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Your tears don’t fall they crash around me
/Bullet for my Valentine - Tears Don't Fall

And all the things that you never ever told me
And all the smiles that are ever gonna haunt me
Never coming home
Never coming home
Could I....
Should I?
And all the wounds that are ever gonna scar me
For all the ghosts that are never gonna...
/My Chemical Romance - The Ghost of You

Bury it
I won't let you bury it
I won't let you smother it
I won't let you murder it

Our time is running out
Our time is running out
You can't push it underground
You can't stop it screaming out
/Muse - Time Is Running Out

So catchy and beautiful, they are! ^^


I didn't write the arts test today. I was supposed to, but I didn't. I don't really care about Arts, and I don't really know anything about stupid artistic styles like romantics, classicism or realism.. If I see a painting I can say if I like it or not - but I can't tell you what the artist wanted to express, what brushes and colors and technologies or whatever he/she used, etc. It's just not important... So.. I just handed in a totally empty page.. Even my name was missing.. I'll surely get an F for that, but really, who cares?!

French test tomorrow on la voix passive - easy one..

We won't have the first lesson tomorrow, because we'll be listening to some freshmen (incl. my sister) who will sing some stupid folk songs and say something about 15 March. Then, we'll have 6 more lessons (don't have a clue what.. I'll check my timetable tomorrow.. I ain't learning for no men. Or women. ). Then, 1.5 hrs of Advanced Maths. Then, some minutes of Advanced English.
Then, my last 'driving basics' lesson.. Exam this Wednesday. On my bday... :\
Music.

Gosh, I'll be 17 years old in just 5 days! :S
When you're a little boy, you want to grow up from one hour to the next; but as you're getting older, you realize that being an adult sucks. Growing up makes you more responsible for the things that you do, and as you're getting older, everything is getting more difficult.
The first thing you notice is concerning learning. You have to learn more and more bullshit each day. And as the end of your high school ages is coming fast, you start to realize that what you do will affect your whole later life. You (me, whoever) have to decide now what you want to do with your life, what you want to be, and make basic decisions that affect your life at large.
This is also the age you start having relationships.. Uhm, I don't want to say anything about that for now; let it be enough that not everyone deserves the things you would do to her/him. These love-at-first-sight things are likely not to work..
Anyways.. I'll be 17 soon, and that's really depressing me.. :\ I just got shocked today hearing that two of my classmates are 18; and one of them will be 20 soon.. :S
I don't want this. I don't want to get older and older every day. Damn..
I better get some sleep now.. :\
Good night; and VOTE [check the right side of the page]!

School..
The 'vice president' (what the heck are they called? Vice headmasters?) of our school held a presentation about the new system of education and getting into undergraduate education..
As mentioned some posts before, I found out that A-level exams don't worth suffering at all, since you'll have a HANDICAP if you have an A-level instead of a simple O-level.. The VP () confirmed that..
But our head teacher said that in foreign countries A-level exams DO worth more than O-levels; so now I should decide where to go on. May I stay in this damn country, I could simply stop learning. No matter what I do or how hard I study, I can't have a better chance to be accepted at a Hungarian university.
But if I wanted to continue learning abroad, I shouldn't stop learning Maths at Advanced level in English, and advanced IT.. Because in normal countries, they prefer students with a higher level of knowledge, instead of giving more chance to pregnant, disabled and lame ones. Giving birth to a child at an early age worths more points (50) than passing an A-level (40)..

Life..
Sucks.. I'm fed up with everything. I just want to have a month long sleep and fun, all alone, far away from everyone I know. And I want to be loved. Someone please love me!
And I want to listen to music as loud as possible; but I can't do that at home, cuz my parents would.. uhm.. I don't know.. go mad and crazy

Whatsoever..
I'll turn 17 in a week.. And that's breaking me down also.. "My life is spiraling downward."
Damn, 17 is just way too much.. I want to be like 8 again.. Those were the good times..

I'll have the basics exam on driving next week (on my b-day..); just right after that we'll go to Austria, to the Woerthersee.. And sleep there 14-15-16-17-18. Hope it will be fun.. And hope the weather will be good enough to take some beautiful photos..
Oh, and in case those damn Hungarians would start a revolution the 15th, I guess we won't come back here.. So don't be damn stupid, be calm, and don't give a f*ck about what goes on. I'm ashamed enough to be Hungarian, don't want to be even more.. Half of the country just doesn't wear the cockade anymore, because since 1998 the cockade means something else.. 03/15 became a political, and not a national holiday.. It's not about unity anymore. It's only about politics. And I hate this. I hate politics. Really.

Music..
My Chem, Taking Back Sunday, Funeral for a Friend, The Used, Fall Out Boy, Muse (Time Is Running out is great! Muse sounds like Placebo, so I like them both )... Just to mention some bands I've been listening to lately..

Changing of my musical taste is like:

-2004H2 Pop/Rock.. Only the mainstream.

After songs like Simple Plan - Shut Up!, Good Charlotte - I Just Wanna Live, and Green Day - American Idiot, I started listening to

2004H2-2006Q2/Q3 Punk Rock, pop punk. blink-182, more blink, some more blink, Simple Plan, Green Day, Good Charlotte.

Then blink-182 broke up; +44 and Angels are more like alt. rock than punk pop..
As an influence of the Sziget festival and my sister's trip to Malta, I also started listening to Placebo.

2006Q2/Q3-2007Q1 Alternative rock + punk rock, pop punk. AvA.

Then I went to France for a month:
2006Q2/Q3- RHCP - Dani California & Nickelback - How You Remind Me --> even more alt. rock

Then I came back home. Sziget festival 08/9-16, its theme song was 'Every You Every Me' by Placebo. My sister also got back home from Malta, where she's been listening to Placebo every evening.. +44 also released the 'When Your Heart Stops Beating' around this time.
2006Q3- Placebo. +44.
2006Q3- Silverstein. Influence: a girl I got to know in France..

index.hu had an article about the emerging number of emo's and lil' whores in Hungary, and privi.hu (a site like MySpace); after getting shocked of what kind of people live amongst us, I heard a song on one of the user pages (Roses for the Dead by FfaF) I really liked. I downloaded it, and with the help of Last.fm's 'Similar Artists', I downloaded a lot of popular songs by similar artists..

2007Q1- More 'emotional alternative rock', post-hardcore, or whatever. MCR, FfaF, The Used, TBS, Fall Out Boy...
2007Q1- Some Muse.. Influence: one of my classmates.

Polish people..
Heh, my opinion about Polish people have changed during the recent years.. We had two teachers (last year a girl, this year a boy) from Poland, and they were both very sympathetic and nice; and what I started to notice is that Polish girls look very nice Uhm.. :$


..a damn long post for today