Whatever....

This morning I got up full of energy and ready to take on the day. I hung out some laundry in mild weather and begun to already feel the exhaustion of my legs wanting to slow me down. They have been so weak since losing the feeling in the sides of them. I don't understand how that would affect the 'energy' or the 'spark' that makes your legs go. It is so hard to explain! I feel like someone without the ability to speak when it comes to describing how my legs feel....so frustrating. But still I managed to push through it continuing on with laundry and moving onto doing dishes and sweeping and mopping. All the while, feeling as if I was walking through sand.

So I started another load and was on the phone with the appliance people about bringing out another refrigerator. The old one that we had felt like it was shocking us when we grabbed the handle. It was sort of nice, kept us all out of there. But I knew it wasn't all in my head...the appliance technician said that it was putting out 76 volts of electricity. Just enough to 'feel' it. Meh. Out with the old and in with the new, I say!

2 hours later I was admiring my new refrigerator and thank God he hooked up the ice maker! Big C Appliance, your fast and professional. Thanks guys and lady who answers the phones and sets up appointments.

I made a decision to block an ex friend on Facebook. She knows why. I refuse to let someone mistreat me time and time again. I don't appreciate the lies and I have kept quiet about it long enough. Those who chose to believe her also need therapy. Yes you do, admit it.

Today also while checking Facebook, I saw my little brother Rhett. He isn't so little anymore. He is a big ole football player. (this is the son of my step mother and deceased father) I remember Rhett as a small child. I will never forget what he said at my dad's funeral as all was quiet around and dad's casket was being lowered into the ground,
"I'm going to miss my daddy."

That sort of summed it up for me and I thought....yep....you just don't know how much little one.

Beyond that, I am looking forward to getting to know him better and I hope that he is open to knowing us as well.

-Sarah

Following suite of Musings of a Housewife.

I learned a very hard lesson this week. One that I talked about many times with friends and my husband. A lesson that is not learned easily or even by conscious choice in some cases. I am truly baffled by my experience that I have had this week. Sadden, shocked, and angry a little as well!

This is starting on a dark note, I understand. But I must get this off my chest.

I have a friend online who I called a best friend. She named me as her best friend as well. Constantly she was pouring, “I love you, your the best friend a girl could have, BFF love, etc.” Her and I would also exchange gifts by mail and handwritten letters and cards. We have NEVER met in person, though. ONLINE friends only, mind you.

Recently, my best friend wrote me and told me that it is ok to have other friends, but she didn't want to see me calling anyone else BFF but her!

What does that say to you? That we are exclusive Best Friends, right?

Well...you would think. But I noticed her calling another girl best friend online. She announced it in Twitter and on her blog. Ok......

Can anyone say 'double standard'?

I wrote her a note saying how much I disapproved of her calling the other girl best friend, but I do want her to be happy and to please forgive me if I sound upset, but it hurt. I have restrained from getting close to anyone else, to make her happy and then she repays me with that. It really hurt, hey I am a softy girl after all.

Anyhoo...she proceeded to remove me from all applications. First I noticed she wasn't on my MYSPACE page...then Twitter....MSN...and I am sure a slew of other places!

Why would she go so ballistic when I confronted her about the whole BFF thing? COMPLETELY retarded ballistic!! I was just hurt when I saw her going goo goo for someone else....I tell her how I feel to be completely shunned? SHAME ON YOU, SARAH, FOR ASKING YOUR BFF A QUESTION! Really! Am I just supposed to keep my mouth shut about everything? Be a timid best friend? I think not.

So...the lesson I have learned this week....is that you really and truly don't know someone, ever. Even after you are married for many years...bestfriends forever.... people can take you off guard in any situation! Be careful whom you become close too, trust almost no one in most situations and keep your guard up.

To be honost...I was keeping my guard up in this situation because I could see previous erratic behavior from this individual. I didn't become as close as I could have because of the past that she was so open and honest about. yey! I am hurt...but not devastated! Be careful from big personalities, y'all.

Love always,
Sarah