petit espoir

For some ppl, I'm a kind of girls who only see life through rose-tinted glasses.
They think I'm always happy.
However, the truth is :

sometimes I feel annoyed,upset, overwhelmed, stressful ...
goofing off, I feel like I'm a loser.
I get angry ...
but I try to stop rant & rave, ...because I know there are at least 5 ppl who never want me to be cantankerous & cry too much.

...but I'm not a doll which smiles all the time.

I'm here, still alive.
I'm here,
gnashing my teeth,
clicking my tongue (I don't do that in a correct way, in 7 steps like wikihow taught me lolz )

I'm here,
whistling ...
just to pull myself together.


I am aware that time flies.
I'll calm down.