the news / never let you go
Tuesday, 6. May 2008, 07:38:32
i started work at the newsroom today. it was really fun, working with the sports guy and doing camera stuff and all these crazy ridiculous things that i don't quite understand yet. it's really intimidating to know that i have no idea what's going on, but i am the youngest one there and everyone seems willing to teach me and let me do things. it's actually really neat. i haven't decided whether i want to apply to be a broadcast major (since i already am done with my major). if i do, it will probably mean an extra semester of college after my four years are up, so i guess we'll see. for now, it's cool to get some experience -- get a leg up before everyone else tries to do the same thing.
a girl in my intro to broadcast class asked the teacher if she could watch the daily news in the newsroom and the teacher said sure. i just laughed to myself...she can watch it and i will LIVE it.
its becoming a tricky balance now, working with the broadcast news and also working with the theatre. i am starting to lean away from theatre, but only because the news is something i know nothing about and i want to sort of dive into it and figure it out as soon as i can. with both of these, it is still (seems like, at least) more about WHO you know than WHAT you know, so while i'm learning i'm also trying to meet these new people that will help me do things. day one was an adventure and hopefully it'll only get better. isn't that how things are supposed to work? i still have no idea what i want to do for a living. maybe i'll just never grow up.
it doesn't help that the theatre and the communications building are literally on opposite sides of campus. i just haul myself back and forth everyday between working at each one...like the opposite sides of my life. finding a balance will be interesting. or maybe impossible.
at least being busy has kept my mind off the boy (sort of). he finished his semester and is going home for a while to work. it's frustrating that i'm not there to be with him, but i'm doing things here that i couldn't do at home. i need this experience and now is the time to do it. in a few weeks i'll be back in ohio for my internship / back to my summer job. then i'll get to hang out with the boy again.
what a bad idea.
we just can't shake each other though. and it's hard to not want to go back to someone when you know they are waiting for you -- whenever you decide to come back. especially when you know it works. me and the boy...we just work. i don't know why. but it's comforting, probably in a way it shouldn't be anymore.
it almost feels like i just need a new boy. is that what it will take to make me forget about the boy? or at least get over him? what a terrible thought. but it's been almost a year since we "broke up" (well, another three months...so not incredibly close, but still..) and we still act the same way together and well. i don't really know. but at the same time, i am not willing to just settle for whoever is willing to take me. i'm too picky for that (maybe more than i should be). but at this point, i'm at a loss.
how do you get over a guy that refuses to let you get over him?
a girl in my intro to broadcast class asked the teacher if she could watch the daily news in the newsroom and the teacher said sure. i just laughed to myself...she can watch it and i will LIVE it.
its becoming a tricky balance now, working with the broadcast news and also working with the theatre. i am starting to lean away from theatre, but only because the news is something i know nothing about and i want to sort of dive into it and figure it out as soon as i can. with both of these, it is still (seems like, at least) more about WHO you know than WHAT you know, so while i'm learning i'm also trying to meet these new people that will help me do things. day one was an adventure and hopefully it'll only get better. isn't that how things are supposed to work? i still have no idea what i want to do for a living. maybe i'll just never grow up.
it doesn't help that the theatre and the communications building are literally on opposite sides of campus. i just haul myself back and forth everyday between working at each one...like the opposite sides of my life. finding a balance will be interesting. or maybe impossible.
at least being busy has kept my mind off the boy (sort of). he finished his semester and is going home for a while to work. it's frustrating that i'm not there to be with him, but i'm doing things here that i couldn't do at home. i need this experience and now is the time to do it. in a few weeks i'll be back in ohio for my internship / back to my summer job. then i'll get to hang out with the boy again.
what a bad idea.
we just can't shake each other though. and it's hard to not want to go back to someone when you know they are waiting for you -- whenever you decide to come back. especially when you know it works. me and the boy...we just work. i don't know why. but it's comforting, probably in a way it shouldn't be anymore.
it almost feels like i just need a new boy. is that what it will take to make me forget about the boy? or at least get over him? what a terrible thought. but it's been almost a year since we "broke up" (well, another three months...so not incredibly close, but still..) and we still act the same way together and well. i don't really know. but at the same time, i am not willing to just settle for whoever is willing to take me. i'm too picky for that (maybe more than i should be). but at this point, i'm at a loss.
how do you get over a guy that refuses to let you get over him?
OPTION A
OPTION B (but please do it to him in public!!)
OPTION C (read this)
By pandashavingtorture, # 10. May 2008, 14:49:52