Wednesday, 23. July 2008, 13:12:31
Well, far from posting since last week, many things happened since there!
There are 17 days untill the wedding and yes, I've become a Bridezilla!!!
Last week, in the apartment nothing more changed unless for the bath box we put there. Now we're waiting for our frigde and our dinning table. That's just what we need now.
Apart of this, I am very anxious, nervous and yes... emotional. I cried last week.

Iknow that feelings are evrywhere but I hate this. I hate the fac of can't be able to control it. Last week, I was not nervous about the party, but about the marriage itself. If I'm able to manage it. If I won't disappoint my future husband in some way. If someday he'll look at me and will think 'Oh, my goodness... and I married to this??'... You know, this kind of thing we think when we are about to get into a real commitment...
I was alone for 9 years, since I finished my first marriage and now, I'm involved in a new one. So, expectations and fears are normal in this situation. But... I can't stop thinking it, then I've to deal with it.
Saturday, I got my Bachelorette Party


at the bowling. Yes, I didn't have any nuded man...

I got some gifts from my friends (only women) and I loved it!! We got there and had a great time having fun!!! As I'm a totally

I didn't get my camera (I didn't find) and a friend of mine is still owning me the photos, once she was the official photographer! I hope pics are coming soon!!

We got some more gifts from the wedding (my brother gave me two) and I'm still cleaning and putting things at the apt. On Sunday a friend of family (who is a priest) gave us a blessing in the apt. You know, my family is very religious and even I am not so much, is nice to continue with the traditions (sometimes). Was cool!

And yesterday, was the worst. We went to the buffet house to pay the last part of our party and to deal the details of the ceremony. There we realized that we really will marry in August 09th!!!!!

I got totally nervous cos we had all the details and sequence of what will happen.
- Entrance of the bridesmaid;
- Entrance of the parents;
- Entrance of the fiacé (my fiancé was getting white yesterday... so nervous!!!);
- Entrance of the bride (me, freaking out and laughing sooo much, nervous!!! Yes, I laugh when I'm nervous!!! I'm afraid of having a laugh attack while I'll be entering!!);
- The ceremony itself, with the part of putting the rings and telling all those things

and the kiss;
- Signing the book;
- Cumpliments and more photos;
- Cake and champagne;
- Dance of the newlyweds!!

(Other laugh attack!!!)
- Dinner and the rest... where I don't know if I'll be alive after have cried, have had at least two laugh attacks and have received all the cumpliments...
After all this sequence, we realized that we're officially NERVOUS!!!!

