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Black Widow

Wednesday, 25. June 2008, 16:10:58

My life was fine until you walked in the door.
Now I`m tangled up in your web of silk.
I can feel myself hypnotized as you approach me.
The closer you come the more I`m paralized.

You`ve got me turning, yeah I`m going round and round. I`m doing circles which way do I go? I`m spinning like a car out of control, my heart is aching which way do I go?

I`m intoxicated by your charm and drowing in desire. I`m a weak and willing victim caught in your web; paralized but excited I want to overdose on your love, So inject me with your poison black widow.

My life was fine until you walked in the door, you hold the key that has opened up my heart.
I`m scared to death as I hang here in your web.
Now I can`t get you, no I can`t get you out of my head.

The smell of your perfume fills the night air. Your mysterious beauty has captured another fool. I want to feel the heat of your passion, I want to overdose on your love, so inject me with your poison black widow.

You`ve got me turning, yeah I`m going round and round. I`m doing circles which way do I go. I`m spinning like a car that's out of control, my heart is aching which way do I go? (written by Jaxs, copyright 1994)

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Comments

Kimberly 29. August 2009, 21:49

cool

Jaxs 29. August 2009, 22:45

I have to remember how to play it. When I remember a couple of chords I will play it for you :up:

Kimberly 30. August 2009, 15:43

kk

Jaxs 30. August 2009, 16:06

No camera's allowed. :D

Kimberly 30. August 2009, 23:31

yes they are

Jaxs 30. August 2009, 23:50

NOPE....LOL

Kimberly 31. August 2009, 02:10

YES

Christy 5. September 2009, 03:11

This is great. :yes:

Jaxs 5. September 2009, 04:04

Glad you like it :yes:

Encee 5. September 2009, 22:54

Walk a million miles is fine, but I'd rather ride a Harley! Have you used the "Black Widow" song on stage?
Also my Bantar is named "Black Widow"! I am going to change the frets to allow better finger moves, and hope to play it with some guitarist accompanying me on a song like yours.
Just hoping out loud!
Good song!
Encee

Jaxs 5. September 2009, 23:27

Yes I have played it on a stage before 5000 + people.
I would love it if you joined in with your bantar :hat:

Encee 6. September 2009, 00:58

It is a future plan, and I love it when a plan comes together!
I have played my Bantar only twice in front of an audience since I built it. Maybe, I need more practice?
Hehehe!

Jaxs 6. September 2009, 01:07

A few cold ones and nobody will care :cheers: :cheers: :cheers:

Mina 11. September 2009, 02:32

:o: I imagine this is really very self explanatory...

I know this feeling rather well...

Jaxs 11. September 2009, 03:18

I thought you would relate to this one. :up:

Mina 11. September 2009, 04:40

:yes:

*hums and daydreams a bit*

Jaxs 11. September 2009, 05:50

Always the dreamer. :D

Without out dreams there is no hope.
Without hope there is no faith.
without faith there is no imagination.

All of them are connected. :up:

Mina 11. September 2009, 16:04

Ahhhh

Lovely quote.

And perhaps a song idea.

Jaxs 11. September 2009, 16:10

Very possible :D

I see your wheels are always turning like mine :up:

Mina 11. September 2009, 17:03

:yes: always always.

Wish I could shut it off sometimes. P:

Jaxs 11. September 2009, 17:13

When you find out how just let me know :lol:

Mina 11. September 2009, 20:52

:lol:

:rolleyes: it'll "shut off" when I die...

Jaxs 11. September 2009, 21:14

what if we don't shut off.
Have you ever seen the movie "Powder" ?

Mina 12. September 2009, 00:03

I have. :eyes:

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 00:53

Did your wheels keep moving ? :lol:

Mina 12. September 2009, 02:25

Of course. :faint:

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 02:55

For Christmas I will consider getting you your own little wheel. Like those hampsters I see. That should do it :lol:

Mina 12. September 2009, 03:40

I'm beginning to wonder if there is something is wrong with me.. :left:

:lol:

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 04:09

Nothing wrong with you. Since Kim has been gone I'm back into old habits. I'm up 22 hrs a day with a short nap :eyes:

I need a wheel too :lol: :lol: :lol:

Mina 12. September 2009, 04:41

I'm not quite there I think about little things to a large degree sometimes. Keep turning it over and over.

Hang in there Jax. You'll be going to get her with anticipation. I know it feels forever.

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 05:09

We do the same thing. I can turn stuff over and over in my mind for days. I'm relentless until I have an answer.

When something is buggig me I'm just not happy until I have an answer. A direction to go in. A solution.

You are the same way. You can juggle all of that and wear a mask for other's.

Kim told me when she gets home I wasn't going to get away with that shit :lol:

Mina 12. September 2009, 19:54

Good. :smile: That's good to be with someone that can tell you (when you need to), that you need to quit it already!

I have a big personality. Doesn't happen too often that people will have the guts to tell me stuff like that.

The ones who do, use it rarely (thankfully), and I always know they really respect me and care.

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 21:22

Me too. Thank goodness for the rare times I'm told that and it always comes from someone I'm close too in a relationship or friendship.

Only those that really care and are close to my heart will say something like that to me.

That's a good feeling. :D

Mina 12. September 2009, 23:48

*smiles* Yes, I'm glad you understand.

I've been told I intimidate people at first, but then they can't help but to be charmed by me. :left: Er, most people anyhow....

Weird combination, eh?

Jaxs 12. September 2009, 23:55

I don't find you intimidating.
Of course I'm not the average bear either. :lol:

You do have charm and wit. :smile:
I would say you are skilled at your craft. Comfortable with who you are and noy ashamed to say it.

No need for apologies :up:

I don't mind a challenge of wits :lol: :lol:

Mina 13. September 2009, 00:36

*lafs* I'm pretty straight forward , a rare thing in this world.

