阳光的彼岸

Next year, in the winter semester, if I have still not finished my degree, I have to pay 1500 euro for my study. I can not bear this awful situation any more. I do not know how to deal with this situation, what I have to do is just to finish it early. I am scared this time, I confess. I wish I could have this success and go back to my home before that disaster day.