Writing history

It's only 365 days. 52 Weeks. 12 Months. It sounds like it is nothing and it also feels like it was over in just a sigh. But looking back I realise how much can happen in the life of just one person in so little time. And I know, I do say that every year and every year I just hope the next one will be better. Like I did last year. I hoped 2006 would be a fantastic year, but I knew from the very first second that I would lose somebody who I loved so much... She died in April, after knowing for 8 months it was cancer that had been causing the pain in her back for years. She was only 75 and one day, when she requested the euthanasia. What more can I say than that it is so weird... Knowing on Friday that your grandmother will die the next tuesday, around 8 P.M.
I don't know what is better... Knowing somebody will pass away, so that you have the time and opportunity to say goodbye, or somebody passing away unexpectedly like her brother did, after just 4 days of 2006. How weird was that... We all expected she would be the first to be guided to her final resting-place...

So, like I said, I knew I was going to lose her in 2006 from the very first second of that brand new year and I was convinced it would be the only really tough time. Unfortunately it was not. I already mentioned her brother, but both of them were in their seventies. Not that it isn't bad because of that, of course not. But when we got the news in september that Ian's brother in law passed away, only 35 years old and leaving two children in the age of 1 and 4... That was almost unbelievable...

As rough as these times were, as high were the peaks of 2006. My guy asked me to marry him, and so we did in November. Something I would not have believed when you would have told me on this day last year. The other very very very high peak was when we got two little stripes on a pregnancy test. I just can't describe the feelings when we saw that! I thought for months that our marriage would be the highlight of the year, but this one came really close. We weren't trying, I was taking the pill and we agreed that I would stop taking it after we had said 'I do'. We could not have been more surprised that Friday morning in September... And right away we were so happy about it!

Since the last years turned out to be so very different of what I had thought of them, I stopped making new year's resolutions. For 2007 I have just one: give birth. Apart from that I will just wait and see what 2007 will bring us and what I'll have to say about it this day next year.