Words of a loser who thinks too much,

one,two,three..

If you close the door
The night could last forever
Leave the sunshine out
And say hello to never...


Just beyond beautiful.I'm listening to "After hours" while sleeping.
What more do i want?

01/11/2009 - because of beer - please to remember this day which it made me fall
14/11/2009 - because of dark - please to remember this day which it made me feel that I can fly away

...

the fucking cops are fucking keen
to fucking keep it fucking clean
the fucking chief's a fucking swine
who fucking draws a fucking line
at fucking fun and fucking games
the fucking kids he fucking blames
are nowehere to be fucking found
anywhere in chicken town
the fucking scene is fucking sad
the fucking news is fucking bad
the fucking weed is fucking turf
the fucking speed is fucking surf
the fucking folks are fucking daft
don't make me fucking laugh
it fucking hurts to look around
everywhere in chicken town
the fucking train is fucking late
you fucking wait you fucking wait
you're fucking lost and fucking found
stuck in fucking chicken town
the fucking view is fucking vile
for fucking miles and fucking miles
the fucking babies fucking cry
the fucking flowers fucking die
the fucking food is fucking muck
the fucking drains are fucking fucked
the colour scheme is fucking brown
everywhere in chicken town
the fucking pubs are fucking dull
the fucking clubs are fucking full
of fucking girls and fucking guys
with fucking murder in their eyes
a fucking bloke is fucking stabbed
waiting for a fucking cab
you fucking stay at fucking home
the fucking neighbors fucking moan
keep the fucking racket down
this is fucking chicken town
the fucking train is fucking late
you fucking wait you fucking wait
you're fucking lost and fucking found
stuck in fucking chicken town
the fucking pies are fucking old
the fucking chips are fucking cold
the fucking beer is fucking flat
the fucking flats have fucking rats
the fucking clocks are fucking wrong
the fucking days are fucking long
it fucking gets you fucking down
evidently chicken town

Today is the happiest day in my student life. Yea it is!
Tomorrow is teacher’s day so today we were all (students and teachers) relaxed, which means that we didn’t have to care about assignments, lessons, going to the board, correcting homework. Yay it was just awesome though I’ve got a bunch of tasks undone. This is the last year I’m in high school, from July on I’ll be a damn university student, which scares me every time I think of. It’s like “notwannabeadult” symptoms. Well that’s really creepy to think of my blurred future. Suddenly this situation reminds me of the song “Nowhere to go, nowhere to be”.
Hmm, yes nowhere to go...

I went to school early in this morning to prepare presents for my teachers( especially my Math teacher. He’s just taught me for 3 years and he’s only 24 years of age, just so you know how sweet he is and I’m afraid that I fall for him, yay you it’s totally legal to be fall in love with teacher in my country, some of my foreigner friends, with a worried look on their face, ask me if it’s illegal, I laugh my ass off, it’s fineeeee except he’s got a girlfriend already).Then Hạnh (Korean gal, her nick name cuz’ her eyes are just two thin lines, haha) and I went to market to buy roses for them, damn roses are hella expensive, in holiday the sellers always rush up the prices cuz’ they know we will buy flowers no matter how overpriced it is. Starkly mad. We bought twenty-something roses, red roses. On the way back to school, the atmosphere of holiday turned us on. Students in white shirts (our uniforms, I love them) flocked into markets,giftshops to buy flowers,presents,etc.for their beloved teachers. This scene made a whole day happy and pretty unforgettable.

In class, the moment before my Math teacher came in, we had turned the lights out and made it a big suprise. Yea he was surprised and you must have a look at his face, it was like someone BOO him and he was nothing far from a baby boy, he was sooo cute (Hucc, here I go again).With an upbeat tone, he gave us a thank-you and we started to set up a “Circus”. Yes my class looked like a circus with all the jokes that we could think of, or a zoo I can say.

After today,we’re about to back to normal.We’ll be snowed under with a bunch of assignments,be busy all the time with those school stuff,be crazy about being that busy.Yes,we’re gonna be busy students.Hope that at the end, we’ll all touch victory-the best ticket to the best university.
No earthly ship will ever bring my teenage years again.
I’m gonna miss you guys.

About me,I determined to make my career in literature.But there was a change in the end.I took in into consideration and thought that I couldn’t be rich except for being such a super super great writer.Therefore,I will be on the path to German-English major.I love language and I think it is one of the most important keys to enter the world outside.Plus,my parents used to live in German for 3 years,they’ll help me a lot.At home,they’ve got a bookshelf full of Germany books,I cannot even understand a word on it. Hee!

Hey wait,
There’s a shame I wanna tell you.
This afternoon my friends and I went to a coffee shop, while the waiter bended over a little too far, I caught a glimpse of bare skin on him. Is it sick? I think I’m sick. Hehe, It’s time to look for a new bf nah. It’s been a long period of time I have been away from a man’s arms.
Ha ha, kidding, the university entrance exam is calling me and I’m afraid that it will not let me be in any man’s arm.
Men, wait for me, just one more yearrrrrrrr.

i know ,
i know i'm not wise .
i know i'm selfish.
i know i'm dishonest.
i know i'm unfaithful .
i know i'm not trustworthy.
i know i'm useless.

i know you're right,
and i know i'm wrong.
i know you're smart
and i know i'm dumb.
i know you're nice
and i know i'm mean.
i know i'm weak
and i you're strong.

i know you're gone .
i'm still here .
the end.

"don't speak, i know just what you're saying. so please stop explaining. don't tell me, cause it hurts ."