sarah's Arty Dreams

Some days I feel as if I am going in circles, today being one of those. All I want to do is sit down and say, "Ahh, all the work is finished and I can relax." But I don't feel as if that is possible living in the house with 4 fresh face little girls that are determined to wreck and destroy in their sweet and innocent way, everything that is in their path. Working my way around their path of destruction is something that is not possible, a war that will not be won anytime soon in anyway possible. Yesterday I thought, "well, if I get everything done today, then it will make a much more relaxing and sweet Saturday." But I forgot one thing, they have to eat, THEY HAVE TO EAT. Oh yeah! So that means I will be cooking, cleaning the dishes, and starting all over again 2 hours later. I am not saying that it bugs me to do this, some days I am overjoyed at the thought that I am able to stay at home with my children and bring them up without the interruption of others in their life; but there are other days I am crying for help inside asking God, "How do I keep up with has to be done." Yes, I know that my problems are minuscule compared to others but it is important to me, at this time. At this time, it is bothering me that it is too cold to go out side for play, or even a walk for myself. I don't have clothes that are warm enough to weather the type of weather that is outside today, freezing rain and slippery ground is something that I don't think a walk is worth. Besides that I am feeling happy that life is warm and comphy right now. I think I will start a fire later and roast marshmallows, that we don't have.

For hours a day while I hear this music that is blasted from sources unknown, oh yeah it is the radio that the girls love to play. I have to admit, I am hiding in my room at the moment. Certain times of the month I don't want to hear, see, and deal with loud music and arguing children. So I do what I have to do, and then hide. It is sort of funny if you think about it.
Well, I am going to go for now, I don't feel like sitting here complaining anymore, I am going to clean or something. Or maybe get a cup of tea and watch a movie, who knows.


Sarah