My Lifelines!!

Starting a new relationship with someone dan having somefun together adalah hal yg indah, and it can't be replaced by anything. Cuman yg masih mengganjal adalah is the l.o.v.e that we built is really2 love or its just the devils desire (a passion that flashed for a while to satisfied the devils needs!)

ya..ya..ya klo menurut dni jujur sih, cinta emang gak pernah lepas sama namanya nafsu! dan kadang kita dibutakan oleh hal itu, endingnya biasanya bikin kita drove away too fast, and then slipped away yg akhirnya bikin our ride ended in the end of cliff, nowhere place to go!

Masih bingung jga kapan akhirin my journey neh. heheh i'm tired..tired!
ayooo come'on lanjut lagi bacanya, masih panjang and banyak tuh! wheheh
ayoo lets go kita kemon!

l.o.v.e emang ga pernah bisa lepas dari namanya passion. ok! to be honest with me, pengen ga feel the passion yg bener2 pure passion, feels safe and sounds for your life?(gileee safe and sound, romantis bener! coldplay kali) I think you all are really wanted & can't resist with that huh! heheh . Yg pasti nyaman bgt klo pun akhirnya it's came true. bener ga cuy! whihihi , cuz mo ngapain2 juga tersrah, no! feel guilty, nothing to worry about anything! ga perlu hide & seek lg takut dgerebeg. Krn klo udah *teng-nong-neng-gung* itu kan udah ibadah namanya juga, so from now on STOP and don't u ever writing sin or tragedies again, lets make memories for our next life in heaven to remember! agree? heheh .

hey, i don't know when i'm gonna die, and i dunno till when i'm gonna alive? i'm scared too death guys! this is what are my heart screamed out. don't be scared to my words, they all just words, a words that came out from my f*cki'n stupid mouth and dorky brain. okey, tancap terus bacanya, skilas intro brusan!

The world is coming near to an end. I want to prepared it with very well. I don't wanna life like this anymore. Cukup sudah! it has to be stopped before everything messed up and ruins all my life!

feel'so comfort in everything aspect and having my own world is my biggest desired. That is what i've been dreaming about recently, masih muter2 tuh kepikiran dikpala *still spinning around in my head* (klo dikartun kaya ada anak ayam tuh dikepala lagi keliling2! sambil teriak 'Es..es..es nya bu!' waduw *mode puyeng ga ngerti on!*). The point is, I wanna hold the world, not being slaved by the world and ended in a burial hall without bought anything.

ok, back to threads..
Sapa yg ga pengen moment seperti itu! having the world on your own, i means punya segala!

Ga ada yg sempurna di dunia ini, yg ada hanya manusia yg bikin semua keliatan sempurna

Someone pernah told me like that. And it's true! i feel it. Klo inget2 sempurna jd inget lagu Andra dan tulang taleng neh whehe . backbone maksudnya. klo di dunia ini, dgn kehadiran seseorang bikin hidup jd tambah sempurna, lantas yg dicari di dunia apa lagi dunk? wah bingung. Klo gitu misi nya udah berhasil donk. Ah ga seru! PAYAH..PAYAH!

For me, Hidup bukanlah mencari pasangan hidup who kind'a like that, Bukan mencari pasangan yg bikin hidup qta be-MORE PERFECTLY IN EVERYTHING tapi i'm looking for a mate that can make my day and my life MORE BEAUTIFULL IN ANYTHING IN THIS WORLD THAT COULDN'T IMAGINE!. How wonder what will she gonna be look like?! humm yeah i'm still confused too! That is what i wanted for life.

gave her a shoulder to cry on, gave her a place for our laughing the moment remembering the past, t4buat ktawa ktwi, dan yg pasti being a leader for family and prove something, I mean really2 prove something, make someone proud of me for my existance, that i can STAND with MY OWN bared FEET!

humm, pasti susah tuh! I TRIED...


