sarah's Arty Dreams

Well, I can't say everything that I want to say....it's just too sad. He is dying of cancer and it is becoming quite messy now. Mom is under this unbearable strain of keeping her husband comfortable while he is dieing. I know that she isn't the only one in this horrible world that is taking care of someone. But this is my beautiful mother. He is very sick from the chemo that he is receiving and is showing signs of giving up.... He called Hospice and..... I just can't imagine it. I am trying to do my studies and my life but also greatly concerned about my mom.

This life can be so cruel sometimes, can't it? She is the most lovely person and doesn't deserve it. Thank GOD it isn't her who is going through it....

I think I will just stop writing now because we all know this life isn't fair....and there is nothing we can do to stop what happens. It just happens and then what do we do? Hold on to what we still have and look for the silver lining, for the sliver of hope that still exist in our being... the thing that ties us to this world for the few years we are here. Suffering and struggling and in pain each day.

We try to ignore the fact that others are in pain by looking at other happier things and it will last only for a while. Then you will see the dark side of life again, you can't get away from it.

That doesn't mean that I embrace it by any means...I really don't. I just want to help them.

His sun will set soon--just as everyone--