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At The Fountains Of Sadness

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23:15 on a Tuesday and yet another existential crisis looms

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I haven't really done anything, and I don't know what to do, dust gathers around the apartment except where I sit in front of the computer.

I don't really like my job right now and the only reason I bother going is because I know it will eventually have to get better.

I wonder if making music is as cumbersome as it seems.

I bought gmod just now so I can pose boys kissing.

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Urgh I need to write a blogpost.

Tomorrow, no wait, actually on Saturday, I'm going home on vacation. According to Pope that is too often, but this is how it works to live in a socialist state. So I just wanted to put some words here on this page of mine, to give an illusion of life.

I've got two levels I've been working on, one is one I need to finish because I promised, but I think I made it kinda crap so I've been trying to rework it as good as possible. The other is some other dumb project I've started and restarted and restarted so many times and so long ago I keep losing track of what I meant to do with it.
Also I had this idea for doing a level like this:
You play through an empty landscape, then exit.
First repeat, the landscape is filled with ancient buildings.
Second repeat, the buildings are ruined, nature has reclaimed a lot of it.
Third repeat, modern structures fill out the ruins, push back nature again.
So the point is you play through the same yet different level from A to B four times. (Though not like that freakin insane speedmap some crazy insane dude (was it speedy?) made.)
Anyway my idea was to keep it small and simple and let the iterations add details. I haven't done anything with this but I would like to try. Mostly because I've got a hateboner for old stuff merging with new tech. BUT NOT STEAMPUNK! STEAMPUNK IS THE DUMBEST SHIT EVER! Like Metroid Prime instead.

This Opera Unite thing.
It's a feature of Opera that lets users host services on their personal computers that are accessible to the WAN through Opera's proxies. I took a look at the documentation, and the actual services are essentially web servers written in javascript with some magic host objects to handle connections and file IO.
I've got this idea (COPYWRITE DONT STEAL!!!!1) that you could make a turn based roguelike/diablo/D&D using this. The DM is the person hosting the Unite service, he's got access to some dungeon editing tools, and during the game he can use his 'Evil Points' to spawn monsters and generally make things miserable for the players. The players connect to the DM's service and can then be selected by the DM to join the game (otherwise they'll just spectate) where they'll get to select a class and maybe some stats. (All very simple though.).
I think this would be a fun project to work on, but I'm not sure what would be the best way to implement the actual interface.
Client/server interaction would be done via AJAX. Would it be best to implement the visuals in google.maps-like tiles/javascript or in flash? You can really do a lot with layering transparent PNGs using javascript these days.
This is another thing I'd like to do.

I need to learn how to use Maya. OK, I kinda know how to use Maya in the most basic way, but I need to get good at it. I've been running it for a bit at work and a warezed version at home, but I'm lacking motivation for it. Besides the whole job security bit.

I've been meaning to cock up a way to make Ogier able to make levels for Source engine games. Some things like displacements can't be supported of course and would ultimately have to be done in Hammer, but just being able to do basic editing in Ogier would really improve my morale for making a TF2 L4D level. (Which would then be another project to do I guess! SIGH!)
What it would be is some app that scans the Source game's files and extracts all the textures and entity definitions and converts them to Ogier format, and then another app for exporting xmp to vmf.
I'm not sure if all that hassle is worth it for just being able to make more levels I'll never finish though.

I bought an iPod (classic, 120 gigs, black). Woe unto me.

The weather is hot. Dreadfully hot. I hate it.

Ah yes, music.
Lately I've been again into italo disco, which owns. Then I got my hands on all of Thomas Bangalter's stuff, because I've been meaning to do that, and that owns too. Then for some reason I have been dismissing what Guy-Man had been doing on Crydamoure, which was dumb of me because all of that owns too! Entire fucking label owns! It's insane! (Something unrelated I found just now) Then I started listening to Phoenix which is mostly ok but they've got a few songs that totally own too. Also I got SND's Atavism, which owns. Can't find any actual tracks from the album on youtube though, but here's something else that totally fucking owns anyway. And I caught up with some older Fennesz albums now that they were up on bleep, which also (surprise!) own. Clark's got a new album out too but I haven't had a chance to listen properly yet.

Ok. That's it. Peace. Soldiers are cute.

Trip report: Knubben.

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Went home for easter. Spent most of the time with my family at my parent's place on Tustna, an island just a short ferry ride from where they live.
Was a bit stressful with my sisters' kids running about abusing me, but it was still nice to just be with other people for a change and to not have to cook your own food every day.

We did a lot of hiking about the island since it's a place with a really good mix of coastal, inland and alpine terrain. On the last day me and my sister (and my dad for a little while) went up to Knubben, and I made sure to take some photos. Go here to see, there's descriptions for all of them.

Anyway, now I'm back in Sweden. Not much has changed it appears.
While waiting in the airport I bought an issue of Wallpaper* magazine. Boy did I feel gay! I also wore my hueg! headphones in public while listening to italo disco from my ancient mp3 player.

