story of my life
Thursday, 3. July 2008, 17:19:29
it's been a long time since i wrote a blog, so i guess it's about time to write one. i really find time to write this cause i really miss it and at the same time i owe everyone an explanation 
i have shocked everyone when i announced that i am getting married. my parents already saw it coming but they didn't expect me marry so soon. my relatives couldn't believe me and some of my friends are disappointed with me.
i used to be a very goal oriented person who used to always give up her happiness in order to please everyone. i have give up a lot of things before because of my dream of becoming a pharmacist in Australia or in the U.S. i could not go out with my friends every time they will ask me to hang out with them because i know that my parents will not allow me and i am afraid to loose some time in my studies. i used to obey and make everyone happy.
i used to have a boyfriend before and he had already asked my hand for marriage. i told him that i will only marry him after i will pass my exam when i am already a pharmacist abroad. i used to be happy with him when he was still in the Philippines even though we had a long distance relationship because he was from manila. i used to believe that we were meant for each other and that he was my soul mate. he kept telling me that he would like to meet my family and visit Cebu. i kept giving him a chance and believe him, but time came and i was out of patience. later i realized that i was such a fool to believe in someone who is very good in talking but not in doing. i felt sorry for myself because i didn't listen to my friend when she told me not to believe in someone whom i haven't met yet. and i feel more sorry to myself when i conclude that me and garry would have never met in person if i didn't go to manila to take my exam. i was supposed to take my exam last march 06 in Australia but i chose to take it in manila so that i will meet him. well, EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER. for me that relationship with him was so BLURRY and was full of lies.
i used to be very happy at home when my sister, nieces and brother was still living with us in our house. but everything changed when everyone left me. first it was my brother he moved out after he got married last may 07. then my sister and her kidz followed, they left to migrate in the U.S. last sept 07. after they left, i felt miserable and depressed. i have nothing except my books. i do have a boyfriend but where was he when i need someone to talk to? who would call me once a month because it is expensive to make a long distance call. who would always remind me that he spend $100 for that call because he used the satellite phone? i have been feed up with him for a long time though. but because i respect him and i listen to my friends who kept telling me that i should not break up with him while he is still on board the ship so that i will not be the one to blame if anything bad would happen to him. so i waited for his arrival in manila. after 3 days, i send him an email and told him that i was totally feed up and was out of patience. i really need to think straight and move on with my life. finish my plans of passing my pharmacy exam.
o.k. that was my life before i opened my account in asianeuro last nov 04, 2007. i saw a 22 yr old man with the name bertrand that has really caught my attention and i send him an interest. i was not expecting that he would gave me his email address and that he would send me an email. days after we emailed each other he told me that he would be on holiday on february 11, 2008 in cebu. okay, i said to myself i will only believe you once we meet in person. from then on we emailed each other once, then twice a day. we only saw each other in pictures and we only chat once. he never told me that he liked me or that he felt something special for me. days went by and we only have a month, week, days to see each other. he kept counting the days and remind me that we will soon meet. i was really frank and i told him that i can never go out with him alone. i should be with either of my mom or dad. he said not a problem and he respect that. i was really afraid because i don't want to be disappointed. my mother was not very happy when she saw bertrand picture because he had lots of tattoo and she said he looks like a bad boy. hahaha i kept telling my mother that i will never listen to her. so she said that she knows me and that i really love bad boys... feb 11 came, me and my father went to meet bertrand. after that he never told me what he want to do in cebu or where he would like to go. the only answer i get from him is that he wants to spend time with me. then on a sunday he went to our house to meet my family. i showed him the pictures i had when i wen there with my cousins. he was amused by it and guess what??? he told me he wanted to go there. so we went there with my dad. it was on Feb 14, the day that really changed our life.
to be continued...
i have shocked everyone when i announced that i am getting married. my parents already saw it coming but they didn't expect me marry so soon. my relatives couldn't believe me and some of my friends are disappointed with me.
i used to be a very goal oriented person who used to always give up her happiness in order to please everyone. i have give up a lot of things before because of my dream of becoming a pharmacist in Australia or in the U.S. i could not go out with my friends every time they will ask me to hang out with them because i know that my parents will not allow me and i am afraid to loose some time in my studies. i used to obey and make everyone happy.
i used to have a boyfriend before and he had already asked my hand for marriage. i told him that i will only marry him after i will pass my exam when i am already a pharmacist abroad. i used to be happy with him when he was still in the Philippines even though we had a long distance relationship because he was from manila. i used to believe that we were meant for each other and that he was my soul mate. he kept telling me that he would like to meet my family and visit Cebu. i kept giving him a chance and believe him, but time came and i was out of patience. later i realized that i was such a fool to believe in someone who is very good in talking but not in doing. i felt sorry for myself because i didn't listen to my friend when she told me not to believe in someone whom i haven't met yet. and i feel more sorry to myself when i conclude that me and garry would have never met in person if i didn't go to manila to take my exam. i was supposed to take my exam last march 06 in Australia but i chose to take it in manila so that i will meet him. well, EXPERIENCE IS THE BEST TEACHER. for me that relationship with him was so BLURRY and was full of lies.
i used to be very happy at home when my sister, nieces and brother was still living with us in our house. but everything changed when everyone left me. first it was my brother he moved out after he got married last may 07. then my sister and her kidz followed, they left to migrate in the U.S. last sept 07. after they left, i felt miserable and depressed. i have nothing except my books. i do have a boyfriend but where was he when i need someone to talk to? who would call me once a month because it is expensive to make a long distance call. who would always remind me that he spend $100 for that call because he used the satellite phone? i have been feed up with him for a long time though. but because i respect him and i listen to my friends who kept telling me that i should not break up with him while he is still on board the ship so that i will not be the one to blame if anything bad would happen to him. so i waited for his arrival in manila. after 3 days, i send him an email and told him that i was totally feed up and was out of patience. i really need to think straight and move on with my life. finish my plans of passing my pharmacy exam.
o.k. that was my life before i opened my account in asianeuro last nov 04, 2007. i saw a 22 yr old man with the name bertrand that has really caught my attention and i send him an interest. i was not expecting that he would gave me his email address and that he would send me an email. days after we emailed each other he told me that he would be on holiday on february 11, 2008 in cebu. okay, i said to myself i will only believe you once we meet in person. from then on we emailed each other once, then twice a day. we only saw each other in pictures and we only chat once. he never told me that he liked me or that he felt something special for me. days went by and we only have a month, week, days to see each other. he kept counting the days and remind me that we will soon meet. i was really frank and i told him that i can never go out with him alone. i should be with either of my mom or dad. he said not a problem and he respect that. i was really afraid because i don't want to be disappointed. my mother was not very happy when she saw bertrand picture because he had lots of tattoo and she said he looks like a bad boy. hahaha i kept telling my mother that i will never listen to her. so she said that she knows me and that i really love bad boys...
feb 11 came, me and my father went to meet bertrand. after that he never told me what he want to do in cebu or where he would like to go. the only answer i get from him is that he wants to spend time with me. then on a sunday he went to our house to meet my family. i showed him the pictures i had when i wen there with my cousins. he was amused by it and guess what??? he told me he wanted to go there. so we went there with my dad. it was on Feb 14, the day that really changed our life. to be continued...
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