Ah, yes, I quite enjoy chatting with you. Sometimes what you say is so profound I haven't a good reply. :happy:

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 00:55

Kim says to pm her so she knows who are.

I enjoy chatting with you too. :D

Mina 13. September 2009, 01:22

Okay will do. :D

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 02:58

Still trying found out what makes me tick. You have your work cut out for you. :D

Mina 13. September 2009, 03:10

Nah, I'm working on it is all.

You tend to be factual over emotional and don't go into feelings much. Least not here. Tho sometimes I catch me a glimpse.... But it's more rare than I expected.

Of course, knowing you isn't a game. I'm willing to be patient and learn about you as we go along. :smile:

And you have THE BEST of intentions... So I can always see it color all you do...

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 03:29

You are perceptive and observant.

Yes I always try to have the best of intentions.

No I don't show my emotions openly.

Kim has figured out that I may not show how I feel but it is felt with my touch.

I do care deeply for people and tend to find what I loving call Misfits or the Black sheep of the family.

Getting to know you is no game but a welcomed adventure. :D

Mina 13. September 2009, 03:41

Ditto. :o:. Absolutely feel the same.

Since you kindly said I was perceptive and obsevant... I was wondering.... Did I ever told you what I really do for a living?

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 03:43

No but I be willing to bet your a caregiver or HHA. If not you are certainly in that area somewhere.

Mina 13. September 2009, 04:03

Hmmm. Lemme try to explain my talents. The simple explanation is that yes, I provide care, and have been in supervision most of my life.

But that means nothing...

Started off a volunteer at 15, worked with children with disabilities and elderly.. Then worked, for almost a century at a facility, with adolescent males who were unbelievably violent and unpredictable, and became an Autism Specialist.

Then ran a group home with about 40 staff. Our home has the some of the worst behavioral cases of disabled clients in the state. Well. P: not anymore.

Working there and leading that team was magic. :wizard: I've never felt so where I was intended to be. And the clients became different people. Every one of them!

My forte, is finding patterns, thinking outside the box to help motivate individuals want to change and be better, happier, more independent people who hold responsibility for their actions and their behavior.

And I'm very good.

Additionally, I have enjoyed very much hiring people that show me a set of personality traits that I can really use to build up these individuals. Then I give them as much information, tricks, tips and motivation that they wanted.
Ah. I used past tense didn't I?

:cry: Jan 2007 that all changed. Now I work alone with a single client and have little interaction with people.

It's very sad to feel I'm a no one, when I have a gift I enjoyed using.

I can't stop using it, so it comes out in other ways.

Lot of sharing here, but I'm sure you can appreciate the blabbing seeing we both have a sincere care for others and serve for a living....

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 04:24

It takes a special person to with special gifts and talents to do all that you do. You are not a nothing.

You just haven't figured out how to apply all the magic that is in you that you so want to give.

I learned the restaurant buisness from my grandmother. I would spend my summer's with her.

She and a friend owned a little diner that served breakfast and lunch.

There was a juke box, a pin ball machine and a pool table. Guess what habits I picked up at an early age.

I worked the restaurant business for 25 years. Mostly at the management level.

After a bad motorcycle accident with injuries, I had to give that up.

I turned to a hobby. I loved music and playing guitar. So I got into production.
I worked in audio and video studios, lights and sound for music video's, concerts, theatre, motion picture, etc.

I walked away from that to take care of my mother. That's how I got into doing for other's what I do for her. Nobody wanted to give me a job so I started my own business. I love being the boss. Someone complains and wants to talk to my boss I simply say you're looking at the boss. Boy does thar get some looks. lmao

I love to write music, do wall murals (my mother wouldn't let me draw on the wall as a kid so I do it now..lmao) and so many other things.

I like to stay busy :D

Mina 13. September 2009, 04:32

That's so good. You're very adaptable.. And this is good for me to hear. I need to think on this some more.

You have no idea how much work had become part of my identity. And having someone try to fire me unjustly at a low point in my personal life.... It broke me.

Who you see now is the pieces. Everything has changed. And not much for the better.

Guess I'm still trying to figure out what happens from here on out.

I got bigger problems, however, so my job is not a concern, just a wound.

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 04:40

I know how your work becomes so much of your identity.

Being in management you end living in the damn place when it comes to serving the public. It is high stress job that I handled with expertise.

I like to keep busy cause I don't know how to stop.

Life has handed me my share of an ass kicking. I don't stay down long. If someone doesn't want you to play in their ballgame then go start your own.

That's exactly what I did. It takes time but when it catches hold on!!!!!!
Busy central again :D :D

Glad I motivate you to do some thinking:)

Mina 13. September 2009, 14:26

Yeah, you do. :up:

It's hard feeling unhappy with almost every aspect of your life... Things have fallen apart and the good news is, I can't fall much farther.

Something has to get better! Right?? :D

Jaxs 13. September 2009, 14:51

RIGHT!!!!

When you are at the bottom the only place you can go is up.

When you stop dwelling on the devastion and start looking around as to how you can apply your talents, then you start moving up again. :up:

So the wind has changed direction. Like the sails on a sail boat a slight adjustment and you catch the wind again.

Before you know it, you don't have time for much but thats what people like us like. It's our nature to just be busy helping others. :D

So the direction has changed. So what!!!
been at the top before you can do it again. It just may look different, that's all. :yes:

99 % of the people would drop dead if they had my schedule for one week :lol: :lol:

Mina 13. September 2009, 14:58

*lafs* I must be getting old. Thinking of your schedule makes me wanna take a nap.

Things are in a holding pattern right now. Has to be. Someday, yes. Everything will change, and I'm excited and scared to death at random.

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