Welcome to my personal hell
Monday, 13. April 2009, 19:48:50
Right now I'm dealing with a dillemna, I'm on doctors orders not to work, I'm really in very little condition to be working, but the simple fact is I cannot afford NOT to work, even with the disability I'm collecting.
I'm trying to restrict myself to one contract at a time, putting all of my personal projects on the back burner (which is why the launch of EWIUSB.COM keeps slipping) ... But even just one contract that I quoted twice the time it SHOULD take me to do has slipped past it's schedule and is starting to feel like I'll never get it done. The project in this case should have taken me 30 hours of work TOPS, here I am two weeks later and I'm MAYBE a third of the way through.
I dunno... used to be when I felt like this I could take a quick nap, wake up refreshed and bang out code for eight hours. Now I take a nap, wake up feeling worse than I did when I turned in with a headache that feels like an ice-pick jabbed into my left eye-socket, and stare at the display like a zombie.
... sad part is I've also started a new side project that is VERY important, because I am documenting my own process of building a website from start to end, partly for other people, but also partly for myself. I'm having massive memory loss issues and I'm trying to get it all down on paper so I have something to follow since I appear to at least be able to still follow instructions... and even that's starting to slip.
I'm trying to restrict myself to one contract at a time, putting all of my personal projects on the back burner (which is why the launch of EWIUSB.COM keeps slipping) ... But even just one contract that I quoted twice the time it SHOULD take me to do has slipped past it's schedule and is starting to feel like I'll never get it done. The project in this case should have taken me 30 hours of work TOPS, here I am two weeks later and I'm MAYBE a third of the way through.
I dunno... used to be when I felt like this I could take a quick nap, wake up refreshed and bang out code for eight hours. Now I take a nap, wake up feeling worse than I did when I turned in with a headache that feels like an ice-pick jabbed into my left eye-socket, and stare at the display like a zombie.
... sad part is I've also started a new side project that is VERY important, because I am documenting my own process of building a website from start to end, partly for other people, but also partly for myself. I'm having massive memory loss issues and I'm trying to get it all down on paper so I have something to follow since I appear to at least be able to still follow instructions... and even that's starting to slip.
WIDGETIZE