chef d'oeuvre de ma vie

my man and i made an effort to talk about the circumstances surrounding our break-up...

i feel better...my heart renewed...i shall conquer...i shall be victorious...
as life has taught me...knowing what to do...is winning half the battle...

for the first time after the break-up, my heart smiled! no doors are closed...we simply have to part ways to get to know ourselves better..improve on our self...achieve the potentials of our character...such bliss that there is no concept of moving on...that we will get back together someday...

but as i closed my eyes to sleep...sadness consumed me! for what he is asking me is the hardest thing i have to accomplish... make my undying love for him wait...wait when he is ready...wait when he decides it is time for home...

tears started falling from my eyes when the reality hit me... that there is a probability that time of return will never happen...that he will surrender his heart...his life to someone else...

i am left alone...alone in my room...nobody to call my hearts' home...

my only saving grace...the Lord does not falter...He will give me the best blessing for me...

i shall fight each sadness..i shall achieve my fullest potential...i shall be successful...i shall make the world my playpen...

but until the next blessing...i am left alone...