Well Come to Ankur's world..!

I know I am not in your imagination anymore, still whenever you remmember me,remmember me... as a part of good time,we spend together...

Friends, its my first blog writing ! Pls excuse me for the errors and do comments.......... Its about a year ago one of my friend made my email id...! Earlier I didnt had any of it,as I was unaware of internet & its importance.! (Actually I never felt it necessary in my life). Then slowly I became use to it.. Startd to mail to my friends,relatives .& also receivd from them. I also started to explore internet from Google(thanks)..! One fine day I made an a/c in Orkut with the help same friend.... It was a new experience for me...! I never saw any social site with so much colourful before, I was amazed, thrilld..! I made all my old friends to join the site,even made some new ones also.... It was easy going ............... untill ..! ! ! 09.07.2008, I got a friend request from an unknown friend..! A female from U.S.A..! I was surprisd,even worried as one of my friend had already warnd me that I should stay away from unknown friend request from foreighn countries,as their link contain virus or they are fake,could be trouble(ooophs,how superstitious.!). So I didnt acceptd it, but again I got d request in next day..! Same things happend for a week..! Then on 17.07.2008 I got a mail from her,"hi Ankur i am Delicia (name changed.!),i like you, pls add me" thats the sentence that changd me, my world, everything..! Man..whats happning , a beautiful lady far from USA wants to be my friend.! WoW.! I acceptd her as my friend, then 2 days after we startd talking, I was very excited to talk to her,as she was d first female friend at net, even in my life..! I was a shy person I never felt easy to talk to the girls..! She was smooth to talk,very soft,friendly... I lovd talkng to her. Everyday We use to talk, slowly slowly I startd havng fun . She was elder to me , she taught me many things regarging net, western culture,western music, her own culture, her own language a little bit(portugese) by the way she was a brazilian linda, staying at USA for 15 years working in Wear house (GAP)..! She is a responsible hard working woman...! Enjoys her work very much. As we went on She told me about her past, it was harsh..! Even I told her about my past also which was almost similar...Days passd on we came very close..! Close to our hearts(o man what a feeling.!) & we both fall in love....!(two lonely hearts makes a pair) we dont have much things in common, still we had.! She was rich,sexy, hot... Soft, understanding, simple on times but had very attitudes, when she becomes angry..! And me..? I was a overweightd, poor, rude, unmaturd,restless ! I think we may had fight more than thousand thousand times, but then again we just lovd each other(all these was going on through msn, orkut, mail & fone calls). I didnt add more friends after that,but she kept on adding friends...but never I had any problms for that...! But we both were very jelous about love. She was jelous of my relationship that I had,(which was very painful but real,from which I was desperate to overcome).! She askd me whether I could leave everything including my family,my place, my country for her.? If she comes to my country to take me with her... I couldnt beleive my self that I could be so happy..! I told her, its a dream & dreams donot comes true..! But she claimd that she is gonna do it,do the impossible possible(?)...... My world was changing I was in the air floating in love...! But When would she come..? Soon.! On 25.12.2008 we had fun.! On 01.01.2009 we had also fun.! By the way 2 months ago She had a new friend among others "Dom Joan"(name changd), who was diffrent from the others... He was just like a crazy guy who was in love with her, incially I didnt had any problems with him,but gradually I could feel , he is coming between us,...! I dont understand why she was allowing him, so much. I could feel his presence, in her profile,testiminal,scraps,mail even phone . Dom Juan was a goodlookng, handsome brazilian guy much older...knows portugese... So I startd having jelousy, quorious about my love.. Although she assurd me that She loves only me & he was just a friend., we startd having fight, she used ignore him for some time again add him. This goes on & on ,mean while after Febuary she was about to come to India(my country)... So I made my passport..(!). All my friends startd making fun of me that I have gone crazy...!(but when you are in love,you dont care about any thing. Which is right ? Which is wrong.? Donot matters.!) I was just waitng for the time of magical moments, that I could meet her.. in real..! But there was a shoking news her sister got heart attack(major) & was addmittd to hospital in Coma..!! She had to cancell her tickets to India......!( God was testing us.???) she was busy to look after d family of her sister,as she didnt had any progress , she is still in coma..(why god do this to good people.? She had 2 kids small & a loving husband..!)....time passes my love back to her work, back to her daily routine...but now she is very busy , in other things (why?) no time for me... Also when I ask about it, there was no proper answer..! I ask whether some one came to her life.? If it is , she can tell me, but she didnt said for it. Slowly slowly I was having the feeling that things are not same.I was not getting whats happning..? I could found that she was chating with Dom Juan, but wanted to hide it from me..(may be i was very jelous of that man,i cant take him, & she knew it.) Finally I broke up....the relation on 16.05.2009. I Miss her..