Journey in Life

I got up today feeling feverish and sore in my throat. I had to take MC for today.

I am still pondering about my future direction in this uncertain times.

For the past 2 weeks, I have been dwelling on thoughts of my directions and future. The more I dwell on them the more uneasy it becomes.

My journey over the past 6 ½ years in working life was a challenging one. Although many sees me as confident and having things under control, I do have struggles inside. The struggles are mainly to find the right wall to lean my ladder on. The thought of trying out something new bounces of mind every now and then.

The previous 6 ½ years was full of experiences. Managed to learned and understand various types of businesses and being involved in the audit or FDD of clients / targets from differing industries. The question that keep bugging me: is this the career path that I want to be in for the foreseeable future?

Got to go off to meet an old friend now. I guess that I need to KIV those thoughts for today and pray over it.

I have been reminded of this verse several times this week especially when driving.

Psalm 8:4
what is man that you are mindful of him, the son of man that you care for him?

In spite of having a challenging week I felt that this verse speaks volumes into my life. I kept thinking that what do we have or what are we that made God so interested and mindful of us. The answer is nothing. It is all about His unconditional love and acceptance of us. It is He who called us and not we who initiated the process.

God is mindful of us because He created us for a purpose (specific and different for every individual), He wants to have a fellowship with us and we are created in His image. The good news is nothing we can do can make God loves us more because we are already accepted by Him unconditionally.

I am in the midst of a confusion for the past 6 months. Confused in seeking for directions in life especially in career.

At this juncture, I am at a crossroad of making a major decision. But after praying and looking thoroughly at several alternatives, I am still as confused. The fear of making a major mistake in this career direction is quite frightening to me. At the meantime all I can do is to wait on Him for answers.

I am currently on a 3 weeks leave since last Thursday. I am using the opportunity mainly to study for the CFA Level 3 exams. It will be an uphill task for me this round as I did not have sufficient time to prepare for the exams.

Besides the leave is a time for me to reflect on my career,spiritual and life direction. I been always been procastinating when it come to reflecting on these 3 areas.