decent days and nights

what a weird day. what a strange spring term in general. here's a technicality -- spring term isn't as long as an entire semester. instead it's like half. but still...more ridiculous things have happened in the past two months than in my whole life.

that may be a slight exaggeration.

but for real. it seems like my entire life culminated within those last few weeks. everything came together or fell apart (as the case may have been) or sometimes both at once. people came and left and slipped through my fingers like the little grains of sand i will be playing in next week. but not before driving for three entire days through some of the lamest states in the country.

at least i don't have to drive through iowa. i think that is my least favorite state.

well, i feel like i need to talk more about these last few months and make some sense of it all, but not tonight. i've got to wake up in five hours and start driving.

and maybe go to colorado springs. haha. i guess we'll see what happens tomorrow. my sister is driving with me (and by that i mean NOT DRIVING because she would almost definitely wreck my car because she is crazy) and that should be interesting. she is fun, but might be adverse to a random slightly-out-of-the-way stop in colorado. but will she be able to read the map that says it's not on the way? perhaps not. sooo...we'll see.

i'm not sure if i'm ready to go back to ohio. but i guess we'll find out soon enough.

so. see you maybe.

today i decided it's easier to focus on other people.

when you're wrapped up in other people's dilemmas and issues, you don't have nearly as much time to worry about your own stupid problems.

this will be my new strategy.

...i'm going to need a lot more people...

things keep happening.

funny how that goes.

my show is mostly over. we close next week and then it will be done. a week after that, i'll be driving three days away to myrtle beach with my sister. and then a few short days after that...ohio.

the boy is there.

amazing how that is the only thing my brain can think about when i think about ohio.

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so my friend decided to be a vegan. she read this book and decided that she didn't want to eat meat or dairy or whatever anymore. i drank some of her soy milk and it was really good. not that i think i will be going vegan or anything anytime soon...just that it was interesting. i think you need to have balance in what you eat and if that means sometimes eating other animals and their byproducts then i'm pretty okay with that. plus, all that healthy food is wicked expensive. but i do already eat mostly whole-wheat things and fruits and veggies and other stuff. maybe i'm like halfway there. ish.

i do, however, feel very strongly about other environmental things. i never use the plastic bags at the grocery store. what a waste. i usually just try not to buy so much and just carry it with me, or bring my own bag or something. and i have a sigg waterbottle (which i LOVE -- if you don't have one, you probably need one) and i use it instead of the plastic waterbottles that i went through at a rate of like two-a-day and then just threw away. that was pretty wasteful too. and plastic takes a long time to biodegrade. and people in utah don't understand the concept of recycling, so there is no where to drop off stuff like that.

i'm not all green. i drive my car with its v6 gas-guzzling engine to campus everyday and to where ever else my heart desires. i take very long hot showers which i'm sure doesn't help the environment. i also have more clothes than i could ever need, when there's tons of naked kids in africa. but i like to think i'm helping out a little bit. and i'm at least eco-conscious, if nothing else.

that counts right?

my bowling teacher says that when you bowl to the exact same place twice in one frame (getting a certain number of pins the first time and none the second time -- because you already got them...duh) then you get "life points." it's what he tells me so i don't feel so bad when i bowl a few crappy frames. he is cool. i think i probably get life points for being eco-conscious.

so...i hung out with ^ bowling teacher last week. it's time to refer to him as something else, as anyone reading this (or not) thinks i'm crazy. HE'S TWO YEARS OLDER AND A GRAD STUDENT...NOT A REAL TEACHER!!! from now on, he will be The Man. because that rhymes with his name.

The Man is really cool. he invited me to his house and we hung out for a while and talked about things and it was fun. not even awkward.

more life points for me.