Blcktear !

and cry and cry an........ Its hard for me to open up and let the rivers flow ,for only sleep waits on to comfort me.. How do i close my eyes and not think, dream, dare... why do i feel so alone, empty and unresolved.. why am i even questioning myself, when i have no answers but a deep yearn to let out and cry.. A hug and just that someone understands, realy understands.. is all i probably need.. from there i would happily cry my rivers dry.. my eyes burn as tears well up behind them.. yet not one is ever shed.. I need to cry, although i feel i have had enough of it.. only if i could close my eyes and fall immediately into the embrace of light and darkness.. for thats what sleep is. otherwise i just think im losing my mind thats all..