my life

im never in love before and im not even sure what is love mean to me? my parent always to me to distance from boy because they are not good for me and i think so too. my never want to break the wall that my parent are built but may be i will break one day.even i like someone so much i always try to control my self not to like them because i afraid i will fall in love with them one day. i always have conflict with my self.i always try to run away from guys when i know they like me because i dont want to break my heart and their heart in future.a lot people told me im very pretty that is the reason why a lot of guys like me and want go out with me even they not even know i am. i hate guys are like that. even i dont want to in love with anyone but i still have aguys in my dream. in the future i dont need my guys be handsome. i just need someone patient listen to me when im talk and nice and have a nice smil and spoil me.