Friday, 10. July 2009, 00:56:54
My Problematic Existence
the journey never cease
the mind creates what he sees
insane living of what he believes
troubled as what it may seem
endangered in the world he hold in his palm
he hides in the highest plateau of his imaginative mind
his eyes circling the horizons he dream to fly
an eternity he hope to find
a freefall he is waiting for
when his heart is uplifted of the burdens he carries along
he sets foot on a strange abyss
the world is complex as his mind can be
can this be reality
he hunts for the light, the life
he is a captive of his own ingenuity
hunted by his memories
sorrow, depression
could this be really me
daneru ©
Thursday, 9. July 2009, 23:13:20
The Joy of Letting Go, A Better Future Awaits
twenty-five fils’ (1.75 php) burning in my finger tips. i am in euphoria. my mind is wandering in clouds of smoke. i had to make a tough decision… i can't take it anymore. it's finally over.
it's been four years or so, but i have to let go of you. another year has ended and i wouldn't want you to stay in my life. you've been with me through dark phases of my existence. i shared with you the joys of my reality. but i can't take it anymore. everyday and every night, all through the time you have given me much pleasure. i can't start my day without you, i can't even sleep without you touching my lips. when i am with you… i am in nirvana, feeling so light and giving me the courage to face my fears and doubts. i am thankful though but i have to set you free… out of my life. it's like i can't breathe this past days with you. my heart is in deep pain everytime my hands are grasp with you. i know, in a way you shed light in my darkness and yet i can live better-off now without you. i will still see you everyday, everywhere i go. in time i will definitely won't think of you anymore. you made me do a lot of things i never thought i could make. but now, i have faith in myself… i know i can. thank you. my head is spinning now… this is the last time i will get hold of you. i couldn't say i love you… but i was addicted to you. you are now a burden to me. i cast you out. never again. i am letting go. farewell, my marlboro.
Wednesday, 8. July 2009, 22:49:35
A Family's Broken Reality, My Problematic Existence
this is me. born in a world of conflict. grew up in a family where everyone has their own secrets to hide. mysterious acts, lustful thoughts, dangerous minds. a family, as what they call. and yet never been whole. all are broken in the desire for lust, money and superiority. this is my family. from the great great ancestors of my blood, this is where i came from. they are perfect in God's image and yet failed in the task given to them. now, am i going to be the same?
Wednesday, 8. July 2009, 04:50:22
Thoughts of a Lost Soul
in the past three weeks i decided to escape my reality... i don't like what's been happening around me. i am on a journey of rebuilding what has been taken for granted.
insanity is not the absence of the soundness of mind, i believe that this is where i am going to be. doing what others fear... in this course i will be me.i lost control of myself for the last decade of breathing... i want my own identity.
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