Monday, July 25, 2011 12:38:42 PM
On my way back, I had to share the lift with one of the big bosses.
I always tend to ignore them but since it was just the two of us in the lift, I think it is kinda rude to stare intently on my phone, trying to update how happy I was leaving work today on the blog.
So I said, 'Oh hi, how are you today?'
What followed was an awkward conversation of that I am leaving office at 2.50pm, due to the fact that I actually finishes at 2pm because I start at 5am.
Mechanical conversation. I regret that I even tried.
Monday, July 25, 2011 1:04:34 AM
Didn't get enough sleep. Sleep is for the weak. Getting a bit dizzy though. Bah! Maybe it is just monday blues. 8 absenteeism today man. 5 unplanned. Like foreal? Partying too hard last weekend? Damn selfish bas*ard. I did not feel so stellar waking up either but did I chicken out? Them chicken turning me passive aggressive....
Sunday, July 24, 2011 1:53:26 PM
I completed two projects today.
Reversible hat for my colleague's kid and my cowl/pidge scarf.
I want to write something more substantial but I really should be sleeping now...
I still miss Ben. I hate that. I must not miss him because he'd been a douche. But I kept thinking how we spent our time talking, lonely souls that we were. Well, I still am.
I hate the fact that he chose her over me, when I am his best friend. Really shows what my real worth to him. And he insisted on leaving when I begged him to stay. Wow, how my dignity flew out of the window because I've missed him so much.
It is just sad thinking how I intensely miss him and he just comes by when he feels like it. Like yeah, thank you a-shole. You sure make me feel special. *sigh*
I still wonder if he misses me. I wonder if he thinks of me sometimes. Not as much as I miss him, not as much as how I think of him, but passingly, would he still feel anything about me now that we are not talking anymore.
I do want to talk to him again, but I don't trust myself and I don't think he wants to talk to me anymore. Sad fact.