David Ebert

Posts tagged with "pain"

Sunday.

Sunday, 13. May 2007, 11:03:03

I feel like being used.. When someone needs me, or anything from me, I'm always there.. But if I needed someone, who would be here with me?! It's nice to hear how much someone needs you and how much someone's missing you when it is sure that you won't meet that day.. But when you could meet, the other person just doesn't want to.. Seems like you're not missing for her/him anymore.. Like if you were just someone to cry to, someone to be played with your feelings and conscience. And that kinda sucks..

Yesterday:
See twitter.

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I look at you with such disdain.

Friday, 11. May 2007, 21:53:48

today, life, pain

Twitter's 140 character limit can make me crazy.. I'm twittering here

Wondering how a line like 'You mean much more to me than I do to you.. And as you're not feeling anything, I don't know if it would make any sense to continue..'
Hmm.. after reading this several times, I kinda like it

You know, it's the rhymes.. 'you' - 'continue'.. There's a poet deep inside me!

Anyways.. I'm still wondering how that would sound IRL..
--twittering ends here:)--

And it sucks so much that anyone could tell how I'm feeling like ATM just by looking at the music I'm currently listening to

Oh, and I have my 6000th tracked scrobbled on Last.fm!

Today was a little bit strange.. First of all, I failed a driving exam.. Because I'm still asleep at 7AM, and that's kind of a negative thing if you're driving a car.. Especially if you're on an exam..

Then.. I had some plans for today, which were practically ruined.. And no, not by me.. There are some people who I trust more than I should, and who are way too important for me, even though they don't care about me at all.. And this sucks..
I really should re-prioritize my life and decide what or who is important to me.. Oh, cutekhushi: no, it won't be learning..!

Neither working.. For now, what is important for me are: God, my close family (mother, father, sister), and my pets..

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Stupid things I don't know why I put down.

Monday, 15. January 2007, 20:00:34

happiness, love, pain, death ...

Who are we? Why are we here, what's our destiny?
These are question that cannot be answered. No one knows what the future will be like, no one knows why do we live, why do exist, and what's the purpose of our lives...
What's worth living for? Happiness, one can say.. And how would you define happiness? Are you happy? Are you sure about that 'yes' you were just thinking about? What makes people happy?
Love? Love is beautiful, love really can make us feel awesome.. But love is not equal to total happiness. Love is something easy to lose; and it can be very painful. So.. what else can make us happy? Success? Well, if you're said to be successful, then others must be less successful, right? And if you make someone unhappy, you get unhappy also, don't you?
Can absolute happiness exist at all? I'm sure everyone has something to be sad about.. Past relationships, illnesses, school, other people's behavior..
....
And what's worth dying for? Love? I think no. Maybe you'll fall in love later on in your life.. Don't commit suicide just because your love is not reciprocated/requited... Success? Definitely not. Success shouldn't be that important for anyone.. Or at least, it is not for me. I don't care about being successful or not.. Of course, success can get me some happy minutes, but I wouldn't do anything to achieve it.. (So, I'm not learning anything at all.. I don't care about my marks, I don't care about my results. I don't care about what other people think about me.)
....... to be continued, maybe..

Damn why the hell did I write all this bull~~shit~~?! I should stop now.. Maybe I'll continue this one time, but I.. I don't know why did I start writing all this at all..

//This is my 100th post!!

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Upside-down.

Thursday, 11. January 2007, 19:01:34

love, pain

Do you know what you feel? Do you know your feelings well? What does love mean for you? Does it make your world turn around? Will it turn you upside-down once your relationship ends, but you're still in love?

//Just some questions to think about.. [...]

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No time.

Friday, 5. January 2007, 17:57:18

today, school, love, pain

So little time, and so much to do...
I have to write that freaking Hungarian essay for tomorrow.. 2 pages. And I haven't written a word yet. Haven't even thought about it. Bah, I'm dead.

Feeling better, starting trying to forget (with minor success..), trying to be happy ('Happiness is the key to a good life; gotta get a smith to make such a key for me..').

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Jesus coming soon.

Tuesday, 19. December 2006, 22:18:13

Christmas, love, pain, drugs ...

//Note: In Hungary, it's the "Little Jesus" who 'gives' the presents every December 24.

So, I've asked 'Lil' Jesus' to make some snow fall several times, but until now nothing happened. It would be just a small little miracle -- shouldn't be hard to do it for him! So c'mon, make some snow!!

Anyways, pictured here is a heart you can see

With this photo I wanted to express how close drugs and love are to each other: first, you seem to be very happy, then you get used to the feeling, and want more and more and more - you simply can't live without it. And when you don't have the opportunity to get more (i.e., you break up), you (or at least a part of you: your heart) dies. It's very hard to continue your life like it was before. You'll always miss that feeling you once felt, the feeling that you love someone and she loves you back - an awesome thing not often happening in anyone's life... And even if you seem to succeed to go on, you'll never be the same. You can never become the man you've been before.

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Anyways.. today, as usual, nothing happened at all.. We wrote a maths test.. and that's all. We're not learning anything new at school, because the Winter Holidays are coming soon!

So, be good, give and get a lot of presents and love, and.. I don't know

Heh, quite a long post I wrote for today

//Feel free to comment any of my posts..

I'm glad to read what other people think of my thoughts...

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