broken silent!

*I want to live my life, carrying my memories with me.
Even if those memories are painful,
even if those memories do nothing but hurt me...
even those memories I wish I could forget...
as long as I keep carrying them with me and don’t run away from them.
Someday...
someday, I believe I will get to the point where I'm not oppressed by those memories.
That’s what I want to believe.
I'd like to think that there's not a single memory that I have
which would be okay to forget.

in my dreams, I want to live life as mercy as it is
a life that lend by God
with a happy memories for a lifetime thinking
a heart that so light to carry
how I wish, I could continue my life without worries
no wiping for a sad tears
a feet to walk in a clouds of laughter

although my families are there to keep me smiling
I need him to let my laugh out
I need him to lend me his hand
I need her to hear my words

I need touch to take away my sadness..........

... I don’t want to stay alone,
I’m afraid with my own shadows keep telling me how emotional am I
I really hate those kind of feelings keeping me so lonely
I’m such a crazy, thinking myself so painful
.I don’t know either..... But for sure I’m longing for something I don’t know*

~diane