I smoked for two days,it's really terrible. i don't need it,but i couldn't help it.every moring my throat hurt, i thought it is because of smoking.
i thought i would never put those things in my mouth, i though i hate it .how many night when i was sad ,out rage ,on the edge of crasy, i refuse it.but it changes last thursday.it is not a tough day, it is usual, i washed my clothes,after reading a book named better use of your brain, i opened my dell, insert a CD in it ,it is a teleplay named strive. it's a bull shit, but i havn't a better one to kill time. i still felt alone, poked an orange,it was so delicious the day before,but at that time it's milk-toast.it looks like the life.life is wateriness, but i wanna do sth,but did nothing.you know what a bad reality.yep,i have no reason to complain, and i have no time to do those things.
in fact i like my present job and my status ,but some time the loneness make things different.what i need is cheer up ,and i will.
i will go to xiaogan tomorrow.hope it a good day.