My Opera....
Friday, August 4, 2006 12:19:56 AM
Morning , Germany, in a small town, a student dormitory, alone, listening to enya's new age, wondering what to do.
Got tired of posting new for pcpchina somehow, too little editor for such a large site, no working-time-plan guaranty, which leads to loss of my time.
Posting news becomes one large part of my daily life. I am always wondering where those editors are. When I need them, they are always not there. Compared to the other news-specified sites, we post a little bit more software update news, which are not frequently used by our readers, but due to the disadvantage of the score system, in order to earn point for each news, we have to do so. And too little people send their delivery to us. Each day, the large part of news delivery is the spam, from the fixed ip address, which I have adviced to block.
Although it is so late in the night, I cannot stop thinking, thinking about my baobao, especially under the atmosphere of enya's music. Early before we had shared those songs in a small room. When I refer to the current standard, I cannot tell whether we were happy, lucky or not, but ever before, I kept thinking we had had such a happy long time. Time is always too short for us, the life is also too short. During experiencing, every minute seems so long, but when we look back into our memory, any period becomes so tiny.
How can I use up my life with no regret ? Recently, I always ask myself this question. Warum bin ich hier und wie kann ich mein Leben erweitern ? I need someone to help me out of this mess. I really have no idea, this time, who would be my god? Or there were never be such one, and I must get it through by myself this time? I felt myself really exhausted, donot want to think, refuse to eat, reject to sleeping, what else? I missed my home, my parents so badly! Too long aways from my home, to me, it is already 5 years, and I cannot wait any more to go back, because my home, my root is always there, only at home, I can be comfortable and not nervous, I can calm myself down, make wise decision, but here, alone without any help, I cannot tell how hard I extend each step on my way.
If I can make a wish under all stars above my head, then I wish all those 5 years I have experienced, is just a nightmare, and I can wake up myself in the near future, I can pretend to experience nothing in the past 5 years, erase all the memory in this period, all I want is to give this away. God bless me!
Got tired of posting new for pcpchina somehow, too little editor for such a large site, no working-time-plan guaranty, which leads to loss of my time.
Posting news becomes one large part of my daily life. I am always wondering where those editors are. When I need them, they are always not there. Compared to the other news-specified sites, we post a little bit more software update news, which are not frequently used by our readers, but due to the disadvantage of the score system, in order to earn point for each news, we have to do so. And too little people send their delivery to us. Each day, the large part of news delivery is the spam, from the fixed ip address, which I have adviced to block.
Although it is so late in the night, I cannot stop thinking, thinking about my baobao, especially under the atmosphere of enya's music. Early before we had shared those songs in a small room. When I refer to the current standard, I cannot tell whether we were happy, lucky or not, but ever before, I kept thinking we had had such a happy long time. Time is always too short for us, the life is also too short. During experiencing, every minute seems so long, but when we look back into our memory, any period becomes so tiny.
How can I use up my life with no regret ? Recently, I always ask myself this question. Warum bin ich hier und wie kann ich mein Leben erweitern ? I need someone to help me out of this mess. I really have no idea, this time, who would be my god? Or there were never be such one, and I must get it through by myself this time? I felt myself really exhausted, donot want to think, refuse to eat, reject to sleeping, what else? I missed my home, my parents so badly! Too long aways from my home, to me, it is already 5 years, and I cannot wait any more to go back, because my home, my root is always there, only at home, I can be comfortable and not nervous, I can calm myself down, make wise decision, but here, alone without any help, I cannot tell how hard I extend each step on my way.
If I can make a wish under all stars above my head, then I wish all those 5 years I have experienced, is just a nightmare, and I can wake up myself in the near future, I can pretend to experience nothing in the past 5 years, erase all the memory in this period, all I want is to give this away. God bless me!
