Charity

Thoughts from last night...

Thursday, 20. October 2005, 01:06:28

I had two dreams recently that really set me to spinning. I can't get them out of my mind now. I can't help but wonder why I dreamed them. Where did they come from?

Sunday night I dreamed about Abby. It was so vividly put together, I woke up being sure it was real. She wrote me a huge, long letter. Familiar handwriting, blue ink pen. She included photos, and they looked just as I would imagine they might. She also sent a family picture Brandon and her Mom pictured as well. Brandon was married with a wife and little girl.

Then yesterday night I dreamed about Melanie. It was almost a repeat of an old dream I had before, but not quite. Their family had moved into a smaller house... and things were just. Different.

You know, it really boggles my mind how I have emotional memory. A lot of the time I'll believe I've totally tucked something away, that I've gotten over a certain feeling, and then one day the memory comes crashing back in a huge giant wave and I'm overcome with the effects of it.

Just a little something to start this blog off.Somewhat fried

Comments

Aaron W. Hsu # 27. October 2005, 21:08

I know exactly how that feels. Do you ever have those floods come back to you when you see a certain person? I've noticed that those types of things are usually best associated with people in my mind, and so it's meeting and talking with those people face to face that sets things off the most.

Charity # 13. November 2005, 21:40

Yes... definitely. =)

Talking about this also reminds me of another time when I met someone that reminded me so much of another friend in my past that it affected the way I interacted with her. That felt really strange, to be sure.

Aaron W. Hsu # 13. November 2005, 22:05

Oh, yeah, I can imagine! That hasn't happened all that much to me, but I think I have had that happen once or twice. It really got people upset/freaked out at me.

I think it does feel strange though, when you look at a person, and all you can see is another person. I have maybe had that happen once in my life, but it would really be strange if I had to interact with a person with any amount of regularity in that situation!