Blacktear!

I seriously have no idea where my head is today.. Apart from the fact that im not at all motivated, or even a bit enthused.. I am really acting stupid! where is my head today??? im not feeling me.. i got a pizza delivered - chicken tikka..from scooters pizza. even though im busy chowing into it right now.. the bloody thing is terrible!! there is if any cheese..rubbery, the whole thing is cold, there is no taste whatsoever here. all im tasting is hot supposedly bbq saurce bitting into my mouth.. the mushrooms are thing and look like they have been dried in the son, the chicken pieces.. my word, i hope i am eating chicken here..it looks like prons cut up into tiny squares pieces..and its too refined on the palate.. i doubt its chicken! anyway, worse even..peperdews? red pepper? which?? oh and theres no green peppers on it, which means im eating a redish - peppers,brown - bbq sauce,white - chicken? ..all i know is i have a hearty slab of something..it could even be alive..sho! anyway, back to the point.. the pizza place is just up the road from me, yet my pizza? is cold.. i still took it..paid for it on delivery and then tipped the guy about 40 percent of what it was worth... 15 min later, i didnt and i havent complained.. which would have been fast! i dont like food, so getting things like this is realy not good. im gona have to focus hard in forgeting this otherwise my appetite, and hunger are distroyed the whole of tomorrow.. i cant eat this!! anyway, have i become tame or what? this is nonsense..