{ proof.nature.nux }

she, the one-who-name-must-not-be-spoken..
intruded my life..

can't you just leave me here freely?
as i want to have my life back..
and not the life you taken from me,

she, person-can't-be-named..
get off from me..
let me go!

as, i like the other she..
she, whose smiles makes my life bright..
makes my life meaningful,
makes my life peace,
and..
she shows me that..
i just love to "like those with smiles"..

and so..
i found myself..
a person who can't love others..
but, love their smiles..

1. i Have several nicknames : cola, salaam, abdus, syaahid and nuX. cola was given by my Senior when i was form 1 because i used to buy a lot of Cola Candy.. huhu . Salaam, was my most nickname, given by family and widely used to distinguish me from others . hehe. Next, abdus.. hmm .. only several people call me using this nick, as i did introduced myself using this nick . Hmm.. syaahid? so far, i only allowed the use of this nick to my special people . And, lastly, nuX.. it was a nickname, created by me , as a internet nick.. it was derived from Linux.. as i am very fanatic to Linux.. hehe.. and not to forget, BOY. hehe.. it was invented specially for my KAKAKs at Curtin. huhuhu.
   
   
2. i don't have a lot of friends . not as much as others do . it just not my nature to be friend with everyone i met, even he or she is my classmate. usually my friend will be a person who is a friend of my friend .. or we have the same interest. usually, when i feel disturbed, or unable to manage that relationship, i will tend to keep myself away from that person , so that he / she will not fell close to me . Because, im used to forget them when i do my works . so, just to make sure not to feel guilty, or my friend felt left behind, this technique will do the rest. When you are not close to that person, you will contact them seldomly.. Thus, no one will fell left behind or cheated . Sorry, if my way of making friend is weird compare to others. It is just me .
   
   
3. Close to girls compared to guys That was what i am, until i enrolled into Curtin. Right now, im trying my best to spend my time with the guys.. like, playing DotA:knight: .. or going outing with them.. having dinner with them.. and lots more.. But, not to forget, im still close with the girls . It seems to be an advantage to me, as i can have two differs opinions at one time. hehe.
   
   
4. a computer geek . huhu.. most people who knows me, did realise about this habits in me. YUPS. im a computer geek + apple fanatic. I just can't bare to be left behind in this matter. hehe. I think, it is all started wayback when i was in primary school . My mom had i Windows 95 computer, and it loaded with Print Artist - Sierra. One of her worker teach me how to create a birthday cards using templates given. Then, i started to explore all those things. Next, when my mom continue her studies, she bought a new computer (intel celeron bla bla bla).. and she gave the Win 95 PC to we.. bundled with the dot-matrix printer.. haha .. but, one day, the computer just died. waa! However, at the end of 2000, after my UPSR examination, i was hired by my mom to convert her scratches of pre-school's books to Win Word 2000. HUA! and at that time i was only 12 years old. i was kindda hard as there were a lots of books had to be done . From this moment, it seems that it was my destany to become a computer geek . hehe
   
   
5. i like to create my own poems. hehe. you can find some is this blog. it just one of my way to express my feelings. hehe.
   
   
6. i have multiple personalities. you just have to bare with me .. if i was an A person on Tuesday, i might become B or C for Wednesday . Its kindda fun with these stuff. You can adept yourself where ever you're and be able to join any groups you wanted. I put this "Multiple Personalities Thingy" as my advantage . Sometimes, it is also a results of my feelings or health condition. I can become very serious , very kind , emotional , tak-kisah-pape-pun (wut-eva) , or very sensitive . hehe
   
   
7. and, to those who never met me, i am not tall. not that skinny. does not have permenant hair style (it is depends on how my hair is). not that dark, but not as white as Mat Salleh. I got 9 siblings: 2 girls and 7 boys. i was in kelantan- pasir puteh for TEN (10) years, but can't speak fluent kelantan-slang. i was a SDARian, and currently in Curtin University of Technology, Miri Campus, Sarawak. Im doing geology as my degree.
   

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