesting conversation with a guy sitting beside me who had 3 kids under the age of 8. *sigh* I remember those days. Good luck to him and studying at home. Thank GOD my youngest is 10 and they are pretty self sufficient. WOOOOOOOOOOO HOOOOOOOOOOOOO!! Hell yeah!
Oh....I wanted to say congrats to my daughter for all the awards she earned while in JROTC camp. She did wonderful! If some of you remember, Rachael is now 15 and wants to be a .....US Marine! I hope to God she changes her mind, for my own sake. But...she is smart enough and is actually being pulled by Air Force because of all her super brain power. But...she wants to be a Marine like her daddy. Isn't that just the sweetest? Well she has 3 years to decide what branch and IF she even wants to do that. But if you know this girl...she puts her mind to something and DOES it. she didn't get that from me.
I know I am more than a year late in recognizing this song....by Miley Cyrus, "The Climb" but everything happens for a reason.
Starting college next week is starting to make me second guess my decision. Is it too early for me to go? Will my girls be properly taken care of when in other's care? Am I doing the right thing? The motivation for starting is the bad economy and growing kids.....my girls want everything. And the presents are getting bigger. (think CAR) Oh jeez when does it ever end? Does it ever end?
Without getting too personal about what I am going for, I can say classes will last 9 months and should start me in the medical field. My next step will come later if I like this field. I've been a stay at home mom for 15 years now. I just can't believe it.....thinking back....it's gone so fast. I never thought that I would be saying that. Amazing. My God, where have the years gone?
This song, "The Climb" I happen to run across while on YouTube searching for "how to make a rag rug" of all things. I think the video must have been featured for me to see it. I usually don't listen to Miley Cyrus... (*except for the song Party in the USA, I can DANCE to that!) lol But the words in this song resonate within my heart.
I have VERY often started projects, classes etc and not finished them. I had something in my mind/heart that drove me from accomplishing many things. But lately...I have put ME first. Me...for once in my life. I am learning to say "no" and to overlook the little things that make me angry. Even the big things that make me angry....animal rights, political things, religious arguments.
If it doesn't have to do with something positive and moving FORWARD in life, then I don't want anything to do with it. I am sorry for those I have hurt in the past and those I have used, put aside, hurt and angered. I'm truly sorry.
The Climb lyrics Songwriters: Alexander, J; Mabe, J;
I can almost see it That dream I am dreaming But there's a voice inside my head saying "You'll never reach it"
Every step I'm taking Every move I make feels Lost with no direction My faith is shaking
But I gotta keep trying Gotta keep my head held high
There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb
The struggles I'm facing The chances I'm taking Sometimes might knock me down But no, I'm not breaking
I may not know it But these are the moments that I'm gonna remember most, yeah Just gotta keep going
And I, I got to be strong Just keep pushing on
'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be a uphill battle Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb, yeah!
There's always gonna be another mountain I'm always gonna wanna make it move Always gonna be an uphill battle Somebody's gonna have to lose
Ain't about how fast I get there Ain't about what's waiting on the other side It's the climb, yeah!
Keep on moving, keep climbing Keep the faith, baby It's all about, it's all about the climb Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa
These are my father's sons.....(minus one) MY BROTHERS of whom I am so proud!!!!!!!!!!!! Dad, if you were here...I KNOW you would be so proud. Congrats on graduating, Rhett.
I miss my daddy! When my father passed away in 1996 I thought my world was ending. Now, 13 years later, I still wonder what life would be like with him around. His loud and boisterous personality, known for being a lady charmer, notorious for loving his car the Jaguar. What a man. Curly dark hair, barrel chested and bossy; my father was quite the guy.
What would he think of his new grandchildren? How would he feel about one of his sons graduating this year? All of these questions will never be answered. I want to be angry about it, but I can't. All of the bad feelings that I had about his passing were all replaced by lovely dreams of us talking like old times. Him still being 'father' to me in my dreams...encouraging me as always to be my very best.
When I complained about feeling ugly, daddy would tell me to "Look and the mirror and repeat these words" "I am beautiful, I am smart, I am kind." And shyly I would do as he commanded. I am still very shy and don't take compliments well. I am hard accepting myself because feelings of inadequacy. I hate it and am still mustering up courage to change it.
Why did I never have a conversation with my dad about death? I thought he would live forever! He was so strong, that yes...he would live forever.
Yes.......each of these guys are my brothers.....3 boys share one mother, 2 share another mother. But all share my father's blood. How lucky am I?
I'll never forget this day, playing ball with mom in the pool and hearing her yell when getting into the cold water. Poor mom, I thought I was going to have to rescue her from the shock of the pool. Seeing the girls laugh and float around...such a warm and fun day!!
We are just beginning Summer Break here on my side of the world and so far it's been HOT and busy. I haven't had time to just stop and smell the roses, but yet have been running around, traveled already and spent time with family. The past weekend we drove out of town to drop 2 of the girls off to stay with their grandmother. Usually every summer this is a common occurrence, yey! I signed up to start college 2 months ago and so far everything is going as planned. I will hopefully be working in the medical field if everything works out as planned. I wonder how many Medical Assistants are being hired in this area? Either way, I won't panic if I don't get a job right away, because my husband takes care of most of the bills. (school starts at the end of the month)
I don't know if any of you have heard of the Hcg diet, but I am studying a book to start this diet.... I will let you know how things go in the future...hopefully well!! It just being Summer makes me feel like a fat cow, I am not able to hide my sins under a sweater and jeans. boo hoo! (p.s.-my sister lost 26lbs on this diet! )
Thank God my husband is also on the band wagon to adopt healthier eating habits as well! That is a reason to celebrate!
This morning my daughter woke me up at 5 am to take her to the school for her ROTC boot camp. It's military style training for high school students who are interested and enrolled in this program. She was late waking up, also then throwing me off and I was barely able to see driving her....thank God all the streets were empty. I was happy that she woke me up because I was having a strange nightmare. I had the chills waking up so it was certainly freaky!