My computer's powersupply had died from some reason while I was away, so that was some cause for panic when it threw sparks as I tried to boot it up when I got home. Thankfully none of the drives were damaged.
It always feels a bit weird to either go away from or come back to the internet. It moves so fast that you feel if you miss just a few hours of it you'll have no chance of catching up. The first couple of days I lie in bed thinking 'God! What if someone just posted the perfect burn right now and I wasn't there to see it?' I've been going through ~2000 posts in the LF editorial comic thread on SA. Every page of that fucking thread fills me with incredible rage. I'm raging so fucking hard right now! So hard!

The World Ends With you is kinda cool but the combat is toooooo complex for my feeble mind, and I have to coordinate fashion at the same time? At least it gives you XP for not playing it, I should just leave it and turn it on every seven days to see if anything magical happens.
Also been playing L-o-Zelda: Phantom Hourglass, which marks the first Zelda game I've ever played that I didn't fucking hate with all my might. The controls are great for once, and there's no stupid three hour tutorial. The boating kinda sucks because it's so pointless, and that one dungeon you have to do again and again and again and again is fucking terrible, but otherwise it's pretty fun.
Riddick's been out for about a week now. Haven't been paying too much attention to how it did, but I think it's weird I haven't seen more rage about the god damn spider turrets. Fuck the fucking spider turrets.

TODO:
Go through and sort those photos.
Write this blogpost.
Go through those CDs I need to re-rip before they go into archive.
Go to IKEA to buy some sort of dining table.
Go to IKEA to buy some sort of CD storage thing that is hopefully not fuck ugly.
I need something to decorate a certain wall that is really empty.
There was something else I was going to get at IKEA but I forgot it right now.
Clean my bathroom. (UGH)
I saw the illest dustbunny under my bed when I was plugging in my cell charger. Maybe do something about it?
Buy a new HDTV. I'm leaning towards a Sony Bravia, but not sure.
Get rid of my old TV and the other electronic crap I've got in the basement.
• (EVENTUALLY) Buy some sort of surround setup I can also hook my computer up to.
• Look through those programming projects I've got going and see if any of them are worth tinkering with.
• How hard can it really be to procedurally generate some terrain that is not just rolling hills?
• Try to work a bit on my map (honey/saint).
• See if I can lure some poor soul into making me an animated model for that boss monster I've been thinking of.
Have a poo. (I'll have to up the prio on this I think!)
• Notify Opera that their choice of CSS styles for lists clashes with images floated left.
Go to bed.
• Get some fucking exercise.
• Discover true love.

I did not make this TF2 thing on the left this time either. I sure think it's cute though! Poor little chibi-heavy...

Some post. Some title. Whatevs.

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Ok, I'm going home for easter for some days which will be nice I think.

A bit dumb to be away from the internet the week that Riddick ships, but I can probably survive.

I've been working on a new map to replace honey, been writing some qc for it, would like to add a new monster but I'm not any good at animating mdls. I've got a plan on paper though and I'm like 20% done maybe?

I also have been pulling out some of my old Java projects again since I've got an idea for a game in there that I've been tinkering with for some years now but never made any headway with. Now I realize why you should write actual informative comments and not stuff like
//U KNOW WAT THIS MEANS!!
because no, I don't know what that means. I've been trying to re-read and get a grip on what is going on but I'll probably get bored again.

I reinstalled Diablo (1) again and have been playing for a while. The first 8 levels are pretty fun and atmospheric, then it starts wearing thin in the caverns, and hell is boring.

Also started replaying HL2. The first day, city 17, the canals, the industrial suburbia, is pretty much the most gorgeous environment I know of in any game. It is just such a perfect mix of urban decay and sci-fi.
At work we're doing some realistic environments at the moment, and we've been trying to figure out how the fuck Valve pull off just making a square room out of six brushes, putting some texture on the walls and maybe a prop chair in a corner, and it looks totally convincing and real. How the fuck Valve? How?

I wanted to get some new DS games for when I go home now, and I wanted Rittai Picross but that's not available here, so I got The World Ends With You instead. I have no fucking clue why, I don't even like RPGs. This will be the worst game I ever play I'm sure. God I feel dumb!

I need to shave but fuck it I'm going to bed.

EDIT: Had to add a pic, this was too boring otherwise. Edit edit: No I did not draw it.

Låünchßöcks

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Bleh, for some reason I wrote a little Java thing to launch Quake with some settings and crap.
I probably won't use it myself even. What a waste of an evening, I even forgot to make dinner.
I suppose it's full of bugs, but it's ok for 4 hours work. Source included in the jar.

TODO: Might not work in linux lol
TODO: Have it pick out +map and -game from the command line and put in own boxes
TODO: Have it list out maps?
TODO: Have it only list mod dirs with content in them
TODO: Make the dropdown lists have prettier strings
TODO: Make the GUI prettier in general


I'll try to write something more interesting later this week before I go home for easter.

Happy New Year you Worthless Swine.

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I don't have much to add besides that.

Christmas food is generally the nastiest food I eat all year. Norwegian christmas food traditions were established in a time when Norway was a poor country and fatty foods were considered a luxury. So yay for dessicated meats in fat and fat with salt and more fat and bones covered in fat. This is funny to me because I am myself a fatty pork who must buy tickets for two seats on the plane.

Three weeks is waaaay too long to be on vacation at your family, really missing work now.

Plzx post recommendations for good mp3 players with >50Gb space that are not ipods.

It's party time!

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Actually it's christmas time, and I'm gone!
See y'all in the new year, fatties!