What is the point?
Friday, 6. February 2009, 19:22:31
Today, I spent all on my own (well not exactly, my cat was here) but I felt really low! I looked in my head at how I will be able to move on from this.... I can't see anything. In fact, yes, just blackness! I have then checked my emails from my former work colleagues who all felt strongly about my unfair dismissal and promised me they'd stay in touch.... Not a message from the beginning of the week in reply to the email I sent them the week before.... So I wrote to one or two of them, the closest ones, but just silence. So it got me wondering: are they uncomfortable talking about work when I don't have any and used to be working with them in the same place? Are they just plain busy (although, when I was there most of them were not snowed under and I don't reckoned it has changed overnight given the economic situation), or perhaps they feel like they ought not to write to me in case it gets them into trouble... I just don't know what to think about all this. All I know for sure is that I feel abandoned by EVERYONE. It is an extremely strong feeling to feel this abandoned and useless, it's unfathomable! I am well aware that a lot of people would argue that there are people far better worse off than me, and I agree, but for now it just does not work for me.
And the only people I do not want attention from are the ones sending me constant letters to wish me a happy birthday and get money off coupon if I spent such amount in their store !!!! Bloody hell !
I don't want anyone to wish me a happy birthday because to me this particular one is ABSOLUTELY NOT happy.
Sorry, this is a shitty post but I had to "spill" my gut so to speak because I feel so alone, abandoned, and even shat on ! I think I'd better stop here!
And the only people I do not want attention from are the ones sending me constant letters to wish me a happy birthday and get money off coupon if I spent such amount in their store !!!! Bloody hell !
I don't want anyone to wish me a happy birthday because to me this particular one is ABSOLUTELY NOT happy.
Sorry, this is a shitty post but I had to "spill" my gut so to speak because I feel so alone, abandoned, and even shat on ! I think I'd better stop here!
WIDGETIZE
French Sydneysider # 7. February 2009, 09:42
Je reviens de vacances et viens faire un tour sur ton blog, malheureusement annonceur de mauvaises nouvelles. J'espere que tu trouveras rapidement quelque chose et au moins Sacha a l'air de t'apporter un petit rayon de soleil. Je sais que je suis tres peu en contact avec toi mais cela ne veut pas dire que je ne pense pas a toi .. meme si c'est un bien mince reconfort pour toi.
J'espere que tu as pense a moi en mangeant cette douceur de chez Laduree!
Christel # 7. February 2009, 19:16
Je pense souvent à toi. Il faut dire que j'ai beaucoup de temps à présent ! Non je n'ai pas pensé à toi quand j'ai mangé mon Saint Honoré au Chocolat et Vanille de Madagascar mais je pense à toi à chaque fois que vois cette fameuse religieuse à la violette !
Je ne sais plus quoi faire de ma vie, et je songe très souvent à en finir...Pour tout te dire, j'ai envie de pleurer lorsque le matin je me réveille et réalise que je suis encore en vie ! Comme tu peux le voir, tout va bien.
Bon en tous les cas, j'espère que toi la vie te traite mieux que moi ! Au fait l'autre jour j'ai eu un entretien avec une certaine Lynda P. qui me demandait quand tu revenais car tu étais pour elle la perle rare !
kittennaomi # 11. February 2009, 10:49