Love at every corner in the world...

I always tell myself that I should be much stronger. I also know that I should be optimistic.

But at that night, I sill had tears full of eyes.

I could not imagine that it happens again in my life.

I know it is difficult for me to live in a total unacquainted world, although I have been in Germany for almost a year.

I am not familiar with the city, although it is not big enough. I do not have friends here, although I do know some people here.

On Sep. 11th, 2008, I had to remember the day, because I would have slept on the street. I know it was only a joke, when I said, that I would sleep on the street or just on the bridge.

All of the packages, I do not know why I have so many things! On the street, 2 O´Clock in the night. The street was so empty that I could only see some taxis passing by, or maybe some drug dealers. It was so terrible that I did not know what I could do. I could not call anybody at 2 in the night. I did not want to disturb others. I have already brought too many troubles to my friends. I did not want it. I should be more independent. But it is tought. It is really tough for me.

In Germany, there are also Arschlocher! I should have moved into the new room at 11 in the night. But the roommate was in the airport, and he said he could not come back home until 2. I had to move out at 11. I had to wait for him on the street, and I did not know if he came back or not. It reminded me again of the experience in Prague. I do not want that it happens again!

I had tears in my eyes. I know it is not difficult to live alone in Germany. You have to face all of the problems yourself. I have to be strong. Nobody can help you. I felt cold in the summer. So late in the night, in a unfamiliar city in Germany. I thought of my mama and my sister, she would have a baby soon. I would like to see my family. I have not seen them since last september. I miss them.

I should be stronger. Life is not easy, yes, it is tough. Isn´t it?

I got a key at 2. Yes, now I had a room here, where I can stay after work. I would like to have a normal life. I have to do some sports, and I have to read books.

I am still young, and there are still many challenges and difficulties. Be strong, yes, be strong. I will never forget it. Anyway, I have experience, and it is also kind of wealth, which the life gives to me.

Do not cry. Anyway, you are a strong boy.