Contoh kongkrit banyak lah, start from little things dulu. pay attention ke hal yg kecil biasanya jd tolak ukur sih, is she/he worth it enough or not? wheheh

my sign is gemini (kata buku primbon 'Org gemini tuh klo ngerjain sesuatu kaga pernah tuntas!') bener juga sih. Tapi Hahah i'm laughing the book, magazine or people who wrote that. Is it? FOR ME, HELL NO!
For some people maybe bener juga, org gemini cenderung pemalasan, ogah2an, lots of my friends dkampuy kaya gitu seh ato mungkin kebeneran kali yah. Beuh personally i can't be buyed so easy like that! there was a time when i'm feel like that too, but thanks god, longtime ago someone special has raised me up to keep up the good life! thanks.

Nowadays, perhatiin gak blakangan bnyk bgt yg berbau mystical myth gitu di tepe beuh Apalagi tuh yg skrg makin sinting dan gilenya dunia, tepe2 swasta ada acara reg-reg-spasi-manjur-spasi-ki-joko-pinter, beuh msh ada aja org percaya sama hal2 penanggalan hari sistem kalender kuno;
Kamis LEGIT,
trus Senin PAHIT,
Selasa RUJIT,
nah loh kalo Rabu KOIT kali ya. weuh

HARI GENE! OH GOD, KILLED ALL THAT SH&T PLEASED! KILLED 'EM ALL.

WHY SOME PEOPLE STILL BELIEVE IN MYTH?
THEY ALL JUST MYTH! KARANGAN MANUSIA!
WHY SOME PEOPLE ARE MORE SCARED TO MYTH (CREATED BY THE HUMAN) RATHER THAN
SCARED TO GOD (WHO CREATE THE HUMAN FOR LIVING IN THIS WORLD NOT TO DESTROYED SOMETHING OR SOMEONE)
WHY...? WHY...?

back to threads again...

Personally i'm too scared to start, too lame to begin another relationship with someone anymore, bukan trauma loh. Haha masa trauma, gileee hari gene bow! cuman I feel a littl bit tired doang!. I dunno! takut caught off guard lagi, trapped in the same corner. I've wasted my 4years with someone in here and now it's prove something that longterm relationship won't guaranted anything that it will go further! sad but it's true.

i wanna rest and leanback for a while, i've sick with this world, a world that full by bunch of f*ckin'loser & clown, a bunch of f&ckin' liers like me. I'm still thinking and trying though, How can i make it right?

Right now i'm trying to build up and collect all the pieces of my broken hope again! one by one, pieces by pieces! I'm tired to start all over again with a newone, but this is the risk which i have to take. btw, being alone not bad at all!

humm' i will focussing on my study and my artWORK first , and then get a new life and hopely can find a wife. TIME IS RUNNING OUT MY FRIENDS!

Dear God, let me finished what i've been planned and dreaming for, please!

99% I'M STILL ALIVE! , but my heart are so cold right now!


The questions:
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*1st* Can you tell me when we start or having relation mo skrg ato ntar, how to know the differences, is the kind of relationship that we built is it trully really2 love or it just a need utk menuhin hawa nafsu belaka?
*2nd* Ada yg pernah ngelanggar myth gak? Kalo ada, what myths yg kalian jebred! whehehe
*3rd* Gimana rasanya really2 FREE-DOM? heheh maksudnya Free-Domisili, klo pribadi sih enak, cman kdang miss parental advisory juga (wadew kaya pelem aja) ada yg pernah ke negeri antah berantah dan learning how to survived ALONE!. Tell me? how it's feel. Shared it with me! Klopun udah ada yg nikah dan learning how to survived bedua, tell me juga dunk! wkekek
What is the harddest part after that?

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Nahloh udah selese neh bacanya, ayooo put some kemong dibawah!

To be continued...
Greetings .:LOSERKIDZ:. --BORN2LOSE, BUT I NEVER LOSE!--