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Twitter's 140 character limit can make me crazy.. I'm twittering here
Wondering how a line like 'You mean much more to me than I do to you.. And as you're not feeling anything, I don't know if it would make any sense to continue..'
Hmm.. after reading this several times, I kinda like it You know, it's the rhymes.. 'you' - 'continue'.. There's a poet deep inside me! Anyways.. I'm still wondering how that would sound IRL..
--twittering ends here:)--

And it sucks so much that anyone could tell how I'm feeling like ATM just by looking at the music I'm currently listening to Oh, and I have my 6000th tracked scrobbled on Last.fm!

Today was a little bit strange.. First of all, I failed a driving exam.. Because I'm still asleep at 7AM, and that's kind of a negative thing if you're driving a car.. Especially if you're on an exam.. Then.. I had some plans for today, which were practically ruined.. And no, not by me.. There are some people who I trust more than I should, and who are way too important for me, even though they don't care about me at all.. And this sucks..
I really should re-prioritize my life and decide what or who is important to me.. Oh, cutekhushi: no, it won't be learning..! Neither working.. For now, what is important for me are: God, my close family (mother, father, sister), and my pets..

School..
The 'vice president' (what the heck are they called? Vice headmasters?) of our school held a presentation about the new system of education and getting into undergraduate education..
As mentioned some posts before, I found out that A-level exams don't worth suffering at all, since you'll have a HANDICAP if you have an A-level instead of a simple O-level.. The VP () confirmed that..
But our head teacher said that in foreign countries A-level exams DO worth more than O-levels; so now I should decide where to go on. May I stay in this damn country, I could simply stop learning. No matter what I do or how hard I study, I can't have a better chance to be accepted at a Hungarian university.
But if I wanted to continue learning abroad, I shouldn't stop learning Maths at Advanced level in English, and advanced IT.. Because in normal countries, they prefer students with a higher level of knowledge, instead of giving more chance to pregnant, disabled and lame ones. Giving birth to a child at an early age worths more points (50) than passing an A-level (40)..

Life..
Sucks.. I'm fed up with everything. I just want to have a month long sleep and fun, all alone, far away from everyone I know. And I want to be loved. Someone please love me!
And I want to listen to music as loud as possible; but I can't do that at home, cuz my parents would.. uhm.. I don't know.. go mad and crazy

Whatsoever..
I'll turn 17 in a week.. And that's breaking me down also.. "My life is spiraling downward."
Damn, 17 is just way too much.. I want to be like 8 again.. Those were the good times..

I'll have the basics exam on driving next week (on my b-day..); just right after that we'll go to Austria, to the Woerthersee.. And sleep there 14-15-16-17-18. Hope it will be fun.. And hope the weather will be good enough to take some beautiful photos..
Oh, and in case those damn Hungarians would start a revolution the 15th, I guess we won't come back here.. So don't be damn stupid, be calm, and don't give a f*ck about what goes on. I'm ashamed enough to be Hungarian, don't want to be even more.. Half of the country just doesn't wear the cockade anymore, because since 1998 the cockade means something else.. 03/15 became a political, and not a national holiday.. It's not about unity anymore. It's only about politics. And I hate this. I hate politics. Really.

Music..
My Chem, Taking Back Sunday, Funeral for a Friend, The Used, Fall Out Boy, Muse (Time Is Running out is great! Muse sounds like Placebo, so I like them both )... Just to mention some bands I've been listening to lately..

Changing of my musical taste is like:

-2004H2 Pop/Rock.. Only the mainstream.

After songs like Simple Plan - Shut Up!, Good Charlotte - I Just Wanna Live, and Green Day - American Idiot, I started listening to

2004H2-2006Q2/Q3 Punk Rock, pop punk. blink-182, more blink, some more blink, Simple Plan, Green Day, Good Charlotte.

Then blink-182 broke up; +44 and Angels are more like alt. rock than punk pop..
As an influence of the Sziget festival and my sister's trip to Malta, I also started listening to Placebo.

2006Q2/Q3-2007Q1 Alternative rock + punk rock, pop punk. AvA.

Then I went to France for a month:
2006Q2/Q3- RHCP - Dani California & Nickelback - How You Remind Me --> even more alt. rock

Then I came back home. Sziget festival 08/9-16, its theme song was 'Every You Every Me' by Placebo. My sister also got back home from Malta, where she's been listening to Placebo every evening.. +44 also released the 'When Your Heart Stops Beating' around this time.
2006Q3- Placebo. +44.
2006Q3- Silverstein. Influence: a girl I got to know in France..

index.hu had an article about the emerging number of emo's and lil' whores in Hungary, and privi.hu (a site like MySpace); after getting shocked of what kind of people live amongst us, I heard a song on one of the user pages (Roses for the Dead by FfaF) I really liked. I downloaded it, and with the help of Last.fm's 'Similar Artists', I downloaded a lot of popular songs by similar artists..

2007Q1- More 'emotional alternative rock', post-hardcore, or whatever. MCR, FfaF, The Used, TBS, Fall Out Boy...
2007Q1- Some Muse.. Influence: one of my classmates.

Polish people..
Heh, my opinion about Polish people have changed during the recent years.. We had two teachers (last year a girl, this year a boy) from Poland, and they were both very sympathetic and nice; and what I started to notice is that Polish girls look very nice Uhm.. :$


..a damn long post for today