Chiisana Kiseki

June 23, 2007

Koi, my little dog has gone for 3 days. Now the only thing left is a big hole in my heart.

Maybe I was really wrong.

I was so stupid to think that without him I might live well.

I am so stupid.

Oh, I miss him so much.

Really wish that he could come back to my life again though I know that it never can happen.

I cry every night, look at the corner where he used to sleep in the darkness and let tears blow down.

I just want to hold him as tight as I can again and let him feel my love for him.

If only I had never let him go. If only I could see him just once more time.

Now I hate myself very much.

Why did I do such a stupid thing? Why did I let him go? Why did I shout at him, he is just a little dog, he don’t know every thing. I’m a bad master. I’m sick of myself.

Koi, please forgive me.

With all my heart, I hope all happiness will come to you.

Maybe you will be happier without this stupid master.

The memories of you, I will keep it forever thought I know if I remember you I will continue to cry.

Be a happy dog, Koi. I love you.