My OperaA new start
Wednesday, July 18, 2007 5:12:18 PM
It's really hard to end up single after 18 months of living with someone... These days I remember about the first days and kisses. In the end I always ask myself : did I mess it up? is it all my fault ?
Of course not. R wasn't what you can call a cool person. Always pushing me back when I tried to be tender , never encouraging my project to work in England , and using it as a low excuse for dumping me.
Was R jealous of my coolness ? or afraid I would leave for somebody else ? As R's doubts grew stronger , I felt how my love was real and how it was painful to be neglected like that. I waited a few weeks at home to calm down the atmosphere , and one day , in a text message , R said it was over.
How low !
Now I just feel lost. It's summer , I'm all alone with my fears.
I need to love again !
Of course not. R wasn't what you can call a cool person. Always pushing me back when I tried to be tender , never encouraging my project to work in England , and using it as a low excuse for dumping me.
Was R jealous of my coolness ? or afraid I would leave for somebody else ? As R's doubts grew stronger , I felt how my love was real and how it was painful to be neglected like that. I waited a few weeks at home to calm down the atmosphere , and one day , in a text message , R said it was over.
How low !
Now I just feel lost. It's summer , I'm all alone with my fears.
I need to love again !
