Wednesday, December 10, 2008 11:19:10 PM
my prayer and christmas wish
is for all whom has life and hopes and dreams
to have all they ask for and even more than it seems
not to give up hope for a new day
not to give up laughter and joy to play..
reach out to those in need..
we all have something to give indeed..
it may not be money or material things
but a smile or a hug can bring ones heart to sing..
and if you have less or more
if need be make it into a chore
because it will be you in the end
that recieves the most precious gift
the gift of a friend
Wednesday, December 10, 2008 11:04:54 PM
when i walk by
you will always see me smile
but in my eyes
there is a secreat that lies
the key to my soul
that is where i must hold
it can never be told..
forgive me i cannot bear..
to allow my mind to share
what my soul holds so deep
so painful my heart cannot even keep
my heart did try..
but failed the first time i cried
and fell to my knees..
thats where it must be..
so in my eyes dont look too deep
or i will blink to preserve the rest of me..
and through your eyes i must do what i was put here to do..
always be here for you
ill be fine as long as i have you
Wednesday, December 10, 2008 10:57:58 PM
because of my thoughts on my mommy eve, that made me open a side of me that has been closed until my mommy let me love with the purest love there is, i want to share with her and everyone else whom is willing to read some of my old poems that i had posted a long time ago in a response to maree longs blog so if they dont make sesne please go to her blog and visit. but i hope someone gets something out of them and know this that no matter how you may seem at one point in your life with love all things are whole again and healed..
when it feels as if you have fallen so far down..
and you look around..nothing noone is there
you think could anyone care?
it is yourself that is keeping you from seeing
it is yourself that is killing your well being
it is you that chokes the very life from your grasp
it is you that refuses to ask..
how do i know?
i died many years ago..
i allowed my eyes to cover my soul
dam those that left me here how could they be so cold..
they will never see a tear!
they will never see my heart lying here..
ill make sure they never know what they have done to me..
never knowing they killed whom i was meant to be...
ill be strong ill show them all!
look the same ..play the game..
they wont get me!
yeah they wont get me..cuz i got to me..
destiny...2003
Saturday, December 6, 2008 9:04:05 AM
umm i had someone whom im sure is a very nice person to use my name in the same sentence as being selfish? and i accept that because though personally im not selfish i do live in a selfish country, where money seems to be the value of life and luxury is the mainstream of living..
because i live in america i do have things that others not as fortunate dont have but who i am who i was raised to be has taught me no matter where you are doesnt have to define who you are..
if i told how i have done things that are selfless my whole life for others who needed worse than me..it would be selfish because i would be mentioning something that isnt mine to take? what do i mean by that? when you give you never mention it again ...it was a gift from your heart and you dont let the mind use it to get some thing in return? or it wasnt a gift at all it was a benifit for you to be noticed and yes thats selfish.
i think maybe my blog has came off the wrong way? my purpose of saying im here just means that if i say that..im ready to here how you are with no complaints from me .. i have time to hear what it is you would like to tell me? and if its funny that you feel the same as me and say your right im just here? then you have experienced many conversations where you felt uneasy about the way they ended? someone can tell me whatever they are feeling or if they choose to lie and say im fine but there really not then they have had the floor to say whats on thir mind? i have gave them the opportunity to choose how they would like to answer how they are doing?
thats my only reason for saying.. im here..it is said with no lie or selfishness of telling you first how i am? because you were kind enough to ask first i am kind enough to hear you last? i hope that makes sense? and do know that im a good listener and i will help in any way i can if you choose to use my shoulder to lean on:)
everyone has a right to an opinion but the only thing i ask is judge me for me and i will never judge you:)
Monday, February 25, 2008 10:05:58 PM
when some one asks...How are you? i always say.....Im here how about you? and over the last few years i for the first time since i had started replying with my truth have heard so many say that now, funny really because that response has always been everyones truth...they just never said so:) is it because we were always taught to be polite and say oh.. im fine how are you? but you werent really.. fine?
or is it you say how terrible your feeling and yet you felt no better after telling so? so the logical answer is to say im here...see that way your mind isnt already busy with what you were really thinking and your ears are ready willing and waiting to hear their response....weither its good or not! ive notice since i have replied with my truth of being there.. people have kind laughed and said your right! i am here and thats all i gotta or should say! it feels a whole lot better than what i want or did say! and it is..quick and right to the point and your not lieing so yes i am here...thank you how are you?
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