Wednesday, 27. June 2007, 19:56:37
quiet, summer, family, silent
...
Dichotomy
Strangely early for my loud family house
to be quiet.
Always someone up with the TV too loud and carrying
down the hall.
Lights flipped for random but continuous trips
to bathroom, kitchen, closet, car, laundry, trash,
looking for stuff.
Summer tired siblings fast asleep,
one holdout tries to wrestle the best words into
the best order.
Why quiet beds, and such early stillness?
I have an answer that I can't say.
I know why Dad depressed hushed
everyone to bed so early,
but I can't say.
and I write
and I wonder
What is more important, the truth, or an intact
silent family?
~muse~
Wednesday, 27. June 2007, 19:41:25
family, summer, music, goals
I don't know master Timm very well for myself, I've only become aquainted with his writings as we frequent the same blogs like our dear Loku and Alan and others, but I'm so impressed with his willingness to try and learn and fail and try again especially as I said earlier in his post about summer break before college.
I decided to try to think of what I wanted to learn or do this summer. I want to be a little more reliable, be more there even when in weakness or depression its hard. But as for skills, I'm studying Greek on my own in preparation for when I take it as a class this fall if that counts as a skill. I went to music festival a few weekends ago and was very inspired and I want to spend more time playing my guitar and learning enough so that I might be able to write my own songs to sing. I love to sing and I love to write so we'll see what happens there. I do also want to spend some time re-personalizing my blog appearance again. I liked it before but it got all jabberwockied when the templets on opera were updated.
I've been sitting with my Grandma in the hospital for some of this span of time that I didnt' post. She had heart failure and also Alzheimers and she couldn't stay there alone. She didn't understand what was happening. I don't know if it helped having someone there but now she's back home again and things are back to relative normal.
I have some great pictures of the Kentucky sky and of 
's from the ST Louis Zoo to post if I ever get my camera, cable, and computer in the same place! ~muse~
Wednesday, 13. June 2007, 06:37:59
summer, plans, grown up, high school
...
It is very solidly summer now. My spring semester ended in mid-May. I took a summer class which I'm not quite finished with the homework for, but there's time left for that.
I spent 4 hellish days as a chaperone for my younger sister's high school show choir trip to St. Louis, Missouri. It was fun to be with my sister and the kids in her choir are a lot of fun. The 'real' adults made the trip frustrating. I look younger than I am and I spent most of the time with my sister so although I've been out of high school for six years that negated my status as a 'real' adult or so I was told. Oh well. I had fun, despite childishly wanting to scream "Leave me alone I'm a grown up!!!" Even though high school educators do not see it, The bank, my university, and the Discover Card people all seem to know I'm a grown up although at times I wish they didn't!
I'm leaving later today for a music festival. It should be a lot of fun. I hope to take some pictures of the Kentucky countryside, study some Greek between bands and spend time with my family.
As for the rest of my summer . . .
in late July I'm taking another summer class and other than that I really don't know. I endeavor to spend some time with my grandparents who are failing and lend a hand to my Grandfather. My Grandmother has Alzheimers and it is hard on him to be the primary caretaker in his health. I love them both very much. I can't imagine my life without them and I dont' want to miss this chance.
I'm a little ashamed at all the days I've spent sleeping in and watching TV already. I am inspired by AzureTimm's post here as he is finishing high school and looking at things he wants to learn in the time before he starts further education. I'm going to try to come up with some goals in honor of Timm's graduation. but its 2:36 am so that's going to have to be continued . . .
~muse~
